Friends, I am currently treating bart. Whenever I flare (every 15-18 for about 4-5 days; has also happened before I started this treatment) I have these weird thoughts. I have never been a suicidal person and I know I would never do that.
But when I flare, I often recorgnize myself in a mood like talking to someone I know, or just for myself, and yelling stuff like "well than I have to kill myself if you/no one won't help me/cure me".
I get so agitated, but when the flare is over, that feeling is gone as well.
During the first 3 weeks on Rifa & Mino, I really felt like things improved for me. I have had 10 days where I had no symptoms, but now I feel like sliding back.
Thoughts and comments are welcome
[ 07-30-2013, 12:24 PM: Message edited by: Kern33 ]
Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
Just keep others around you during these times. Make sure you keep reminding yourself that it is the BART, not YOU.
Maybe you are having a monthly type of herx since you've been on the meds 3 wks??
Not sure if bart cycles like that.
What else have you tried for bart?
Posted by Kern33 (Member # 36267) on :
thanks lymetoo, feels good to read you. I have taken lots of abx for 2 years now in different combinations (doxy, zith, ketek, cefuroxim, bactrim).
I have had the monthly flares before I started treating lyme. I have also treated Babesia and I fell that now flares come in this pattern.
Posted by Carol in PA (Member # 5338) on :
You might get more responses from people with experience if you change the title to Mino and suicidal thoughts.
I think this problem is fairly common. Have you talked to your doctor? You might need to stop the med.
Posted by Kern33 (Member # 36267) on :
Hi Carol, I heard it is common. I personally do not regard is as too serious, since I do not feel a pressure to do it but simply this overwhelming anger. Would just be great to whether it may be Bart-related and it is good to talk about it.
Another mental issue is lingering which i like to hear opinions on: there is a girl i used to date, she wanted us to become a couple, but I was really not interested in her that much and after a certain time she stopped dating me which was fine with me.
After some months she contacted me again, we dated again but she didn't wanted to further see me after a couple of times, since she had met someone else in between. It s almost a year ago and I am so angry and mad at her. I know it is irrational but I am so jealous and feel betrayed by her. Could that be bart as well or is it simply stupidity ? Normally, I am not really a jealous person and I have never been during the timne we dated. I never see her but I am thinking about her all day, so angry at her.
Posted by Bitten in Bergen (Member # 34067) on :
Are you taking any binders? Detox support?
May help.
Posted by Kern33 (Member # 36267) on :
thanks Bitten, I am not taking any detox since so many different products exist and it confuses me much more. I am doing a lot of exercise and eating very clean and healthy.
Posted by Kern33 (Member # 36267) on :
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Posted by Carol in PA (Member # 5338) on :
"I am not taking any detox since so many different products exist and it confuses me much more."
If you like, I can suggest some things to start. You may be able to reduce the feeling of overwhelming anger.
Magnesium Fish oil
Posted by Kern33 (Member # 36267) on :
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? Normally, I am not really a jealous person and I have never been during the timne we dated. I never see her but I am thinking about her all day, so angry at her.