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Posted by Consuelachacha (Member # 26538) on :

I am getting sick of "begging" for help. One shouldn't have to beg for help for an illness that is killing them.

I have suddenly turned into this MONSTER that lashes out at everyone for everything when I use to just bite my tongue. I have been like this for about a week now.

Bursting with rage. And yes at Dr. C too. Shame on him for charging outlandish prices to those of us that so desperately needs his help!!!!

Shame on all the Doctors that just saw me in the hospital and said the atypical things that ID's and Neuro ducks say.

They put me through hell and I'm still going through hell.

I am mad at the world. I'm sure this is just ANOTHER part of the disease.

Yes rage and anger go right along with Lyme!!!!! I already know this is what I will be told. But who can I get help from??? NO ONE!! The ones that can help are taking advantage of us because they know we have nowhere else to go.

Sorry for yelling, but I am ANGRY!!!!!
[cussing]

Posted by mcg08002 (Member # 24617) on :

You have every right to be upset.

There have been many times I have screamed, cried, thrown things, and even just shut my self from social acitivites for awhile because of the anger.

These doctors, they do not understand. We can be angry with them all we want, it won't do anything I have learned. (There are still a couple doc here on campus I want to punch in the face).

We just have to endure to the end. Do what ever we can with every fiber of our being. Nothing in life is easy, but enduring to the end will be worth it.

What I have been doing is keeping a journal. I may not write in it everyday, but it helps release my anger and frustration on this illness that yes, is slowly killing us like MS and Lupus.

Try keeping a journal. I want you to write down 10 things you LOVE about yourself and are grateful for ;-)

I would just tell you to just infest those doctors beds with ticks, so then maybe they would understand.... ;-)

Hugs are being sent your way [Wink]

Posted by libby333 (Member # 26573) on :

I agree with mcg08002...let the doctors be infested with disease, or even have a family member with LD, and I bet they would change their attitudes.

I also keep a journal. Some days I just shut myself in my room and write down eveything on my mind.

I then get a match and burn it!! It is very theraputic!

I tend to get angry at the people who support me the most...my family. I get so angry and the smallest things. Then I feel guilty...then I feel rage...it's a vicious cycle.

Hang in there! You are the only one who knows your body and you have the right to be angry in my opinion.

Sending peaceful thoughts your way and a pillow to scream into! [Smile]

Posted by janet thomas (Member # 7122) on :

I know it's difficult but I have learned it's best to try to act normal.

Non-Lymies will never understand and those around us get tired of hearing it.

Posted by sixgoofykids (Member # 11141) on :

moving to general support