At hops with dad. Have to amputate his leg mon. Depersonalization so bad, last break for an hour was 2 weeks ago. My heart is torn in half, he's my dad, and he's my clone. He's up there in years, but am so foreign to life, sisters son, husband. Dad is so pathetic. I just do everything dutifully numb, want to reclaim my life. Doing amino acids for neurotransmitter balance, functional, integrative doc found. Got mentally in this mess and can't get out. It's groundhog
day without humor. God, where are you? I've asked for so long, please pray for the gift of self and life back and dad could not be in pain anymore. Please, I need help. Sorry always looking for help, but don't know how I'm doing this and
want to eat life up again. I loved it so with confidence and conviction, addtl stress, just am functioning nothing. I need helpband I ask god for you too suffering. Need to be a mother, wife, friend, person, just live, we all feel like this but it hurts different times. Thank you. His amputation is Monday. He needs me, so do others and I need me back. Thanks. Be well.
Posted by kidsgotlyme (Member # 23691) on :
will be praying for you and your Dad. Posted by momindeep (Member # 7618) on :
Lyme in Putnam...you have been having a very hard row of it lately and you have asked for prayer off and on for awhile now.
So I come to this situation humbly asking the Lord to make you whole again...not only in your mind, but in your spirit too. That He will strenghten your faith in Him and that He do so with a gentle hand.
Asking the Father to guide the situation with your dad...that it will be okay and that you can rest assured it will be just that.
I will ask that you have a sense of peace while this is all working out...that it will be manageable till the Lord turns things around. Pray that you will know in your heart of hearts that it will indeed get better and the Lord is in control of every little thing all the way up to the huge problems and He cares about it all. He proved that by His death on the cross...He proved that once and for all.
I will keep you in my prayer-mind throughout the days and I will ask on your behalf for all things good.
Thank-you Lord.
Posted by lyme in Putnam (Member # 11561) on :
thanks so much. Every lilttle bit helps. Feel good all and I pray, for all needing help. He knows our hearts, thats what I will go down saying.
Posted by tu4two (Member # 31365) on :
Praying for you tonight. You can never ask for too much prayer. Rest well.....
Posted by daisyrlb (Member # 15686) on :
Praying for you this morning. May you and your family experience God's grace, peace, and His love being poured out. His love gives us hope!
Hug to you!
Posted by biggirl58 (Member # 18458) on :
I pray for you too and your Dad--that hour meant that it is not stress related only--so keep fighting--I have asked for so long too---being yourself is an immeasurable gift---may God be with your Dad for comfort too...
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