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Posted by MADDOG (Member # 18) on :
 
Hi Gang, my job of thirty years I can no longer do.That job has to be in the past,but not yet is.I have two choices, move to Flint Michigan and be an auto consultant,or go for disability. The move would mean giving up the house I built,my home stomping grounds were I was raised,and leaving an aging mother who needs me,to my sister and bro to be there.Going for disability will mean at least a year fighting with the gov idiots who's only job is to deny me disability,and dont give a darn about suffering humanity,or pain.My shoulders are destroyed,my back is herniated,I have Cronic nural lyme,Babs,epstein barr,touretts,epistital systus,Hv6,Bad hip,chem sinsitivites,Lyme blindness at times,Extremly low natural killer cell count, and gout.What to do ??? MADDOG
 
Posted by minoucat (Member # 5175) on :
 
Maddog, I'm so, so sorry. I know how hard you've fought this off. Talk about being between a rock and a hard spot.

Dunno what to tell you, except that the house and the friends you have where you are are important. Are you sure enough of doing the consulting work to risk giving up your house?

I know you've had enormous doctor problems; do you have enough documentation from them to present a good disability case? If you do, I guess I'd go for that.

We were enormously surprised that my husband got his SS disability with relatively little struggle, based on cognitive deficit. The LTD, on the other hand, has been absolutely impossible. But we do have a lawyer, and he thinks we'll win; just takes forever.

Hugs to you.
 


Posted by once bitten on :
 
Maddog,May I speak to the point?
Go for nuts. SSDI is much easier to get that way.
I found out cuz first I was NUTS then I realized I have lyme. SO as I get better with lyme I am less NUTS.
IF there is any documented mental/emotional symtpoms, use that.
Lyme is secondary that way.
BTW I have panic/agoraphobia and got TOLD by my doc to apply for SSDI, I did, and got it without a problem. IF I had done it the Lyme way, it would have been a battle.
so a shift in thinking and approaching the problem thru a different door is the order of the day.
And just in case you are wondering, no one on the SSDI board will give a **** if you are NUTS or have LYME.and lyme will drive you nuts anyhow, right? we are all there in the Peanuts gallery with you.
Hows it going with the bicllin shots?

 
Posted by Tincup (Member # 5829) on :
 
Just my opinion Maddog...

I would follow the yellow brick road in this case.

You always start at the beginning.. like the good witch told Dorothy.

First get out of that job you have. It is making you MUCH worse.. no doubt. You can't be expected to continue without hurting yourself or others. Apply for the disability you deserve... and make THAT your full time job.

THEN... once that is settled... and you have more treatment on YOUR side of the fence... think about what else you can do.

Social Security disability allows folks to work part time after they are approved for disability... and still get the benefits without a cut. This part time work may be a future goal if the circumstances are right.

In the meantime..

Make caring for your mom and family your priority and your JOB. No telling how long your family will be around.. so please make the most of it while you can. I only wish I had more time with my mom before she passed.

I am SURE your family wants what is best for you.. and most of all.. they want and NEED you near them for now.

They are number one... not some company in another state. THEY deserve your help and love... not the company in some other state.

The option of taking a new job far away, moving, and leaving your home may be NOT a good thing for you... and then you would end up suffering due to jumping from the frying pan into the fire.

Taking off from that job you have now... all together... would allow you more time to focus on YOUR health too. That is a TOP priority!

But then.. MY top priority is YOU...

I want what is best for YOU... MY Maddog!


 


Posted by lori (Member # 176) on :
 
Maddog - i think i remember u from years ago from a lyme chat room but i could be wrong - lord knows my memory isnt the greatest. i am at where u r in a way - i have a 23 year old daughter, who i still support as she just graduated. i have been out on disability since april 9th (3rd time) first being for 2 years in 1995. my husband left me in 1997 and only being married for 15 months and i was forced back to work. had a relapse of some sort in 2000 and was out for 2 months - fought company doctor just for the lousy two months - and now again im out but at a different job. do not feel like i can go back - have been fighting disability to receive peanuts since ive been out and its worse than working. i really cant leave my apartment, have nowhere to really go, would have to give up apartment and daughter would have to find a place to live in a hurry. i see doctor today - it looks like post lyme or chronic lyme or whatever they are calling it these days. i was put thru a battery of tests including a spinal tap and everything came back ok so i have to discuss with him today as to what he thinks. u know how the doctors and the insurance companies and the govt dont get it so getting assistance would be a problem. i feel ur pain. i dont have any answers for u, i wish i did. i will put u in my prayers and if u want to write me feel free - [email protected].

