I just found out my boyfriendof 2 years has been cheating on me. He says he felt i wasnt giving him enough attention because i have been so sick the last few months. I just dont understand how someone can turn their back when you need them the most. The weird part is he keeps elling me he made a mistake and would do anything to fix things but he is still disappearing for hours at a time claiming he "fell asleep" its so hard going hrough this treatment. I just started mepron/zithro last week and I am full of anxiety and depression even beforethe added heartbreak of knowing the man i love obviously doesnt love me. I am so disgusted and i feel I have noone. I cant even go out and date and find someone with all thats going on with me and i am forced to stay home alone upset while h is out with other women. I dont know how to deal with this because i cant really go anywhere to do things to keep my mind off it and i find myself calling him and calling him all night and i know he is with someone else.
Posted by Karen Mc (Member # 23354) on :
Cheryl, I am so sorry for you dear. I can't imagine but I hope you take care of yourself. I have no idea how old you are.
But PLEASE take care of yourself first. The other stuff will come later.
You ARE NOT ALONE...u will find you have a VERY good support group here.
Good luck and i will be praying for you
Karen
Posted by kidsgotlyme (Member # 23691) on :
Cheryl
Honey, just be glad that you found out now how he really is before you were to marry him and have a family.
I know it probably seems like the end of the world right now, but things will look up for you. Just give yourself time to heal.
If someone can't support you through an illness, then you don't need him back, even if he says he is sorry.
You need to concentrate on you. Do you have a support system in place?? Friends to talk with?? Family?? Hopefully you do.
This is a great place, and the people here are so wonderful. Praying that you will find healing, physically was well as emotionally.
Christie
Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
Welcome to Lymenet!!
I'm so sorry he is a jerk and doesn't deserve you!! It will take time, but you will be OK. I'm sure of it!!!
calling him when he is not calling you back is just feeding his male ego.......just my opinion
Give him some space and he may come around. Posted by LightAtTheEnd (Member # 24065) on :
He doesn't deserve you, honey.
You hang on and believe that things will get better.
Posted by trishee (Member # 9699) on :
Hold tight and put you first. The stress of staying around people like him will take too much of a toll on your body. YOu will get your life back and hopefully it will be w/someone who deserves you.
blessings, trish
Posted by map1131 (Member # 2022) on :
Elizabeth Edwards didn't deserve what she got from John. I'm sure she walked away for her own health and well being reasons.
Cheryl, it's not your fault that you are ill. Your boyfriend proved to you he's not going to stick through it in sickness and in health.
He's toxic. I hope you can move on.
Pam
Posted by sutherngrl (Member # 16270) on :
Many relationships suffer due to this illness; but it is a good way to measure the integrity of the person you are with.....who obviously doesn't have any!
You need to focus on your health right now. He sure isn't worth any of your time or energy.
Just be glad you found out the truth about him. You deserve someone much better!
You will grow so much as a person, from having LD, that sooner or later you would have outgrown him anyway.
Put all your focus and energy into healing!
Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
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