I was wondering if anybody else has this - basically, I have been having all these scary symptoms, that even when I don't, I can't keep thinking of anything else other than... they will return. I keep thinking that there probably is something wrong with me (aside from Lyme, as if that was not enough)... Doea anybody else have this - and how do they cope with it/overcome it?
Thank you!
Trout
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Now is the time in your life to find the "tiger" within.
Let the claws be bared,
and Lyme BEWARE!!!
Iowa Lyme Disease Assoc.
www.ildf.info
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There's no better imitation.
We think you're fine.
I have such thoughts myself. Guess it is kind of like a post-traumatic stress thing, mingled with an ongoing nightmare.
I cope by having a strong faith in God, and by the support and stories of other Lyme sufferers.
Hang in there. This too shall pass.
I started questioning myself, too, after the docs (including specialists) I started seeing 'after' my 'extended'
Doxy tx of '100MG 2 x daily'..Ha!!
They told me I should be fine now, cuz I've had enough antibiotics! AARRRGGGGGHHH!!
So, I thought I just needed to go back to work and get over it, already.
The docs had me believing I was just being a Hypochodriac, at that point...and it was confusing, cuz my body was telling me otherwise!
So, I, reluctantly, found a new 'fulltime' job. As hard as it was dragged my butt to work! I new I wasn't getting nominated "the employee of the month"...Ha!
Eventually, I was released, it had been noted in my file "she is to sick to work"!
But in the letter to me, from my supervisor/director, it had actually stated, "Due to a cut back in the budget, your position can no longer be funded."
My job only lasted about 3 months, and the last month, I probably was there only about 1/2 of the time, if that. Even tho I had a doctors excuse, the job was a job that needed to be covered, I couldn't blame them!
They had someone in my position 'immediately' after my last day!
That job had definately set me back! But, if to no one else, I proved it to myself, that I was not ready to go back to work, and needed to find a doctor that understood what was going on with me, if it wasn't Lyme, then what was it??!
I saw my most recent previous employer about a month ago, and he admitted, 'We were really worried about you there for a while, you we're looking like "death warmed over"!!!
So, they did do me a favor, by letting me go 
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The second to last week of my employment, I found my LLMD. He has made a world of differnce, I know I'm no where near going back to work yet, but I'm going to, can't perdict when yet, but I will!!
I know it could still be a long road ahead, because I went undiagnosed for a long time, but I feel I'm out of the woods, for right now
Things will get better, hang in there, and take care of yourself, and listen to what your body is telling you!!
Keep the Faith,
~laserred~
Nancy