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I am not sure what is going on with me, but since cavitation surgery on 7/11 (on #s 17 and 32) I have felt pretty miserable. Not only have my physical and die off symptoms increased, but emotionally I am a wreck. I vacillate between occasional and very short spurts of joy and hope and utter despair, anxiety, and hopelessness.
Yesterday after lunch I had yet another gallbladder attack. This is probably the 6th one since the cavitation surgery and this is something that had improved for me since starting treatment with my current doctor January 2012. I seem to be getting more die off from my antimicrobials (Cryptolepis, Artemisinin, Quintessence, GcMAF, and many more). I took a Percocet (10/325) which caused horrible nausea and that is something new. I have always tolerated it well. Later last night I started getting a headache and it is just now finally getting a little bit better.
It feels like my body is falling apart and like the brain fog is worse than ever. And I have been in treatment for 1 year and 7 months. I actually feel worse right now than I did when I first started to see my doctor and I am not sure what to make of this.
I am dealing with grief over all the years I have lost to this illness, feelings of inadequacy because I am 47 years old and feel like I don't have much to show for it career wise, feeling stupid because I can't remember much of what I have learned - ever, and just in general feeling very down about myself and my life. This is not what I am usually like. Ordinarily I keep a positive attitude and outlook so I am confused and scared.
Can anybody relate to this especially after cavitation surgery. I feel like giving up right now but what does that even look like? Eat whatever I want and stop taking my very expensive meds and supps? Then what - feel even worse???
I need to go back to work and make some money but working as a database programmer, my profession, seems like too much and overwhelming. So I have been looking for something part-time like maybe a receptionist at a vet's office or something, but I am not even sure I can handle a part-time job out of the house.
Sorry to vent/purge like this but I feel overwhelmed and scared. All this time, knowing how serious chronic Lyme is, I have never felt like I was fighting for my life. But right now I do feel like I am fighting for my life but it feels like I am losing that fight.
Eluthero, ashwaghanda and rodiola can help with anxiety and depression.
Sometimes, what seems like real fear and desperation is comming from inflammation in the brain.
I hope someone here can relate to your surgery.
All I can say is when you feel better, you won't feel so desperate.
Please don't give up.
P.S. I know it is hard to live on such little money, but no need to push yourself to work until you are up to it. You want to heal.
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linky123
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I had cavitation surgery a couple of years ago, and if I had it to do again, I would not.
I feel like the dentist that did mine, stirred up more problems than I started with.
I had seven root canals/crowns extracted - now seven missing teeth and partials.
When I look in the mirror, I see an old woman staring back.
Very depressing.
In theory I guess the whole procedure makes sense, but I don't think the dentists that do this always get the desired result.
Oil pulling does help to get rid of some of the remaining infection. You might google to see how it's done.
Good luck.
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Oral surgery (any kind of surgery) can set us back. It puts such stress on our already taxed immune systems. I had a badly infected root-canaled tooth extracted with removal of the necrotic bone surrounding it - in June and I was a mess for the few weeks following this. I am gradually getting better and feeling a little more myself.
This setback is really common with dental surgery. I think it is a combination of the surgery itself putting stress on our bodies, but also related to heavy metals being moved around and possibly redistributing.
Are you taking any binders? Chlorella 1/2 hour before meals, charcoal and diatomaceous earth (away from meds) may all help. I started taking Interphase Plus, which contains small amounts of EDTA and serrapeptase prior to and following my oral surgery. I am still taking it and I think it has made a difference.
Feel free to PM me if you would like to discuss more. I have added a few things to my protocol recently and I think they are all good.
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Thank you all for the replies and encouragement. I am on a heavy duty Lyme/Co-Infections protocol. I do take binders like chlorella, clay, and some others. I just had to cut back a little bit. So far I have really not dealt with emotional issues like I am dealing with right now. I have had tons of brain fog, inability to concentrate and/or wrap my mind around things, but not anxiety and self-doubt like this.
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