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Does anyone feel like they have a foreshortened sense of the future when herxing? Like we are going to die soon. Like an almost desperate desire to live right now because the future is so short.
I dont know how to describe this. But I keep feeling it when I herx and it is not pleasant. It is scary and anxiety provoking and also makes me very sad that my "life is so short".
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Yeah, I can understand what you mean. It's hard not to when trying to get through scary symptoms. I try to tell myself I've been here before, but the truth is I'm ALWAYS there so that probably means early death. Posts: 7545 | From The 5th Dimension - The Twilight Zone | Registered: Mar 2008
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Well, as depressing as this thread is, I can relate. 2010 was the toughest year of my life, and I had many days when I thought I might not wake up tomorrow.
I'm not completely out of the hole, but have been given a window to see some light shining over the hill.
Most notably, depression and these feelings you're having are very likely a direct symptom of your Lyme. It likes to f*** with us. It's extremely difficult to recognize this when in a lowered state of happiness. I have found once the state passes, and it DOES, then you might find you feel even better than before.
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I know this is depressing. I hope I described it well- but I dont feel this way all the time. Just when I am herxing or when I have symptom flares. It seems to be the worst though when I herx.
It is like I better live this moment and live it with every ounce of my being cuz life is so short.
Sometimes the physical symptoms are so bad I feel the foreshortened future because it actually feels like I could die.
Sometimes it is completely a mental symptom.. this is more of the herx feeling for me. I hope we all get to live long lovely lives. I like being alive.. though I hate being sick. It makes me sad to think about life being short...
Herxing is weird.
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I know every time I felt worse (herxed) .. I felt like I'd never ever get back up again. The seesaw up and downs of Lyme are terribly depressing and scary.
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I had a sense of total doom when I had babesiosis flares--like the way I was feeling then was permanent and I was going to die feeling that way. Maybe that is like what you are sensing. It was horrible.
When I reported these weekly flares to the doc, he had me add artemesinin and the flares were instantly mild. No more doom. Like a miracle.
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