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So I am in my 4th semester, 2nd year of college. First I went to University of Southern Indiana (15 min away) and took a year of general Ed. classes... it was ok altho I felt depressed while there, like I was wasting my time and everyone was advancing beyond me. I was undecided. The next year I went (am going) to Ivy Tech. It is 20 min away. The first semester I took Electronics and it involved a lot of math. I got a C in college algebra but need Trig after that and there was no way I was going to do it.
Then This semester I am taking Computer information technology to either pursue Networking or Computer Security. I am not liking it. Today was my first day... I would almost work as a housekeeper at a pet store (what I currently do) permanently, altho there are times it isnt fun and I have to deal with a lot of mice and rats, and poop. Plus its only 20 hours a week and only pays minimum wage.
I plan on doing a Phlebotomy certification and it is only one class and a externship 2 days a week during the summer so I thought I would do it as a back up plan...some other info. I am 20 and my girlfriend is 17. She just got accepted into a CNA certificate for free from her highschool which she will be taking at Ivy Tech. She plans on becoming a Occupational Therapist. She is highly motivated, unlike me, I guess... and is in the honor society, gets strait A's, community service but only because she has to, etc.
My grandparents own multiple acres adjacent to my house, which is also adjacent to the land of my great aunt, grandparents, and aunt and uncle. The total amount of land is easily over 20 acres give or take 10 acres (probably give at least 5) I already have a plot of land where I am going to build my future house and the survey has been done, I only have to pay a $700 survey fee. The acreage of my plot totals 2 acres. It is wooded and thats how I want it. I like woods. I plan to build a house in the next 2-3 years there with my dad totaling $20,000 no more. I already have a car that is payed off, don't have to worry about it. Already have the land. Don't have a decent job. I almost want to become a stay at home dad or something, I don't know.
I just want input on my life I guess, I am kinda lost. This is kind of a rant kind of not. thanks
LabRat
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Easy fix, join the military! You won't like it, so what's new? May prove to be a bit dangerous from time to time but when it's not boring it can be very exciting. You can advance quickly and yell at others or you can relax and be yelled at. You haven't a clue what you want to do or how to do it. You'll learn in the service! At twenty you should have 3 to 4 years in by now. Don't marry, till you have a profession, (other than military), and well established in it. Life is about 30% planning and 70% luck but you absolutely must have the planning!!
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One word of warning... You will get tired of being poor, sooner or later. It costs a lot to live these days.
I hope you find something you love!!
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Dekrator48
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What do you love to do so much that you would do it for free if you got the chance???
That answer may give you a clue to what your passion is.
I agree that being poor is not fun and will get old eventually, so find what you like and stick with it. Give it your best.
Nothing worthwhile comes easy.
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Tincup
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Just going by this post... the things you speak about here... and your member name...
But are you suffering from depression? With depression often comes a lack of motivation and undecidedness.
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I dont "feel" like i am depressed. i do worry about stuff, every day. I am always worrying about something. But I feel this is normal... I don't feel like I should be on meds. I also am not very social and only have like one guy friend left from highschool and none from college and i only talk to him every other week... idk
Hoosiers51
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Why not do the pblebotomy? Do they make more than minimum wage?
I figure you wouldn't have made it your backup if you didn't find it at least slightly interesting.
Perhaps if you do that, and find you like working in that kind of an atmosphere (medical) you could move on to get your EMT (is that what it's called?), and be an ambulance driver. That sounds exciting, and I don't think the training takes that long, because I knew a 19 year old that was doing it.
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lymewreck36
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I think most college campuses have career centers to help you with testing and counseling to see what you might want to do.
Also, they have counselors on campus to help students that need someone to talk to.
I would say to start there.
I am sorry you are going through this. Loneliness if terrible.
Join some clubs on campus and put yourself in an "uncomfortable" zone, and eventually, it will feel comfortable.
Best wishes, Mary
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17hens
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wow! not many people can start life off without debt! it sounds like you've really got your act together! way to go! i'm a big dave ramsey follower myself, so if you ever do find yourself in financial difficulty, check him out. he's got great ideas and advice. www.daveramsey.com
i think alot of people don't think they're depressed. i didn't in the beginning as it seemed "normal" to me. after a few years, my doc put me on antidepressants that worked for a few months but then stopped working (but they always came with side effects).
i remember about 3 weeks after starting them, thinking how wonderful it was to suddenly see things in color rather than the black and white i had been living. so i realized i was missing something in my life.
i've learned that what gets me down is feeling stuck in a situation when there's nothing i can do about it. and also, not having my voice heard (the two can be related).
after i decided i didn't want to live a black and white life, i found a great couselor who guided me to healthier thinking/talking/self-talk/living. i credit good couseling and sam-e (a natural mood supplement with no side-effects) with bringing me into a life of color.
another thing i would recommend is to commit to doing something on a regular basis that helps someone else. it takes the focus off myself and puts it onto others. feeling needed and being able to show love to others are very important things in life.
and on the practical side, (and as a mom) i say finish your education and get a degree. whatever it's in doesn't matter as much as showing your employer you are teachable. in today's world, i'm afraid you set yourself up for a life-long struggle without a college degree, even if you are a stay-at-home dad. speaking as a stay-at-home mom, kids don't stay little forever and at some point, you'll need to do something productive to feel useful.
that's where i am, trying to figure out what i can do while my kids are in school all day. and with only an assoc. degree, it's hard to find a job where i can make a difference, which is what i want to do.
finding out who jesus christ is and beginning a relationship with him brings huge fullfillment to life. he will walk with you thru anything (even lyme) and fill up your heart when it feels completely empty. he promises that if we seek him, we shall find him for he's loved us since before time began.
just because something (or some way of living) feels normal, doesn't mean it's the best thing for us.
and i say this out of caring (not bossiness)... to comment on what you said "i do worry about stuff, every day. I am always worrying about something. But I feel this is normal." i don't think it's normal to worry about stuff every day. my husband is a worrier and i don't think it's a healthy way to live. i believe my husband learned to worry from his parents and now it's just a habit, but one that he could change. a counselor could help with that, teach you to replace worry with trust. life can be so much better without worry!
and being an introvert, i don't have many friends either. it's much more comfortable for me to be alone (from 8am - 5pm at least), but i know i'm happier when i'm with people. although it takes an effort for me in the beginning, my life is much richer when i've spent time with others. as humans, we were made to be social (to varying degrees of course). so although isolation feels more comfortable to me, i do realize it's not healthy and that i need to step out of my comfort zone and reach out to other people.
let us know how you're doing, dark. feel free to pm me anytime.
blessings, miriam
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