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I pretended I didn't have lyme for the five days my sister was in town, from out of state. It was the first time in years that I got to spend significant time with her. I had a great time.
Now, I'm paying for it. I knew I would. The visit was worth it. I drank my morning coffee, but never got the perk of energy I usually get. I feel like I need to take a nap. Completely wiped out. I'll curl up by the woodstove with a blanket and a few cats shortly.
It is time to stop pretending I'm not sick.
I just remembered another contributing factor.... My doctor took me off antibiotics for a month. I don't know what the little bacteria will do. Maybe they will have a party while I'm planning my birthday party.
In any case, this is simply a big wake up call, confirmation that I really do have something wrong with me. I tend to forget that for a few days here and there.
Just checking in with y'all.
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So glad you had fun with your sister! I am sure it was well worth it!!
If you have a birthday this month, please post under February birthdays link, OK??
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aklnwlf
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Sometimes we just gotta take a break!
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sutherngrl
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It feels good to pretend not to be sick from time to time, and is good for the mental side for sure.
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map1131
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Yes, sometimes we just must do life. I used to spend days getting myself ready to go to one social function. Down the tubes I would go for many days after.
Pam
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Wow. So glad to hear this. Yep. I know it will take a while to get back to lyme normal.
But, wow...so glad you were doing well enough you could pretend you did not have lyme for a few days and got a mini vacation from it.
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Before I knew what I had, I tried to pretend well for about a month. Well, to be honest, I wasn't doing my normal high endurance activities or drinking alcohol, but I walked around having the attitude that maybe I am getting better. After all, my doctors were trying to convince me that it's all in my head (though I never bought that). Summer was coming along, so the warm weather and sun was nice. I think it helped me for a while.
Then I was going to start my summer job (physical labor), but crashed and had to quit first day. I really wanted to do the job too since the previous year was fun, so it wouldn't be logical that stress was the cause for me to quit. I wanted to be well, so I bought an over the door pull-up bar. I used to go to the gym every day but I cancelled it because of my health issues. After a couple days of that pull-up bar I really crashed hard and landed back in bed. I saw a new doctor who diagnosed me CDC Western Blot and IFA+ through Igenex first try. Literally, her first words out of her mouth was have I been tested for Lyme.
My point is, pretending can help. But if you pretend too much and use up all the energy you have, expect a crash.
This is just from my experience.
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I am going about my business, assuming I will get better any minute. I don't know if I am pretending or not.
I go to work every day and act like I'm not sick, and then I go home and act like I am.
I tried to return to a fun activity I used to do, a couple of days ago. I took it slow and easy.
It has made me a lot worse yesterday and today.
I find it difficult to say to myself or someone else, "I can't do that," when the truth is, I can--I just pay for it later. And I want to be able to do it.
Except sometimes I have good days where I do things and I don't pay.
And sometimes I feel really awful in spite of resting and doing everything right to take care of myself.
It is so hard to predict what will be okay and what won't.
I did enjoy a week over the holidays when family was visiting, and I was able to do a lot with them, the way we used to do. Some of it was too much, though.
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Bitten 5/25/2009 in Perry County, Indiana. Diagnosed by LLMD 12/2/2009. Posts: 756 | From Inside the tunnel | Registered: Jan 2010
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Now, I'm being hounded by the billing department of a neurologist I saw who I thought had a clue, he didn't. Date os service....4/17/08!!!! I had two insurances and it is a nightmare. I went in to the hmo office today and they said I should call the patient services line. I did and they told me a whole different story than the other two insurance companies did. Each is telling me that if you just provide this document, billing will go through. Problem is, they are all naming different documents! If this doesn't work, I will drive out to their headquarters in Torrance, CA which is probably a good hour to hour and a half drive. I dont' care. I want this over with. The doctor finally gave up on me. "Your neuropathy isn't progressing the way it is supposed to." Duh! Lyme doesn't make sense. My neuro symptoms started in my mid upper back and spread outward. Oops, I guess nobody told the spirochetes and their poisons that they were supposed to start in my hands and feet to keep the doctor happy. ARGH! I'm going to eat tostadas....hubby cooked tonight!
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