Sometimes I just can't help but feel like no ONE should have to live like this- day after day, year after year. I have been sick for SO long and deteriorated along the way. Sometimes it's all I can do to keep my kids and I hydrated and clean. I mean ALL I can do. This afternoon I couldn't even get out of bed. The kids needed me and I couldn't get up. I just cried and cried over the guilt. Eventually I was able to drag myself around and tend to their needs before collapsing again. It's happened before and will happen again, somehow we get through. I don't know how.
Yes, my dr is working on it. I'm being treated for Babs. He only has me on Artemisinin because he's afraid, as sick as I am, the meds could kill me. Nice thought huh? Anyway, I'm trying to focus on the positive. But, as I said, sometimes I think no one should have to feel so horribly sick for so long! And three young kids to care for on top!! Well, I'll just keeping doing it one hour at a time, best I can. Thanks for letting me vent! Take care, Beth
Posted by bethanie70 (Member # 5439) on :
Hi Cave76,
Thanks SO much for your reply. I felt embarrassed and like such a pest writing that post. Just really needed to write about what I'm going through right now. Thanks for taking the time to read and respond to it!!!!!!