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I have hot burning stabbing pains along with EXTREMELY TIGHT muscles. It makes me miserable, as everyone on here knows because I talk about it so much.
I don't feel much relief yet, but he said give it 5-7 days. right now, I'm taking small doses of Xanax to get rid of a little pain.
I went and saw a psychiatrist again today. My moods have been extremely irradic. I don't know if it's Lyme, or the fact that I tried to stop taking Oxycodone on my own, or marital issues. This week has been hell.
Husband is gone again for good. I'm sad because it means shared custody, but I'm almost relieved because there is NO love in our marriage or friendship even.
I thrive on love and being in love.
But that's not important. I have to get well first. Now I'm really screwed because I have no way to even begin to work, let alone go to an llmd. It's very depressing.
But anyway, about the psychiatrist appt. totay, we are trying something called Vyvance which is technically an adhd med but he thinks it will help me calm while also having ebergy to do things. He said that they are finding that it has been helping with neuropathic pain as well. I start it tomorrow. I'm very tired and figity and do things like lose important medical papers and bills....and put the milk in the pantry!
The botox shots didn't hurt and I wished he would have done more in more spots but he only had 100ccs to work with. Everyone please pray this works for me, if it worked that would mean I wouldn't have to take so many crappy pills, I'm sick of it!
I know it's off topic and I'm sorry but please pray for our family. My husband is divorcing me (because with me being sick it's changed our relationship and our "romantic" realtionship). I don't know how in the heck I can do this on my own. I have no clue. So, any thoughts or prayers would be nice, my life, like most of ours, is completely devastated. And pray for my 2 year old, this must be very hard on him, I can't believe how happy he is still with this crazy world spinning around him. I know I'll be happier without my husband but missing a day with my son drives me crazy.
If you've gone through something simlilar, please PM me, I could use some encouragement about divorce and custody issues. I'm just destroyed. The holidays are coming up.
Thanks for letting me vent and for listening.
Nessa
(Pardon the typos, I think my eyes are going out of all things. *SIgh*
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Hoosiers51
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Oh I am so sorry to hear about what you are going through.....know that there are people on this website that care
I hope the new things you are trying help you out. Starting something new can be like turning over a new leaf....even though these things may not directly help us kill the lyme, they will help us cope with what is going on around us by helping to relieve some of the pain, and to help our brains function better.
I am actually seeing a fabulous psychiatrist and I am so grateful for him....he has made a big difference in my life, just with his open-mindedness and his desire to help me relieve some of my mood symptoms.
If you find a pyschiatrist whose heart is in the right place (or who is good at what they do), it can mean a world of difference....so best of luck to you.
I can't relate much with your divorce situation, but we are rooting for you Nessa! Hugs and prayers and positive vibes..... Posts: 4590 | From Midwest | Registered: Jun 2008
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Sending you good thoughts for a much brighter happier healthier future.
13 years Lyme & Co.; Small Fiber Neuropathy; Myasthenia Gravis, Adrenal Insufficiency. On chemo for 2 1/2 years as experimental treatment for MG. Posts: 4480 | From Northeastern Connecticut | Registered: Jun 2005
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No, it's unfortunate in a way. I've been her mommy since she was barely 2. It's his biological daughter, not mine. I also get scared because if I leave her alone with my son she does "weird" things and her dad never thinks it's weird or tells her to knock it off. Most parents to save time and give their kids baths together, well, I can't because she does "weird" things in there with him. He's just 2. Plus, I'm scared to death of not being around when he's watching my 2 year old. I went to the store once and came home and found my husband sleeping on the couch with my son on top of our kitchen table, with ceramic tile underneath, with glasses on it. And he doesn't care that his daughter his my son. He screams bloody murder in pain and he won't make her stop and if I try to, well I'm just being mean.
It's such a lose/lose for me and my son. I'm just heartbroken.
But to answer your question, if I would have actually technically went through the court system and adopted her, then I would have rights to see her. She's already lost TWO moms now. He gets rid of people left and right and then literally CRIES that he has to leave people because they are mean to him. (I don't recall being so mean he had to leave?)
He's nuts.
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