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I generally am very well tolerant of this whole thing: the limiting aspects of this disease and its treatment.
My attitude is "it is what it is".
I have a sense of humor about things. I can always see the upside of a situation.
Now, I am just so discouraged. I feel so bad, inside and out.
I suppose it's not alot that I have going on, compared to some of you.
It's alot for me, though. It's alot for most people.
Where to start? Yes, I recently had a med change (last week)and am probably herxing, then my menses began,(which always wipes me out), then I caught a cold (and I feel awful, but wonder if that's a good sign).
My head hurts so much with a crushing headache, my eyes are becoming unfocused (like I'm wearing someone else's contacts), and I feel shaky.
Every sentence I type has at least one or two typos. That's not too unusual, but it's harder for me to see today.
~(I just deleted a rambling series of details that probably make no sense.)~
Suffice it to say I really feal sad today
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sutherngrl
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Sorry you feel sad today! You are not alone!
I dip into this same kind of funk myself from time to time. Its just so hard to deal with the ups and then the downs again.....over and over and over. Sometimes you wonder if you will ever get a break.
Okay so its obvious, I am in one of those dips right now. I felt awful a week before Christmas, then felt really good through the Holidays. I was actually surprised at how well I handled them, I almost felt normal. Now for the last 3 days, I feel like pure crap.
It is so disappointing. I hate the way LD works. I hate that you feel better only to feel awful again. I would rather just feel crappy consistently and then one day get well. The ups and downs is what is so hard to me.
Now there you go....I did the rambling that you just deleted!
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I had been starting to feel really good about a month or so ago and then after a couple of weeks, I crashed big time.
Herxing(I think?), and on top of that, a horrific head/chest cold and everything that goes with that.
The feeling horrible lasted a good three weeks.
Now for the past week or so I have felt good. Almost like a normal person. It feels great but I know from experience that I could wake up tomorrow in hell again.
I hope that whatever you're going through is on it's way out and that you are back to feeling well again. I'm sending good thoughts your way...
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move over carly. i've reread some of my posts and i go "did i type that?" seems every post has half a dozen misspelled words or left out or something.
yeah, i understand.
but i am so thankful that all of YOU do too.
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MDW005
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I call these days the MULLY GRUBBS. Im having a dizzy unfocused day today. Rest and
try to keep a positive attitude It will be better.
Keep that chin up
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merrygirl
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oh so sorry you feel so awful, you dont deserve it.
Hang in there!!
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Thanks guys, it helps reading your kind words
I know it'll clear up. But it's getting kinda old now.
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It sounds like you are herxing to me. Hang in there!
I'm feeling crappy today, too. You're not alone...
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Hang in there Carly. Some of my meds put me through the ringer too. Herxing is emotional as well as physical.
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Well, today's definitely better. No shaking and my vision is normal.
I wonder if my bp or my sugar was off yesterday? I have done nothing different, except cry yesterday.
I am still having others problems, but those i can handle. It just seems that it all comes down on me at the same time.
I'm trying to focus on the good things. There are so many bad things about me, who I am and who i am becoming. I am deteriorating, but slowly and in increments.
I know I'm herxing and I know it will get better. In fact, it already is -for today.
Thanks so much, everyone, for helping keep my spirits up. A positive attitude is so helpful.
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