lpkayak
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i am at the nh house to get it ready to sell. 5 weeks ago my brother was supposed to get all his stuff out and he is still working at it. this is giving me stress. i have always had low BP but now it is up. and it is hot. and some of my cholesterol #s are high. this doestnt bother me so muc h since i have done reading of llmds and alt docs
but i can't take statins cuz i got lipitor poisonin
new sx are profound fatigue during day and sometimes after eating
morning headaches
chest pain more focused where heart is
but i have had many heart workups and always i am ok
i am fat and dad died of heart attack...but he smoked a lot. i don't
anyway...they did ultrasound of my carotids this morning. kid doing it was in training and had to ask questions of person supervising her. then at the end he took over. it scared me...but they didn't admit me or anything so guess it can't be too bad
just one more stress
my brother now has a soc wker and is applyying for disability with her and will have psyc eval next week...and i keep saying i really need to not be his caregiver. i have my own problems.
he probably has undx and undertxed lyme. he was dx 10 yrs ago and did a little tx but when sx came back he got mad and said he wouldn't tx again until they knew how to cure it.
i didn't realize until i lived here with him a month how messed up his thinking is. it really is hard to be around him. you never know what he will do or say. and he is sure he is completely normal and all the problems are mine
so....if you are bored...talk to me. i'm trying to keep cool and trying to stay firm about he has to be gone by sat night at 5. he keeps getting me to give him more time and i am afraid i will explode if i don't get away from him.
i don't want to explode. i really don't. i want to get back to just taking care of me...
-------------------- Lyme? Its complicated. Educate yourself. Posts: 13712 | From new england | Registered: Feb 2004
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Dogsandcats
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Sorry. Getting a house ready to sell, heat and family issues AND lyme are enough to send anyone's BP up.
I find with myself if I let things go too long I blow and say things or act unkind. I do not like to do this. I am very careful to try and deal with things before I am fried.
Stick to your instincts. It is ok to not be able to be someone else's caregiver, Lyme is a consuming disease.
Sounds like you need a little break....maybe treat yourself to something fun, doesn't have to be too expensive or take a long time.....
If you are like me, I get focused on getting something done and forget to live a little and smile.
-------------------- God will prepare everything for our perfect happiness in heaven, and if it takes my dog being there, I believe he'll be there.
Billy Graham Posts: 1967 | From California | Registered: Oct 2010
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lpkayak
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thanks. i'm going easy on myself-but scared to leave house when he is here-to do something fun. i'm sure i'll be better tomorrow night when he is gone .
i've got a good book and AC!!!
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Dogsandcats
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other than some good food, you are set! A/C says it all...
enjoy......
-------------------- God will prepare everything for our perfect happiness in heaven, and if it takes my dog being there, I believe he'll be there.
Billy Graham Posts: 1967 | From California | Registered: Oct 2010
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Hang in there! Difficult family situations are really hard. Crank up A/C and watch a movie in a room where he is not. Keep out of the heat, as it exacerbates my anxiety and crankiness. I don't know about you?
pm me if you need to talk, I'm a pretty good listener.
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