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Herxing hard physically but worse is my feeling of being so overwhelmed that I cant function. I want to hide on my couch with the tv clicker, watch nothing at all but just 'drift'. everything seems too scarey; my job, life, daily functioning. It seems to never end and I want the old vibrant energetive fearless me back. I fear that me is lost.
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Keebler
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- Your "me" just has a different job for a while. It's not the job any of us wanted and it is 24/7, but it helps me to think of it that way. I keep trying to do my "job" better so that I can get back to a "real" life though.
It's been pointed out to me that I have a real life now, but it is so far from what it could/should be. So, I try to work smarter since I can't really work much harder.
Hope you find what works for you - and remember, in any job, some enjoyment must be interspersed. Something like Tai Chi or Qi Gong - or even just singing - don't give up on whatever healthy pleasures you can enjoy. Any sort of hobby can be life-line through all this.
Sometimes, that is just getting my copy of National Geographic in the mail. After airing it out, I can spend lots of time studying the photography - and hope, someday, to be able to read an article all at once. Whatever your pace, I hope you can connect to joy as much as possible. -
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Geneal
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I'm back to work full time after 2.5 years of treatment.
I know how you feel.
There were many times I thought I'd never make it back.
I did and you will too.
Hang in there.
Hugs,
Geneal
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if it helps i try to remind myself that it is not me that feels this way. it is the Lyme...it helps to keep your spirit alive and seperate from the disease. i refuse to give this disease the satisfaction of taking me down the road to despair. i've allowed a few hours a week in my early part of treatment to feel sorry for myself. But ocne that is done ..you still have to get up and fight.
we've all been there. it gets better with time.
Keep the Faith, Dave
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feelfit
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Hey Liz,
Just wanted to say "I get it" you are not alone. Keep on the path, use that former self and her attributes to get well, and get some semblence of 'her' back.
I am working hard to get me back too.....when we are there, I would like to share a lovely glass of wine with you.
Hang on, Feelfit
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Thankyou eveyone - your words help so much and are much appreciated. I need to get some pleasures back in life - pleasures that at the moment are just too much hassle. Onwards and upwards.... thanks again. Liz D
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bettyg
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liz,
you received outstanding advise from all of the above!
you know i've had chronic lyme 40 years this xmas; bite at age 20.
i do NOT know what i would have been like and amounted too; but i love the person i was forced to become with the hand dealt to me!!
i'm much more compassionate, understanding, wanting to help others, etc.
but as others stated above, on GOOD DAYS enjoy doing something special just for YOU.
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Liz, I'm feeling th e exact same way right now. Maybe herxing, maybe pms, don't know. Only know that I'm feeling so overwhelmed I want to throw in the towel but i know I CAN'T.
I don't have anything to add to everyone's posts, they also bring me comfort. I don't know how people get through this stuff. hugs, pugs
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bettyg
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liz,
glad my food for thought helped you!
my niece was showing me her kindergarden class photo 30 plus years ago, and i asked who she liked on there.
very proudly, I LIKE ME!! that gave me food for thought; a 5 yr. old telling me, her aunt 30 yrs. old this!! it left a lasting impression. one i'm happy to share with others.
if you can, read the book, I'M OK; YOU'RE OK! it really helped lift my insecure self-esteem.
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