This is a relaps after being sick for 8 years 6 well and back sick again. Among all the dumb things with this is being super sensitive.
All i want to do is bawl and nope im not depressed. Finding when i feel the worst is when i feel so sensitive. I just deleted facebook because if someone answers odd or don't answer or just dumb stuff i get my feelings hurt so i deleted facebook which also makes me feel really dumb.
I know how this mess effects us and it bugs me im letting it get to me yet again. The first time i could see it. Because i didnt know what to expect. There is no excuse this time i know what to expect and yet wham it just hits me side the head.
Okay now that i have run on and on im also feeling really dumb. Thanks for letting me vent
[ 11-01-2009, 06:45 PM: Message edited by: O2Btickfree2 ]
Posted by joalo (Member # 12752) on :
When I am feeling my worse I am incredibly sensitive too. It's not just you.
You are not alone!
Posted by sammy (Member # 13952) on :
Same here. I cry easily and tend to be very emotional when i'm feeling really bad.
I've even cried at work a few times, talk about feeling dumb! It's frustrating.
Posted by daisyrlb (Member # 15686) on :
O2B so sorry for your relapse.
Venting is good. That's what we're here for. We're here for each other.
O2B you can get better again.
Try not to give up hope.
Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
I'm sorry to hear about your relapse. That stinks!
I do remember when I was going thru treatment that the WORST thing was feeling better .. and then WHAM! feeling HORRIBLE!
It was very frightening to me because it was like starting all over again. So I can really understand how you feel .. we can all relate.
please don't cry
love and hugs
Posted by catskillmamala (Member # 12536) on :
When I was feeling sick, reading a children's story to my kids would make me cry- like if the baby duck got separated from the mommy duck!!! I kid you not.
Ever since then I have tried to cut out negativity including the NEWS, NPR, the financial news, and I must say I believe it has helped me. I also don't see scary movies or read scary or sad books.
I know it's really hard to deal with unnnessary sadness and not to take everything so personally. One time when I was particularly sick, before treatment, my husband came into my room to ask if I wanted chicken or pasta for dinner and what I heard- or felt like he was saying- was "get the h3ll out of bed you #$% and oook me some *&#%^& dinner" and that is NOT what he said or meant.
Hang in there, tickfree
Posted by LymedOut (Member # 22351) on :
cat,
You explained me to the tee. I do the same thing with my husband, especially when I'm feeling my worst. I take everything so seriously. My poor husband just shuts up and walks away. He knows that it will only get worse and I don't even have a clue why I'm feeling that way. It's very frustrating.
I think we all go through this sooner or later.
O2B,
We know exactly how you feel. Please know that you can come here to vent and we will understand.
Posted by O2Btickfree2 (Member # 9742) on :
I agree just try to remove things that you know is gonna set us off. I know it cant always be done with everything but at least those things we can.
Its like i see the negative of conversations or actions and as if there directed at me negatively. Usually it wouldn't bother me. I might get upset but blow it off. Not now and i get angry easy and want to tell them what i think. So i stay clear of putting myself in those possitions. I wouldnt say bad stuff but let them know how i feel which only makes things worse.
Thanks for all the comments even tho i know its lyme it still helps to just vent. Thanks guys
Posted by Snailhead (Member # 18091) on :
Catskill you made me laugh out loud. The only thing I accomplished today was getting a bath. You made my day.
Posted by ThatColorGreen (Member # 16016) on :
Amen.
Ironically, i was actually crying when i opened this post...
it's been one of those days over here too :I
You're not alone!
BIG HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!! ~green
[ 11-03-2009, 02:28 AM: Message edited by: ThatColorGreen ]
Posted by janice victorov (Member # 22937) on :
Hey All, this is so nice to read and feel better. You have no idea how much better. Today for some reason I was very emotional, sad,and just blue.
I have been feeling ok. Then last night out of the blue, my hands kicked in and feet. They throb like toothaches.
I try and stay positive as well and avoid people, things, that are negative etc.
Thanks again for being so positive and making me feel like their is hope and understanding.
You guys are the best.
Posted by O2Btickfree2 (Member # 9742) on :
I agree you guys are great.
Posted by Snailhead (Member # 18091) on :
There is hope. As long as we are all breathing, there is always hope. If your pain is horrid or your emotions are getting the best of you, wait it out. Tomorrow is always a new day.
To walk to our own coffe pot or see our children smile at us, well, those are all gifts.
Posted by Topaz (Member # 20216) on :
The funny(not ha ha-funny but strange-funny) thing about lyme is that it changes so much from day to day.
This is good in a way, and also bad in a way.
On the down side, if you're having a GOOD day, don't get your hopes up that tomorrow will be good. You could wake up feeling absolutely awful. This can feel soooo discouraging and do a number on one's emotions.
Upside of the downside, once you start having a good day here or there, I think it's a good sign that better days are just around the corner.
On the up up side, if you're having a BAD day(or week, or month), tomorrow could still be the best day ever for you! And this gives us hope.
SO, when you're feeling bad and frustrated and hopeless, remember that with this disease, as opposed to many other diseases that often progress and get worse, the next day could be your turning point and when you begin to feel better(and better and better).
Keep going! And know that you are not alone. Posted by kam (Member # 3410) on :
Not able to read what the others wrote...but heading over your way to pick you up in my imaginary balloon to sail away.
You will once again feel powerful and confident but in the meantime, you will get a glimpse of it in my imaginary hot air balloon!!
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