I've been the health food nut all these years. I've taken every kind of supplement known to Wild Oats.
My daughters friends call me the health freak, because of our weird food and piles of vitamins.
So now that I have a real live diagnosis, and a reason for feeling rotten, I'm mad and I don't want to do it anymore.
I want chocolate chip cookies for breakfast. Don't I deserve them?
Now that I have a list of protocols that are supposed to really work, shouldn't I be more committed?
I know its self destructive, but I'm being rotten and eating whatever I want. Its kind of fun. I feel like I am thumbing my nose at something.
Now that I've admitted it...maybe I'll get over it. Do I have to?
bejoy Posted by sixgoofykids (Member # 11141) on :
I've been the same way. I've been a health nut because I felt better that way. I took many supplements for various symptoms and they made me feel better.
I didn't completely deny myself treats though. It just wasn't habit. Now that I'm on antibiotics, NO SUGAR!
If you're on antibiotics, even if you're not, you need to go back to eating healthy so you build your immune system. It needs all the strength it can get to fight this disease.
Trust me, you DON'T want to get candida. I've had it before and it's tough to get rid of.
Posted by meg (Member # 22) on :
bejoy:I want chocolate chip cookies for breakfast. Don't I deserve them?
You DO deserve them! ....but, you don't want a raging systemic yeast infection that will act as another co-infection and keep you from getting well.
I know you want to get well, you DESERVE to get well Posted by cactus (Member # 7347) on :
Hi Bejoy! I don't always post - but I read... and I'm shocked, I tell you, absolutely shocked that you want chocolate chip cookies for breakfast -
Because I feel exactly the same way!
Why is it so much harder to eat healthy now? I practically lived at health food stores & Wild Oats, too... Now, finally, I know exactly what I need to do, but find myself fighting it daily.
I'm trying to content myself with "munching" on my toddler's pretend goodies, but it's not the same.
So if you want to join us for a pretend picnic on the floor, with the toy food basket, join in any time... No sugar in pretend food.
Stay strong - we have to do it to get well.
Posted by 5dana8 (Member # 7935) on :
I hear ya ! Sometimes feel real deprived & would do anything to have a pizza & hot fudge sunda's again:(
I have been getting Kash's Nutra-grains bars for my "cheats" lately . No processed sugars. Has very high fiber content & only 5 grams of sugar. Nothing artifical. Comes in: Peanut peanut butter Chocolate & rasberry Almonds & honey. Very tastey
Maybe closest thing to cookies for breakfast
Hope this helps
Dana
Posted by Michelle M (Member # 7200) on :
Bejoy,
I too am a weak-willed girl.
You MUST get some Theralac.
Take one every night before bed.
It forgives MUCH.
And I mean MUCH.
Michelle
Posted by 5dana8 (Member # 7935) on :
Hi bejoy
I don't know if you can eat fruit but another one of my Treats is a chocolate covered banana.
Well a 1/2 a banana. Can't seem to handle the sugar content in a whole banna. (The greener ones have less sugar than the really ripe ones)
I get Nestle's sugar free coco powder- the only ingredients it says on the box is 100% cocoa. Then I cut a banana in 1/2 & dip it in the cocoa powder. Yum
The banana is a good source of potassium & the cocoa powder is a good anti-oxident... Or so that what I keep telling myself Posted by Geneal (Member # 10375) on :
Dear Bejoy,
Sometimes I rationalize my weakness for sugary food.
However, I am soon riddled with guilt if I indulge.
I feel a sense of accomplishment when I stick to my diet.
(Although my LLMD said it is okay to cheat every once in a while, just not to share it with him)
Geneal
Posted by wenan (Member # 10993) on :
Bejoy, Okay, I just came from going out with my family and I had some truly amazing french fries!! Last night I also had pizza. AGGGGGHHHHHHH!!! Like you, I have always been a great eater - even pre-Lyme diagnosis. I crave the salty, yeasty stuff at times.
I have been on the gluten and casein free diet for 7 months. This week is the first time that I can say that the cravings have been almost constant. I even woke in the middle of the night last night wanting more pizza!
I just have to believe that this is the yeast and spirochetes talking and that I have been saying "bye bye" to them with the stuff I have been taking recently and they are doing their darndest to keep living.
In the meantime, I will try and be gentle with myself and remind myself that two big cheats in one week is IT!! Hang in there!
Posted by bejoy (Member # 11129) on :
Alright, more confessions. Twice I spent my med money on a forty dollar case of sugar free chocolate, and ate the whole thing within a week.
Well not the whole thing. My family knows where I hide it. And it was good.
I've been an intermittent gym hound and body nazi, as my health and energy level would allow, in between bouts of complete couch and web surfing.
