im tired..and grumpy.....and vertigo....and a headache.....all i can think about is my bed.
instead i am at work. no choice. need the money.
i just took my doxy..i apparently did not eat enough because now my belly is on fire and i have to puke
just wondering if anyone else is feelin the same today. 5:00 is soooooo far.
amyb
p.s i do know i am fortunate to be able to function enough to work and i am sorry for anyone who can not.
before i get anybody mad 
Sheri
But this boat will reach port!
DMC
No choice - need money and insurance. I wonder if there's a day out there that I won't be able to. What will happen then? I just can't allow myself to look too far ahead - it's too depressing.
I have been wanting for some time to be a stay home MOTHER, WIFE, HOUSEKEEPER, etc, etc.
I think this is going to force me to work up till I can not do it anymore. Then how well am I going to be a mother, wife, and housekeeper?
I am not doing a good job of all those things right now because I am having to work full time.
My hubby will not be home till around May, 2005. (in Iraq for those that do not know) Life is VERY stressful these days.
I finally broke down and went to my boss and ask him for a day off during the week, when I do not have my girls at home.
That way I can get several matters taken care of that I other wise have a hard time doing at work.
Like clean house! On the phone with INS., and you know, the list goes on. Well I am thru rambling.
Take Care All!
Amanda
I could "fake" physical ability and push myself to perform a "light" level job, but once I started to lose my brain, there was nothing I could do.
If I had it to do over again, I would have gone out sooner. I think I ultimately did some damage to my overall health, and perhaps I won't make the recovery I would have if I had stopped and taken care of myself.
So, do look ahead and find out all you can in regards to any benefits you have through your employer. LTD, continuing your health insurance, etc. Also, modified work schedules and other ways to build in recovery time. It is just good to know all this in case you ever do get to the point where that decision needs to be made.
There are other issues which are helpful too. For example, I learned that as long as I have my doc sign an IRS form, stating that I am permanently disabled and expected to be out of work for a year or more, I can receive disbursements from my IRA with no tax consequences. So, we have had to fall back on that here and there, but overall, not much. But it was good to know I have that security blanket if we need it due to unforseen issues, medical expenses, or if the LTD carrier up and decides that I no longer quality for benefits.
A little looking ahead now may make a difference, and prevent stress if you even have to decide to go out for awhile.
Good luck!
im sorry your husband is in Iraq
I hope he is well and i will pray for him.
i thought my brain fog would not get worse....DOES IT
i thought that now that i am being treated the damage has kind of stopped....i guess im wrong?
oh well another day of work...thank god tomorrow is FRI