take care and try not to get frustrated - i know easier said than done - have faith - thats is all i am relying on these days.

quote:
Originally posted by MADDOG:
Hi Gang, my job of thirty years I can no longer do.That job has to be in the past,but not yet is.I have two choices, move to Flint Michigan and be an auto consultant,or go for disability. The move would mean giving up the house I built,my home stomping grounds were I was raised,and leaving an aging mother who needs me,to my sister and bro to be there.Going for disability will mean at least a year fighting with the gov idiots who's only job is to deny me disability,and dont give a darn about suffering humanity,or pain.My shoulders are destroyed,my back is herniated,I have Cronic nural lyme,Babs,epstein barr,touretts,epistital systus,Hv6,Bad hip,chem sinsitivites,Lyme blindness at times,Extremly low natural killer cell count, and gout.What to do ??? MADDOG

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Lori
 


Posted by kam (Member # 3410) on :
 
Sounds like you would like to stay where you are and receive disability but are not sure how that will go.

Give it a try. It just may all work out.
 


Posted by Lishs mom (Member # 2344) on :
 
mad dog, I didnt read the other replys so forgive me if I am restating something.

If I were you, I would ask myself...where will I be in a year?
if you move...despite your ability now to consult, will you be consulting in a year with your health issues? If not...then I would not even consider a move! because the inevitable will be here then!

If disability is the inevitable here...fight for it now, while you have resources available. Dont wait until your $$ are totally gone a year from now, and your security is gone (the house).

You may have to mortgage the house in a year or so to make ends meet, but at least you will still be eating..(writing this brings out how terrible this illness is....roof over head vs. eating!....Damn this disease is terrible and worst is how were treated by our own country....and we claim were in war against terrorist????...this is the ultimate terrorism)

sorry, got off track here.


ok...thats my input.
Have you considered the following:
fight for disability due to your disabilities...not your illness?

ie: go to eyedoctor during a "blind" spell....get a diagnosis of "legally blind"

get a neurologist to sign off for your seizures or weakness, not neuro lyme. - stating its dangerous or impossible for you to do your job.

etc.

dont go "lyme disease" route....


 


Posted by once bitten on :
 
she said that way better than I did.
how's it going maddog?
 
Posted by MADDOG (Member # 18) on :
 
Hi,I have received some very good advice so far.There is no way to know if i will even be here in a year.I just recently barely got past a spot were i couldent take any abx ,and lost 24 pounds, 20 of it in 3 weeks,due to direah.I got very fog brained and couldent have consulted.I am hanging on due to metamusil stoping the direah,and allowing me to take ABX again.I had 3 weeks of totaly getting better between herxes.However I am off ABX due to YEAST now.My toung is covered,I am even coffing my throat out due to this crap.I took diflucan ,no help,and started grapefruit extract today. HE HE HE What fun this is.I made up a song today.Candita we can make together,choking on this white crap forever.He HE you all get it,any body got any more lines for my song. MADDOG
 
Posted by Green Darkness (Member # 985) on :
 
MD: I agree with all that TINCUP says.
Be prepared for the SS to get turned down ; maybe even a few times, but do not give up--keep trying.
 
Posted by SC (Member # 5767) on :
 
Maddog I am very sorry to hear that you are in this situation.

I have to agree with everyone else. I would not move for the job.

The stress of moving would be hard on you and you would have to leave too many things behind. Especially your mother.

Ditch the job and start fighting for the disability you deserve!

We will have you in our prayers!
SC
 


Posted by Beverly (Member # 1271) on :
 
HI Maddog,

I agree with everyone above, and I am keeping you in my prayers.

God Bless,
Beverly
 


Posted by rosesisland2000 (Member # 2001) on :
 
Maddog, I am assuming that if you've been at the same job for 30 years, that, you are over 50, right? If that is the case, you will have a much easier time proving your disability...at 50 and over the criteria is less stringent.

Now there is a difference in SSD and SSDI, big difference, big. If you have no other resources and would qualify for your state's MediCAID program, ( I emphasized that for they are simular in spelling), then you'd qualigy for SSDI.

