It hurts me so much to see that our family has had problems in our absence...you're all so dear to me.

Lou and I have so many nice stories of all
the wonderful people we've met through the years.

I remember meeting Tincup for the first time years ago....she walked over and just smiled at us. I KNEW in a minute who she was..just an inside cozy and happy feeling told me so. She didn't say a word. I remember just yelling out "Oh my God, TINCUP"!! And then we hugged each other.

When I refer to all of you as my family, I truly mean that. I really can't explain the
feeling being so deep and genuine except maybe it's the fact that I saw my daughter suffer so much with Lyme and maybe that gave me a strong bond with each of you.

(To let you know where we've been)

You knew that we had to get off as moderators for awhile because my mother was very ill.......in fact, that started before 2000. She went through massive bouts of paranoia. During this period, my father would call us each night. She would go through a spell called "sun-downing" and become very frightened and agitated.

She went through many different illnesses which finally ended up with her passing away in hospice two years ago. Lou and I feel so old since all that began.

After her passing, my father lived in his house alone for not quite two years. This past April, on my birthday, as we were just about to go on our first cruise to celebrate our 40th anniversary, we were awakened at 4am ...my father was looking all over the house for my deceased mother...and was in some state of confusion. He's now in a nursing home....we visit him every day or every other day.

And, early last year, our grandson Cade, was diagnosed with Autism.....such a sad time for all of us. Thank God, however, he's high on the spectrum and will begin special school next month.

We saw them tonight and Lori had tears in her eyes when she said "Ma, I don't know what the
future holds.......I just wish I could wake up some morning and Cade would be normal!"

We heard there were problems on Lymenet, so we "stopped in" (we thought for a friendly visit) ...maybe a little coffe and.....and we see things aren't as we left them. I'm so sorry for that.........we had no idea.

Lou and I hope with all our hearts that our family will soon be reunited.

We have ALWAYS thought the world of you and your family.

Best wishes, and prayers for your daughter and grandson.

It took me two long years and 15 doctors till I was finally diagnosed. I finally said to heck with this and these doctors who don't know anything (much less being able to actually help me) and ended up diagnosing myself and finding my own LLMD - which is downright sad.

Who knows where I would be now w/out Lymenet or how sick I would be.

Now that my husband has started to show signs of Lyme, he won't suffer like I have.

So I owe Lymenet alot.

-My children would have seen their Mother suffer through cancer alone

-My children would have had no father to guide them daily

-My parents would have had to suffer the loss of not only their 3ed son 18 years ago...but also their 2nd of three

-My legacy would have been wrong....dead wrong

-I would not have had the chance to help intervene in TWO Lyme Suicide's in TIME to save them

-I would not have positively changed the lives of so many//who were suffering unwaranted from misdiagnosis

-I would not have You

God Bless;

Trout

dont know where i would be...gary