Im feeling so darn confused right now n so foggy every thing seems a blurr. Im glad to have this place to come to but God its so damn hard, its like your soul body and mind is going through extreme birthing pains that never stop. God I want it to stop. God I want it to stop for us all. How much can one take. Im so tired of crying and needing and begging n pleading. I want to experience normal again. I NEED to experience it. I hate feeling like im dying every second of every waking hour. I hate that others are feeling the same and i cant do a damn thing to stop it. Im tired of braking down emotionally. I Crave stability. Peace. God Just give me peace. Give us all peace. They say God listens and cares and I am a believer most of the time, but damn it i want healing for me, other.........I know im venting sittin her bawlin like a baby and the crappy thing is cryin n talkin use to make things alot better, but I cant cry this away or talk it away. God oh God I wish I could. I know so many of you are hurting just as bad if not worse and saying im sorry for your pain could never be enough. Thank you all for carring about others while you yourself suffer.
BarelyB
Posted by BarelyBreathin (Member # 6063) on :
oops typo, i meant i want healing for me, n others.....im such a space head
Posted by 3greatkids (Member # 3838) on :
We are with BB..hang on honey!!!!I know I have repeated what you have just posted over and over.
Be strong and remember the advice you gave to k-lyme...be tough.
I remember days my mind would work..other days my body..never together and oh how I wanted them to be as one again!
You will get there...time..time..patience..take care of YOU.
Good luck and check in OK?PLEASE! YOU can do it!!!!
I've been so out of it ..piy keys in the fridge..socks in the sink...could not answer phone properly...oh the list is long and looking back...what a comedy show my home has been.
This stuff is HORRIBLE..but you are on the road now so stay the course and forge ahead.
Posted by 3greatkids (Member # 3838) on :
Me too??? Piy keys in fridge???? see I'm still gettin there...put keys in fridge..there that's more like it.Better days ahead!!!!
Posted by BarelyBreathin (Member # 6063) on :
LOL
thanks i needed that
Posted by beach4so (Member # 3832) on :
BarelyBreathin and 3Greatkids
Oh how I am with ya'll. I have recently realized I have lyme too not just my son Dominic.
THIS site help me realize that, reading ya'll post trying to help my son, I realized I had alot of things ya'll talked about.
Things my Dr's put off as stress, other many miss dx things. Anyway thanks to the support on this site I helped my son and now I am finally helping myself and my other two children.
Today I finally found a Dr who is willing to help me and not think I am a total loonie.
When she walked in her office (my very first visit was today) I stood up and told her " I am NOT depressed, I need help, I need someone to believe me, Are you that person or do I leave right now?"
She laughed, told me to sit down and fill her in. We sat for 45 mins talking, she is open and is willing to work with Dr. C too.
YEAH, "HE" IS LISTENING!!!!! Here is one that was finally answered.
Hopefully your pain will decrease and you will soon see some of yours being answered too.