But, if you have assets and other income, you'd be eligible for SSD. With SSD, Medicare would be the ticket on that one after you've been on disability for 2 years.

There isn't a difference in your check with either SSD or SSDI, but, the medical care is very different.

When, and if, you apply, you can apply for both at the same time and they'll figure out which one you would qualify for and send you that decision. Remember savings, stocks/bonds, and retirement income, play in their decision as to which one.

Even with trying to go around LD and use being NUTS, you, still, could be turned down and probably will the first try. I speak from experience with my brother, who finally on the 7th try commited suicide and my first husband, who is in a "bed and care" home in California were turned down the first time.

However, if you have a serious (to them) disease, like Leukemia (one of the types that kills quickly), you would probably get it the first try. My late husband, John, got it on the first try in 1987 at the age of 38, but he had a two year death sentence with Chronic Myleogenous Leukemia.

Just throwing out examples and explaining the difference between the two Social Security disabilities.

Also, I would consider the fact that with this move you'd be leaving a zone of comfort to a zone of no support and then when you get there, stress of the move and new job location, you'd more than likely get sicker and then you could be just stuck there. IMO, I'd stay.

I'm currently in my home town and near my elderly 86 year old mother. We realize that we can not move unless I get completely well, or Mother dies. There is absolutely no other reason for us to be here, well, until Amanda's husband makes it back from Iraq. But, we need the support right now...being sick is hard, but being sick and working, must be horrible.

Hang in there, it took me from the time I first applied in March of 2000 til December 2003 to get my first check. Get an attorney that is recommended by someone that has gotten approved, not just any ole on in the Yellow Pages...get one with proven results. They don't charge unless you get approved and even then their fee is dictated by the Social Security Administration (SSA).

A really good resource for you to start studying for you to make a good decision, is at their website.
www.ssa.gov

Best of luck,

Rosemary
 


Posted by MADDOG (Member # 18) on :
 
Hi everyone,It happened again at work today.I got hurt again.I rehabed my walking a long time ago,due to back nerve damage so I walk on glass .I do it well enuf that only trained pros can tell I have trouble. But if there is any slick spots on the floor I am doomed to slide.I was carring a brake rotor to the recycle ben at work ,hit a oily spot on the floor and slid.I just barely escaped a bad fall,but the jerking motion yanked my shoulder out of place again,the shoulder holding up the brake rotor.My P.H. therapist would be so disgusted if she new about this thing,she told me to quit my job or I would get hurt again. MADDOG
 
Posted by MADDOG (Member # 18) on :
 
Sorry to answer my own post again.How did I go from Mnt. climbing to this place in life in just 15 years???? I am in denial,I can't belive it myself.That is the problem !!! Maybe if I pinch myself I will wake up and go Wheu It was just a bad dream!!! MADDOG P.S. except for meeting all of the wonderful lyme people here.You are all so dear to me!!
 
Posted by Lishs mom (Member # 2344) on :
 
quote:
Originally posted by MADDOG:
Hi everyone,It happened again at work today.I got hurt again.I rehabed my walking a long time ago,due to back nerve damage so I walk on glass .I do it well enuf that only trained pros can tell I have trouble. But if there is any slick spots on the floor I am doomed to slide.I was carring a brake rotor to the recycle ben at work ,hit a oily spot on the floor and slid.I just barely escaped a bad fall,but the jerking motion yanked my shoulder out of place again,the shoulder holding up the brake rotor.My P.H. therapist would be so disgusted if she new about this thing,she told me to quit my job or I would get hurt again. MADDOG

Theres a saying..."God works in mysterious ways".
Could it be...NOW you have a concrete...(another concrete) reason for disability? and you can keep lyme out all together???

 


Posted by MADDOG (Member # 18) on :
 
Hi Everyone,I found out today that the job pays enuf that I can keep my home here and rent an apartment in michigan.At least for awhile untill I see if I can do the job.I can come home on the weekends,it is only 250 miles away.I can allways bail out and apply for dissability and come home,if necessary. I have to go for it!!! MADDOG P.S. I am making a new resume to send in with the application.My 30 years expirence and tech college,and about 80 GM auto classes count,and my auto certifications,and my computer savy.
 
Posted by lookin4answers (Member # 4974) on :
 
How's it going Maddog?

Hope you are doing well.
 


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