merrygirl
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Well I went grocery shopping even though I didn't want to go.
I have not been out of my house in 6 weeks other than going to my doctor.
I had to go there is no food left in my house My hubby has been doing his best but he doesn't get a whole meal type thing.
So between not having groceries and I have been to ill to cook properly, my family will be glad that they will not have to order out tonight.
When I got to the store I was confused and dazed and dizzy like. It has been happening a lot. I felt overwhelmed and still like I am going to pass out.
So I have to try to cook tonight. I will do it.
I have to regain some normalcy. I can't take this depression, pain, mental difficulties.
Honestly I don't think I should drive. It was like driving almost drunk, although I have had no narcotics in 18 hours. I feel really slow.
You know what I did yesterday? I tried making a quesadilla and I went to throw the empty tortilla bag away, instead I put a whole stick of butter in the bag and put in the fridge. That is not normal.
I used to be very sharp and in the top levels of my profession where the lives of animals are at risk and one minor mathematical error could kill something.
Even if my body starts to heal I will not be able to work until my mind is clear. I feel like I have brain damage or something. Sorry I am rambling. Melissa
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MELISSA, HIP HIP HOORAY; you sprang your home jail!
so glad you forced yourself out today to get groceries! sorry you had to face all the other symptoms you mentioned!
do you wear sunglasses and especially NOIR, no infrared sunglasses....they really help with all the fluroscent lights, etc.
we've all been/are where you are, so we are walking in your shoes. best wishes for starting to turn the corner in regaining your health back.
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kam
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Glad to hear you made it out. I recall those crazy, hazy, days of driving and wondering what was in the water.
I still can not go grocery shopping when ever I wish.
But, I have learned to take the senior van now when I go.
To use my power chair and stay seated.
I recently tried driving and then using the electric cart in the store. That did not go well.
A power chair works so much better for me than an electric cart. My arms are weak so a lot of my strength and brain power go towards trying to drive the electric cart.
Vs a power chair supports my arms and the joy stick seems to take less out of my brain to use.
Conserving energy seems to part of the plan.
Let someone else drive if you can. Taxi's here are $10 round trip. Better than getting in an accident.
I also go when there is most likley not going to be a lot of people at the store.
Shades Help.
I haven't tried ear plugs yet but I bet they would help too. Sometimes the sounds really get to me.
Brain usually doesn't work well enough to tell myself to put the earplugs in until two or three days after the task.
I can not use a list.
I just take it one item at a time and that is whatever comes to my mind.
And KISS
Keep it simple and short.
There will still be days when it is not a good idea to give it a try.
But, there also will be days when you will be more successful at it and feel like you have really done something.
I have also learned to use the check debit card to pay for the groceries.
WRiting a check and counting out cash means multi tasking and doesn't always work for me. Writing doesn't always work.
And I have had times when I just gave my wallet to the cashier and had them get them count the cash. Very unnerving.
The two grocery stores in my town are wonderful with service. Several times I have felt like crying and my mind was going when they showed up and asked if they could help me with anything.
Step by step, I made it through.
It took me a long time to start to use the electric cart in the stores. I keep trying to do things on my feet.
Then, I noticed people would start to run and hide when they saw me get in the cart...do you think they noticed when I moved aisle 9 into aisle 10?
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Merry, I know how you feel. I hate leaving my house to do the simplest tasks. I felt fine yesturday so I decided to drive myself to the vitamin store to get some Magnesium. The vitamin store is about it 1/2 mile away and I thought I was going to get into an accident. I then walked aimlessly around the store until the sales person asked me if he could help me fdind what I was looking for. They only had 2 kinds of Magnesium and it took me about 10 minutes to decide what kind to get. I had jsut looked to see whatbrand my doctor recomended before I left and I had no clue.... then when I went to pay I had to ask for my total 3 times because for some reason I decided to pay in cash. I feel like I'm drunk and incoherrant when that happens. I do feel goood to get outside though, sunlights good for you! Hope you continue to improve, LuLu
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Glad that you were able to get out! It takes a lot for me to get out too so I appreciate the effort you put into it. But stay safe, friend.
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Geneal
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Dear Merrygirl,
You have had an exciting day!
I remember those days.....I still get them every now and then.
I would get a panic attack in the middle of Walmart. Lovely, huh?
Especially when my 4 and 5 year olds were with me.
It made escaping quickly very difficult.
Then I still had to unload and put groceries away.
Hang in there.
Every small step forward counts!!!
Hugs,
Geneal
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