I think for the most part I stay positive but today I'm really uncomfortable. My kids are at the parade and I'm sitting here feeling sorry for myself.
I just knew I'd be miserable if I tried going. Sitting at the computer is not helping the pain either. I just keep trying to new positions and desperately trying to feel productive.
it's a combination of financial woes and discomfort.
just overwhelmed and alone. hate it.
Posted by mtree (Member # 14305) on :
Peck...
sorry ....you are feeling icky today... I think we all go through days like you are having today.... especially around a holiday...it's so much worse...
I will tell you though....you are NOT alone... So many of us out here feeling just like you do....
I hope the day gets better for you...............and hey you were productive today...you got on the computer and reached out....
mtree
Posted by AZURE WISH (Member # 804) on :
Peck
We all have bad days... I just try to get through them hoping that tommorrow will be a better one...
and next year each holiday will be better for me.
I hope when your kids come back from the parade the company will brighten your day at least a little. Posted by Geneal (Member # 10375) on :
It is a bummer to feel awful.
For some reason holidays really bring that out in us.
Hang in there friend.
When you get to feeling better, you can have your own parade.
That will really be something to celebrate.
I even went out and bought my children some "kid friendly" fireworks.
While driving there I thought "where am I?" "What holiday is it?"
Yet, I made it there and back and the children are super excited.
Now if I can just stay awake and on task ( ) until dark.
Sending your positive thoughts and prayers.
Geneal
Posted by tdtid (Member # 10276) on :
As I'm sure you are going to see....many of us are in the same boat as you. That doesn't mean it makes your boat ride any better, but we DO understand.
I know my son and husband were out shooting off their own fireworks with neighbors and friends in our backyard and I just sat in the house wondering how many ticks they may bring in with them.
I know...not the same way your mind was going on a day like today, but it's hard when we see our social life stand still but yet our family just keeps going along like nothing is wrong.
I really felt so crappy today that I really did just want to be left alone, BUT that's not always the case on most holidays and it would be nice and someone would want to spend time with us, but it seems the sicker I get, the less I see of the family. Guess lyme isn't "fun" to be around.
On a sidebar....I have a really hard time staying in a sitting position long and found that a laptop in bed to keep me company so I can be reclining on the tough days really has been a way I can chat here even on some of my really rough days.
Some days we just want to vent or feel validated that SOMEONE understands what we are feeling and you have definitely come to the right place.
Try to hang in there and know we really care.
Cathy
Posted by cantgiveupyet (Member # 8165) on :
Hang in there, I can relate. The 4th of July is one of my fav holidays if not my fav holiday.
I havent been to the parade since 05 when i got sick. I think i missed the fireworks in 06 because i couldnt walk down to the end of my block.
Last year was rough, this year a tad better. I managed to watch the fireworks even in the rain. I had a few invites to go to today, one was canceled, and I didnt get out to the other, but there were so many 4ths when I was healthy I never had many invites.
So, that kind of made me smile a bit.
I go very easy on myself now...as a lot of my health is way out of my control.
Posted by stella marie (Member # 7216) on :
So how are you doing today, any better? Come back and update us.
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