Topic: This should go in activism because I've been missing the point!
lymie tony z
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I have to tell you all that,
even after having done all the antibiotics I said I have done on the other thread...
I've been missing the point. Because I've been too ANAL ytical and stubborn and just plain under the influence of this world for too long.
It has been shown to me...that I need desperately to "BELIEVE" again....
Better then when I was a child, before I knew anything about the outside world....
I never wanted to be the kind of person who did'nt experience something before,
or whenever, I might have condemned it,
out of hand...in this world.
So be carefull what you pray for....
I seemed to have prayed for the wrong things for
what I thought were the right reasons.
Well, go figure! I'm not as smart as God!
I must now confess that I have one heck of a time believeing in Him,
again,
and I know now I cannot do it alone.
Please, pray that I might believe again....even better then I have when I was a child!
I need all the help I can get on this one....
It's here in medical....
because I truly believe...
this is where HE, The Holy Spirit,
wants me to put it!
If you knew me...really knew me...
you would know this is no grandstand play...
it is a sincere plea for help.
Because HE doesn't want any doubt as to why or how I am healed....
like I've been putting in the other thread...
I think that's the point,
I've been missing all along.
For a long time in my life. With this disease and before....
whenever it was when I became angry with Him,
for breaking my heart over some worldly thing or other...
SO please help me...as you help yourselves...
believe! You don't have to put it here in response...
I think I'll know...and so will you.
Thanks In Advance
YFIChrist AMZ Sr
-------------------- I am not a doctor...opinions expressed are from personal experiences only and should never be viewed as coming from a healthcare provider. zman Posts: 2527 | From safety harbor florida(origin Cleve., Ohio | Registered: Jan 2004
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LisaS
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One time I completely cussed out God. I was so mad at Him for all this suffering... I was so scared afterwards but a friend said this to me and I never forgot it...
"He will forgive your anger towards Him, but He will never forget your acknowledgement of Him."
You can't be mad at Him if you don't believe in Him...
luvs2ride
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Please read this carefully. It answers the question of why
Below is a daily devotional by Pastor David Wilkerson of Times Square Church in New York City. I believe this devotional gives a great answer regarding "why we are going through our tribulation of illness".
There is a triumphant church rising up even now, coming out of great trials of faith.
This last-days church is emerging from fiery furnaces and long days of affliction. So, you ask, what does God plan to do?
What I see happening is the Holy Spirit at work bringing a people into utter brokenness. He's leading them to a revelation of weakness in their own flesh, in order to show himself strong. I see him bringing his people to the end of themselves, crushing their stubborn wills, until their mindset becomes only, ``His will be done.'' I see him leading his beloved ones into places of trial so difficult only a miracle can deliver them. And through it all, they are becoming wholly dependent on the Lord for everything.
Does this describe your situation? Perhaps you've been walking with Jesus for years, and you've never faced a test like the one in front of you right now. Things are coming at you that seem overwhelming, things that only God can do something about. And you realize only he can bring you through.
Right now, Islamics are preparing for a final jihad, to ``take over the world'' for Allah. Islamic training camps are rising up worldwide with a message of hate, characterized by merciless beheadings.
Yet the Lord also has a people in training, a people he's going to use to face down the wrath of this world. How will he accomplish this? He is training and equipping them in his loving kindness and peace. Our God is a God of love, and he won't use bombs, guns or suicide squads, but an overcoming people who are fearless in the Lord of tender mercies.
All over the world, God's people are experiencing suffering, afflictions and torture more than ever in their lifetime. And of this I am sure: there is a divine, eternal purpose in the intensity of these spiritual and physical battles now being endured in the true body of Christ. ``His tender mercies are over all his works'' (Psalm 145:9 ).
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My heart goes out to you. I can understand the battle with believing. It is the testing of the faith. Some dear friends reminded me this morning that our faith grows stronger by hearing and speaking His Word. The more of His Word, the less of our doubt.
I have Scriptures on healing typed out. Please PM if you would like me to send them. I still have weak days (like yesteday), but I want to build my faith through His Word.
Praying for you brother. Knowing exactly the battle of belief you are facing.
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sutherngrl
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I have pulled away from God and then found my way back to Him during the duration of this illness.
Just a few Bible verses brought me back, and I use them daily to get me through this trial.
As far as a healing, I believe that no matter how you are healed, by what method or what doctor, it is inevitably through God that you are healed. It is done by Him and in His own time.
You say that "you get it". Well maybe that is just the beginning of His plan for your life.
Prayers going out for you!
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sammy
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Hey Tony,
You are right, sometimes it is the influences of world that distract you and diminish your need to believe. The world says if you work hard, make more money, look good, etc... then you will be happy and have all you need. The world also says "it's all about me". It says to put self first, your happiness is all that matters, nothing else matters even if in obtaining your happiness you hurt others.
I've found that when I lose focus on God, when I take my eyes off Him, that is when I start to fall. I start worrying, I get angered easily, I begin to think that I have "rights". I allow myself to be ruled by my emotions. I put my hope in man. These things are not good.
Sometimes it takes minutes for me to realize this, sometimes longer. When I realize that i've got myself caught up in this funk again I know what I have to do.
I have to turn my eyes back to Jesus. He should be my focus. Not on myself, not my hopes, not my desires, not my emotions, not my fellow mankind.
It sounds like an easy fix but really it is something that you have to work on continuously. It is easier to stay in the funk and let your mind dwell in your unhappiness, the unfairness of your situation, etc. But you know that you will be unhappy this way. It is not what God intended for you.
He has plans for you. He wants to know you, to walk with you. He really does care. That's why He sent the Holy Spirit to guide you and be with you every second of every day. He's right there beside you. You just have to look.
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sammy
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One more thought. You need fellowship with other believers. Friends that can keep you accountable and lift you up in times of need. They can be a great help.
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Praying for you my friend in Christ. So weak today, but never too weak to pray. God bless you.
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bettyg
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tony, so sorry to read you're going thru rough times again.
may god carry you like footsteps in the sand thru your trials and tribulations. hugs/kisses
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Marnie
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Tony, HE is not "separate" from you, HE is WITHIN you...and you just acknowledged that because you "felt" HE wanted you to post your request here on medical where many can, and will, read it.
HE has always been with you...you just weren't "listening".
Now you are!
Acknowledging HIS existence IS the beginning of your healing!!!
Now TRUST HIM to help you thru this time of suffering.
Heavenly Father, Your Word has become a part of Tony and is manifest in his body. Your love for Tony is in his blood flowing to every cell of his body, restoring life and health. Thank you God.
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"I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me" (Philippians 4:13).
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lymie tony z
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Thank You all...
Please one more favor to ask....
I know it's probablynot the best time to go on the road...
But I sense an urgency to get up north, where all my earthly family reside....
I do know HE has been with me lo these many years of turmoil and strife...
here's hoping and praying al that tempering has a good result...
I can be a real pain sometimes....
I get in my own way....thank God....He knows me....
and all of you also....
YFIChrist amz sr
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bettyg
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i can only imagine was wonderful! thx for sharing; i copied the link and forwarded to my daily emails to folks.
tony, yes this holiday will be full of drivers galore; if you could hold off until monday then head up east; would be better and safer since the moods of drivers isn't very good on LONG DRIVES.
best wishes and SAFE traveling to you my friend. xox
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