My partner thinks much more highly of svelt individuals, no way around that one. I think now that I have a real live excuse for being fat and out of shape, I am indulging. Maybe even to see if he'll still love me.
I asked him today if he'll be this nice to me if I get well. An important question. He said he will.
Now that leaves my food choices back in my own hands, doesn't it.
My major symptom and herx is overwhelming fatigue. Sugar, chocolate and coffee give me that boost for just five minutes, or at least I pretend they will.
I'm not on antibiotics right now, because I'm afraid I'll be acomplete chocolate mess if I do, with my current coping habits.
Homeopathics, natural abx, and microcurrent are kicking my but so hard, I don't feel the need to look elsewhere at the moment.
I think I'll get past the "feeling sorry for myself for having a weird chronic illness that nobody will even acknowledge and feel sorry for me about" stage. Then I'll get back to actually wanting to eat what's good for me.
Hey Michele, what's Theralac? Sounds like a must have.
Thanks for all your support everybody!
bejoy
Posted by Cobweb (Member # 10053) on :
I was still feeling guilty from hiding and eating a 1/2 price box of Valentine's candy all by myself when you first posted.
JUst one small box I told myself, especially since I didn't get any on Valentine's day.
The next day the leftover heart shaped boxes were all tossed in a shopping cart by the front door of the grocery store-and marked down to 75 cents! that's cheaper than a candy bar.
Visions of Lymetoo shaking her finger at me flashed through my mind-but did that stop me?
Now I'm wondering if they might be marked down to 50 cents.
I never was a health food nut-so I don't have too far to stray from my norm. But the momentum of this rocephin has me thinking I just might make it after all-which has renewed my resolve.
This is a timely topic for me. But I think I may need to be institutionalized on a fat farm to achieve abstinence.
Hey- I notice while I'm posting this there's an ad in the lower left corner of the page entitled "The Healing Power of 8 Sugars" by Allan Somersall-and it says LDN receives a commission .
Hmmmmm-maybe I'll go check it out.
Carol
Posted by wenan (Member # 10993) on :
"feeling sorry for myself for having a weird chronic illness that nobody will even acknowledge and feel sorry for me about" stage
You said it, Bejoy, I go through that stage more than I care to share here.
Just doin' the best with what I got.
Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
quote:Originally posted by bejoy: I know its self destructive, but I'm being rotten and eating whatever I want. Its kind of fun. I feel like I am thumbing my nose at something.
You will wake up one day with THE WORST systemic yeast infection you could possibly have and then your nightmare will begin all over again.
Don't do it!
Ditto on the Theralac. www.theralac.com Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
[QUOTE]Originally posted by Cobweb:
Visions of Lymetoo shaking her finger at me flashed through my mind-but did that stop me?
tsk, tsk, tsk!!
============================================ Hey- I notice while I'm posting this there's an ad in the lower left corner of the page entitled "The Healing Power of 8 Sugars" by Allan Somersall-and it says LDN receives a commission .
Yes! Anytime you order from Amazon, Lymenet gets a cut. You must click on the link here though, as you stated.
Posted by bejoy (Member # 11129) on :
The committment has to come from the attitude, I guess.
I have been spending the last few weeks being committed to not being deprived.
I think I'm going to choose to be committed to feeling good. I'd like to be able to take my kids for some hikes in the summer.
I know what it takes to get there and stay there. I've done it before, regardless that I didn't used to know the underlying cause for my crash and burn episodes.
It also helps to have some accountability. Thanks for the support and the wagging fingers!
bejoy
Posted by Cobweb (Member # 10053) on :
Serious question-since my internal commitment and impulse control are a bit off lately-what about Meals on Wheels? I know we have it in this area, is MOW a nationwide servie? Perhaps it goes by some other catchy phrase.
It would sort of put an external control over my eating. They even have a low sugar menu. If I don't have to step foot in a grocery store I'm more likely to stay compliant.
Technically I'm not housebound-but I am disabled and I look old, or at least I feel old. And I am on IV.
Well, just a thought-but a delicious one. No more dishes, no more cooking, no more shopping, no more chocolate sprees-oops, forget I even mentioned it.
Carol
Posted by lymednva (Member # 9098) on :
Webby, I resorted to Meals On Wheels briefly when I was bedridden and my mom was 90 and really couldn't cook any more. (We were living together at the time.)
It was terrible, even the "diabetic" diet. They had strange ideas about what that included. My mom ended up eating half of what they brought for me because I couldn't stomach it. It's for the very desperate!
Bejoy, Theralac is a great probiotic. You can order it at www.theralac.com. You start out taking two a day for a few weeks and then back off to one.
If you get into real trouble you can double up again for a while and it will clear up any problems you are having.
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