I have been thinking about this a lot. I am 52 years old and I think the first time that this feeling was present was about 10 years ago. I had this feeling for many days.
After about 3 weeks of this I began to think that if my life was to end right now it would be okay. It would not bother me at all. I felt at peace with everyone and everything and just felt content. It felt great to be alive, every cell in my body, my being felt connected to everything everywhere.
I was very, very, very content with this feeling. Everything in my life flowed along so smoothly and I was happy to be alive and enjoyed everything and everyone.
It is warm and inviting, a calming feeling that is energizing in a self sustaining manner. It felt as though I could feel every cell in my body. My whole body felt alive. This has become my bench mark for ``WELL BEING''.
I know when this feeling comes and today I cherish this feeling when it comes. I just smile a lot when this happens now. I still experience this well being but not as often as I used too and it doesn't last as long.
I do know that it WILL RETURN after I get the bugs out of my body as this feeling has returned as recently as last week for a few hours. It was a reminder.
I am concerned that we MAY have forgotten about our ``well being'' and realize that this is most likely different for each individual. So........ please, would you like to share your thoughts on what your ``well being'' is?
Posted by Lymeindunkirk (Member # 7118) on :
How do you know you feel good? Hmmm. When you realize that you were really feeling bad before? Or that you don't think about feeling bad anymore? Thats a hard question. Its wonderful to hear that you have felt contentment in your life. It seems that so few of us, lyme or no lyme, are ever able to achieve that state.
Posted by kitkat32 (Member # 9682) on :
What an up lifting topic.
I had one of those days today. I find myself smiling alot. I notice all the little things that make me happy..things I don't notice on my bad days.
I went grocery shopping, cooked dinner for my family and watched my son at soccer practice. I listened to a mother complain how she hated to be there for 2 hours. I just thought how much I loved it. Being outside with my family and talking to other people.
Early in the afternoon we call kind of just layed around the house. It felt good to be a couch potato because we were enjoying eachothers company and not because I wasn't able to do anything.
So..I guess I know I am content when I feel myself smiling alot.
kit Posted by Carol in PA (Member # 5338) on :
The last time I had a couple good days was when I was ramping up on Resveratrol. Suddenly I realized that I could think again!
Not only that but I could think about two things at once, and I had completely forgotten that.
I had a better sense of motivation, and I started taking care of some things that I had put off.
This came to a crashing halt when I developed kidney pain and stopped all of Buhner's herbs.
At least I know my mind is still in there somewhere.
Carol
Posted by JimBoB (Member # 8454) on :
Sorry to hear about your pain Carol. But WHY would you stop ALL of Buhners protocol for Kidney pain? I don't understand?
Maybe IF you have ONE of the herbs that is NOT for YOU, I could understand stopping that one. But not all.
I had a problem with Coptis a little over a month ago, maybe two months ago, don't remember. SO I stopped it and artemisia annua and even all of Buhners protocol except Sarsaparilla, but then restarted his again in a couple of days, slowly ramping up. Took me a month to get better, but it did happen.
Now yesterday I started taking Coptis again, only slower this time to see IF my body can handle it or not. Wasn't feeling so good at times today, but a couple of hours ago, and now, I started getting my vision back real good again, and feeling much better.
And I understand what you are all talking about HOW GOOD IT FEELS to feel good again.
One thing I do understand, as I am age 65, and many on my mothers side ended up in a wheelchair at about that age to age 70, because of arthritus; so when I can feel pretty good, it is like a miracle.
Jim Posted by clpgotlyme (Member # 7875) on :
When my pain level is managed with Tylenol and no narcotics. Also when I can do a moderate amount of activity without setting myself back several days!I do not expect to feel normal again, but do believe I can get to this point again. Cindy
Posted by Life inLymbo (Member # 8388) on :
Actually those days make me sad...because it makes me realize all that I'm missing and all that I could be but I know it won't last....because this disease makes me live my life in limbo.....
But now if I want to be optimistic, which is my usual state of mind which I'm sure you can't tell from these first couple of depressing lines... Days like that give me hope!
Posted by 5dana8 (Member # 7935) on :
Hey John
I have these really good days, that seem to happen for no particular reason. And when they do I am so happy I could burst! I appreciate them more than words can say.
These ramdon feel good days I live for, and are a constant reminder of what I am fighting for.
So I do know that these clear headed, energenic and blissful days lay in wait for me. That you never know, if you wake up, that day could be one of them. Posted by Curley911 (Member # 2205) on :
I know I feel good when I can look back over a two week period and KNOW it was great. It comes and goes, I can't plan it but more and more I almost can.
I've been on abx for 5 years and take alot of supplements. Staying the course w/a specific LLMD has been important.
I love to get up & have that 1st cup of coffee in the morning. I love to go to the movies becaue I WANT to, not because it's the only thing I'm able to do. I love the 1st piece of popcorn like my 1st cup of coffee . . .(I limit my carbs!)
I love that I can spontaneously go on a vigorous bike ride on a rutted trail and see the old me emerging. I love that I can think about things and come to my own conclusions in time instead of fogging out and then copping out on making decisions.
I love that I can tell when someone is overstepping their boundaries and I see it and POINT IT OUT. Especially a duck psychologist! LOL. Gotta love one that actually said "in our business we have to listen to whatever a customer has to say in order to have them as a client." (I'm a hairdresser). This is not true, both parties should be matched for a fun appt. She may have to listen but I don't :-).
I can fire a client! I can charge for no shows or late cancellations because I realize they are doing it & I can point it out effectively. I have signs posted that say this. I also post that this is a major loss of income in my profession. I don't miss being taken advantage of :-). It's BUSINESS.
Yes, I do listen to borish, obnixious people but at least I know who they are and I can now corral them much better. But mostly people are genuine, kind and fun.
I love that some people don't come here anymore because they are well. I visit occassionaly to see if I can help.
Make it a great day! Curley
Posted by Carol in PA (Member # 5338) on :
Jim and Dana, When I wrote that post, I was too fatigued to go into further detail.
After being on the Resveratrol for several days, I could think again. (I think I was up to a total of 6 capsules per day.)
But then I developed this backache in the kidney area, and after three days it had not improved, so I stopped all the herbs.
The pain subsided. After a couple days, I cautiously started the herbs again, and only took one or two of the Resveratrol.
The kidney ache returned, so I stopped everything again.
After a while, I did restart the cat's claw, because I've been taking that for a while without any problems. The other stuff I kept at low doses, except for the Resveratrol, which I've been afraid to take more than once or twice per week. This all started in March.
I did buy a container of urine test strips, the kind that tests for ten things, like we used in the hospital. I wanted to make sure I could test the urine if I ever got the kidney pain again.
My initial point, though, was that when my mind cleared, I considered it a very good day.
Carol
Posted by AZURE WISH (Member # 804) on :
A good day is when I am actaully able to work on my art even if it is only for 15 minutes. That time is me reclaiming me (even if it is only occaisionally and for a short period of time) -----
What will be better is when I can FINALLY go back to work again (I have been disabled since 2000)Then both my being and my body will be well. And I'll be one of the weird people on the planet that cherish every day they CAN go to work. ------
What lets me know that things aren't that bad (even on the really bad days) are
1. I always try to remember things could always be worse - and more importantly that they have been tons worse.
2. I wake up to my cats sweet little face. His big eyes speak volumes and always make my heart smile.
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