I've had the worst week yet with Lyme. I have thrombophlebitis in my arm from my PICC line.
The pain is unbearable, centered in my chest. This on top of my already severe Lyme symptoms is just about sending me over the edge.
I had a seizure-like pain response when hospitalized earlier this week. A psychiatrist was called in because the ducks couldn't understand it.
The psychiatrist's report was full of lies, twisted inference, and complete ignorance and cruelty.
This a** called my husband at work and my husband told him I am not mentally ill, I have Lyme disease and the doctors at the hospital will not diagnose it. My husband asked the psychiatrist why the hospital was keeping me if no one there believes I am sick.
Conclusion: Shared delusions. My husband is also insane.
This quack couldn't figure out why I had an anxious, depressed look on my face. He said my affect was "inappropriate". Duh, perhaps I was worried and in pain because of an inflamed vein and two blood clots in my arm.
I have a little-girl voice. People pick on me about it all the time. The quack called it a "shrill, thin voice".
I told him I was trying to lose weight (I go to Weight Watchers) when he asked about weight loss. In the report he states I have "weight loss, poor appetite".
Anything to point to mental illness.
He said I need antidepressant-antipsychotic combination, and may benefit from electric shock therapy.
When the psycho talked to the doctor on my case he told her that my husband wanted me to go home. The doctor replied that no one was keeping me there - I was there because I wanted to be there. I caused myself to have a "peculiar movement disorder (hysterical reaction)" because I like the attention I get in the hospital. This caused an extended hospital stay because the peculiar movements justified a psychiatric evaluation.
Now, who's crazy here?
When I first read this report I cried, then I read it again and I laughed. Then I read it again and was angry. My primary doctor read it and said it sounded like an awful lot of stuff was made up. Thank goodness, she believes I am ill with Lyme and not crazy.
Last night I couldn't sleep I was in so much agony. I spent five hours in radiology yesterday with a cranky son because my primary doctor wanted to be sure my clots weren't getting larger or moving toward my heart.
Fortunately, they aren't.
My left arm is covered with bruises from so many needle sticks. My face is gray and my eyes are sunken and red. My hair is dry and flat. I look like death. I feel like death. I thought I would die this week.
My primary says I won't die, but she wasn't sure until the testing was completed yesterday. I will be placed on high-dose levaquin to combat the phlebitis.
I'm scared I won't be able to handle it. I could barely handle low dose this past summer when I was treating bartonella.
I no longer really care what the psychiatrist said. It's just the same old crap. BUT, I am frightened about the downturn in my health.
Sorry if this post rambles, I don't feel myself and can't seem to convey my thoughts very well.
Thanks for listening.
Posted by cjnelson (Member # 12928) on :
my heart is with you....
Posted by randibear (Member # 11290) on :
oh sweetie, i am so sorry. i wish i was there cause with the mood i'm in, i'd take on your ducks myself.....
why, oh why, can't they accept lyme???
Posted by 3greatkids (Member # 3838) on :
Oh I am so sorry you had to have that experience.
I think you have conveyed your thoughts very well!!!!
Hope you are better.
I am looking forward to the day when all of these ducks eat CROW!!!!!
In the mean time....I guess, all of us have had to deal w/ this HEALTH CRISIS by being totally disrespected, by the ones we are suppose to trust.
I could have slugged a Dr. I saw last week.
He chuckled and had insulting remarks about Lyme.He also stressed the ...Do No Harm portion of his oath.All the while snickering and feeling so proud to be running his Family practice Duck mill.
The chuckle just really made me furious....and they dare to say crazy??????
I think BIG EGOS,BIG Medicine,Bad insurance cos. mixed in w/ CEO Medicine Men is....CRAZY!!!!
AHHHHH,America,we slowly going down the drain.
Oh and I would save that report and find a good lawyer!!!! Report this abuse to your Medical Board.It was made up and you should not have been put through such BS.
Posted by Michelle M (Member # 7200) on :
I feel very angry on your behalf.
Why won't your LLMD step in and brow-beat some of these idiots???? Is he/she too far away?
"Shared delusion" -- OMG.
Michelle
Posted by lymeladyinNY (Member # 10235) on :
Hi All. My LLMD tried to step in last September when I was hospitalized for Lyme meningitis. She had a huge fight with one of the interns on my case.
The doctors at the hospital think my LLMD is a nut herself. They refused to diagnose meningitis even though I had every symptom of it.
I just got out of my epsom salt/baking soda bath and I just did some rife. Later I'll start the levaquin.
Thanks for the hugs and support! Still feel like death warmed over but the percocet I took a couple of hours ago is helping some.
- Julie
Posted by bettyg (Member # 6147) on :
julie,
more hogwash to deal with!
ask your primary to write a letter about all the errors in your report from psy so you can use this and get it into your OFFICIAL MEDICAL FILE .
so sorry to read of all you have been thru! Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
MAN!! Remind me never to move to where you are!! Those ducks are sickos!!!! Is this a different hospital than the other notorious incident???
I'm glad you're feeling a tad better. Did they put you on a blood thinner???
HUGS!! Posted by heiwalove (Member # 6467) on :
i'm so sorry.
your post made me cry, because i've been through the exact same thing (with the psych BS, electroshock threats, all of it).
sending you so much love and support.
xoxoxo.
Posted by TerryK (Member # 8552) on :
How awful and how unfair! It's hard to understand why these doctors don't see what is right in front of their faces.
Thank goodness for your doctor and your LLMD. Betty is right, be sure to get corrections or comments about their errors put in your file.
You will get better and this will all be just a blip.
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