Every time I try to take meds to treat it my already bad mood swings turn into severely irritable, angry and severely depressed moods.
Oh and feeling suicidal! (don't worry I don't think I'd actually do it!)
But the feelings of the depression and wanting to die are horrible. How do people cope?
Is this a Flagyl thing or Bartonella herx? Same problem when I took Rifampin
Also I have tried anti depressants. I have a chemical sensitivity so all I get are really bad side effects and weight gain.
What about some herbs? Any ideas? Thanks so much!
Posted by nefferdun (Member # 20157) on :
It has been my experience that treating bart causes an emotional herx equivalent to a nervous breakdown. I would get so depressed I was collapsed on the floor crying over something on TV. Then the pendulum could swing the other direction and I would be in a complete rage over something insignificant.
I quit treatment for a few weeks, then got very depressed so I went back on the abx less than a week ago. I got up one night so upset from the recurring symptoms that I decided liver failure was the preferable death rather than the dementia, depression and depersonalization of lyme/bart. I guess you could say that was my low point verging on suicidal mentality - not serious, just depressed. I have been having my ups and downs since then.
Another post brings up that bart cycles every 4 days which makes sense so maybe we are hitting our emotional lows during this time.
I have read many posts in which people could not stop crying when they started treatment for bart - could not even go to work or be consoled by their families. Sometimes they are so anxious that they actually become clinically paranoid, But the people that are not treated are the worst often ending up divorced or even diagnosed with dementia or insanity.
It gets better. It is just so hard to get through. Hang in there.
Posted by lyme in Putnam (Member # 11561) on :
I just took klonapin when I couldn't stop crying for 2 days and slept. I was herxing plus period, hormones, full moon, iv...I'm on anti-depressants and they might as well be tic tacs. I whish I had an answer for you. PM or write when you want. I know how bad it feels, feel better soon. Been drinking lemon water every day to detox. Don't know if it helps, but it has to be good for you I learned from the site.
Posted by nefferdun (Member # 20157) on :
I have to emphasize that it really does get better - I made it sound so harsh. One day you will feel a sense of joy you have been missing and see, touch, hear and smell life again. You will know then that there is a way out of this. Just don't let your guard down and quit the abx too quickly because if you do, it comes right back if there is ANYTHING you missed.
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