I know that I had many neuro, cognitive, and emotional symptoms before I started these antibiotics
(And it's only been about 9 days)
But HOLY COW -- on top of headache, stiff neck, photophobia (yes, no lights on indoors please!
and the morning sun is a killer too!)
and the other aches and pains in my legs (they burn), the bottoms of my feet hurt,
sweats and chills, colitis, and heart palpitations, exhaustion,
This is the WORST anxiety I have ever had! Not panic attacks ----
Just anxiety where I would like to yell "SHUT UP!" at everything and climb the walls!
I had to shut the ringer off the phone because it was making me crazy!
Also had depressive (and yes, suicidal) thoughts before, but this is much stranger than that ---
Yesterday, out of the blue, I just had this weird, other-worldly feeling of "I think I'm dying...."
And to top it off, just when I finally DO get some sleep (in the midst of the chills and the sweats) ---- HORRIBLE nightmares!!!!!
And I'm frustrated, angry, sad though I think righteously so to a certain degree:
It's so hard to sit here with my head exploding and watching the rest of the world go by....
The other night there was a concert featuring a musician I had worked very hard on promoting.
Wonderful, gifted artist.... I believed in him from the moment I heard him.
Of course, I could not be there Tuesday night because I was between putting my head between two pillows and the bathroom!
I got text messages from people there: "where are you?!" "are you coming?" which of course was wonderful and flattering
but all I could think of was how pathetic I am and cheated I felt.
-------------------- The Bite: July 1995 Next 13 years: Treated for things I didn't have Symptom total: 45 1 faint Lyme IgM May 2000 5 More negative tests IGeneX says YES! 3/16/09 Finally feel human: 2012 Posts: 120 | From Plainsboro NJ | Registered: Feb 2007
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So sorry you're feeling so awful!
I can relate somewhat, because I have days where the whole world just BOTHERS me.
I have 2 young boys (2 and 5), and they are very active and very loud.
Yesterday I wanted to kill them both every time they raised their voices.
And yes, I get the anxiety/panic stuff too.
I just heard about a hometown friend who keeled over with cardiac arrest (luckily his wife, who is a nurse, found him in time).
So last night I was lying in bed, and for the first time in weeks my heart wasn't pounding loud enough for me to hear it, so I thought I was going into cardiac arrest.
Just weird stuff like that.
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So sorry you missed the concert. Might be a good idea to write the artist and let them know why you could not be there.
Within a short time of starting the Doxy, my husband and I both noticed a severe problem with lack of patience, crankiness, short tempered. We both have Lyme. (didn't have that problem on IV rocephin)
Now it's been 4 months, and it seems the symptoms are increasing a little for me. Dont'know if it's the drug or herxing. Much more brain problems, can't deal with stuff, and weird thoughts.
Lots of deep breaths and talking with God. (Lots of talking with God!!) Considered turning off the phone ringer, but there are too many of them! LOL
I decided if I can't handle something, I just take a deep breath and walk away. There's nothing in life that has to be handled right that minute. We just think it does.
I take brewers yeast and acidophilus for the tachycardia, and try to cut things out of my life that aggravate me.
Long deep breaths, btw, work not only for anxiety, but also stop tachycardia. I learned this years ago and a year later it was confirmed by a university study.
I actually was listening to the tachycardia and took deep breaths. Had to do it for a few minutes, but it helped considerably.
Wishing you peace of mind and health!
-------------------- Wishing You Showers Of Blessings! Lyme since Fall 1983 = Diagnosed Summer 2008 IV Rocephin 7 weeks Stopped due to drug fever Now doxycycline "For I know the plans I have for you...plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11 Posts: 421 | From Sunny South | Registered: Jul 2008
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Just remember... the other side of this big picture is much brighter.