lpkayak
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and i really need to. i feel like my whole life is just coming down. i'm trying to stay focused and put one foot infront of the other...but i can't sleep-that is bad for me-and now i feel sick. nautious and dizzy. like i caught a bug or got food poisoning or something. this is really not a good time. i have a long drive to my dil to be 's bridal shower tomorrow
it would be hard even if i felt fine.
and in a few days i need to go north to nh and empty out and sell my house. or give it away. i just can't be respnsible for it any more.
so ... who else is awake? i'll be over to talk to you on your threads
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Tincup
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So sorry I wasn't there for you when you posted, but can be found here and there.
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I'm new here, but I'm around for a bit if you want to talk. I just don't know what you meant by I'll be over to "talk on your threads".
Oh, nevermind, I thought you posted at 2:30 pm, not am, my bad.
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map1131
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lp, I was up all right and almost all night. I just wasn't good company last night. Maybe chatting you could have settled me down and I could of helped you.
Wow lots of life to do on your list. Sometimes putting one foot in front of the other is tough.
Just give thanks that your feet work, even though I bet they hurt like mine do.
Some days it's just so hard to make yourself go and out on a happy face like a bridal shower.
Packing up the house you can wear your comfortable clothes and no make-up and do bad hair and not even smile...because that's sad that you are losing your home.
Pam
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lpkayak
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hi guys. i survived the shower. barely. it was dangerous for me to drive the way the gps took me. i planned to go the back way but messed up printing out the maps.
anyway-i got w/in 5 miles and someone came and got the gifts. then i started to go home my way-cuz i was so upset-but going my way i realized it was back roads and i found them
i talked to my first husband's wife and saw him the first time in over 25 yrs. i liked her a lot. i like both my ex husbands new wives. and i am really glad someone besides me is taking care of them both.
ppl need to listen to me and believe me when i say i can drive back roads but not crazy nyc roads tho. i know what i can and cannot do---but they just don't listen.
the room we were in looked out over beautiful fields-everyone was oh-ing and ah-ing about how beautiful it was and all i could think of was how many ticks. then everyone thought it was great that a deer walked thru. and there was a bunch of woodchucks.
it gave me the creeps. they have cats and dogs...thatt run,,,the dad just had his thyroid taken out...
i don't know. i just want to stay in my own environment where i feel safe. hot and dry...a little permethin here...a little there
now i face the house situation and then the wedding is in oct
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map1131
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You made the shower. That's great. Plus you found two women that are married to your exes and you like them. That's a feel good day.
One day at a time is all we can do.
Pam
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