I can hardly walk, talk, think, move arms, very dizzy. I feel like I'm losing my life and it's difficult to just exist!!!! I'm hanging on but not sure how.
It seems that this is all I know and talk about. Days like this is extremely hard to get through. Well it's 3:40pm Ive been fighting myself. I know this doesn't help people that are new here.
But now they know they're not alone anymore.
This is a great support place. And we can say what's going on in our lives. As most of you know I'm surviving in Gods Hands. I need the right treatment. I'm getting sicker without Abx. After 15 years I never new I would lose all the people in my life.
My cat is becoming affected due to my depression from pain and everything. My emotions are running all over me from PTSD and no family around. I'm tempted to put my phone number here so I can get a few phone calls. And maybe help someone else.
In Oct I will have 26 years of sobriety. And alcohol is a great temporary pain killer. But I don't have the $$$$ to go buy it. And that is stinking thinking. Just like the rest Ive said. Yet it's all real.
Hang on things will change. Posted by randibear (Member # 11290) on :
I know how you feel. I'm not sleepy so I stay awake until 11 or 12. sleep until 8:30 or 9:30.
its 3:00 and I can barely keep my eyes open. vacuumed, did dishes, two loads of laundry, and swished out toilets. done, I'm pooped.
my oomph jus died.
Posted by Annie C (Member # 14) on :
It's funny odd that you said that. I've had days like not many but a few. Today all that needs to be done but I can't do it. I'm so broke I can't afford paper plates. Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
Hang in there, Annie. I hope tomorrow is a better day! Posted by randibear (Member # 11290) on :
somebody suggested caffeine but I can't stand it. makes me super hyper type.
Posted by kam (Member # 3410) on :
On my good days I tell myself the answers are out there and we weill find a way.
Speaking of paper plates. I started using my camping plates again when I ran out of paper plates and didn't hve the funds to purchase them.
Hoping it works out.
Being able to keep the enaamel camping plastes and bowls clean is also tricky.
Posted by lpkayak (Member # 5230) on :
Take coq10 and alpha lipoic acid
Posted by LisaK (Member # 41384) on :
Annie, hang in there , yes.
I had a week like this the other week and I thought I just would be better dead!
If I think about my pain, it really sucks me in and ruins me minute by minute. So, I try and switch rails like a train and go another direction.
I am actually shocked I have this ability. I am kinda wimpy with deciding everything for myself, but that could be residual stuff from being sick for so long and not knowing why,
If I relax I find myself trying to slip into a glorious unconscious state, haha, and so I kick myself to jump start and do too much and then totally collapse and no use to myself.
I am just hoping my fatigue on fatigue goes away as soon as possible , and yours too!
Posted by GretaM (Member # 40917) on :
I totally recognize and have experienced the fatigue you mean.
Praying for you.
Many hugs and my cats will pray for your cat.
XOXO
Posted by Coppertop (Member # 44097) on :
Hi Annie - I'm new here. I see your member number is one of the earlier ones, so I suspect you already know this.
Much of the dizziness I endure, and fatigue comes from being exposed to EMFs.
It really does ZAP our strength, make us dizzy and more. I used to have a link to a British fellow who explained this from the cell level, and he was fun and funny to listen to.
I'll go see if I can find that link.
Geez - hope I can hold my hands steady long enough to type this line - here goes:
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![[dizzy]](graemlins/dizzy.gif)
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