Who else wakes up so depressed that this is our life now, waking up with this horrible disease.
I have such anxiety, panic, and think each day is my last. Very scared of death, but at the same time, scared of living with this stupid disease. Anyone?
Posted by O2Btickfree2 (Member # 9742) on :
I'm so sorry your feeling down. Unfortunatly it is all part of this mess. All the emotions you are feeling are part of this illness. It will come and go.
You will make it threw this. I delt with it for 8 years and was blessed with 6 years of normal living some what. I have relapsed but knowing i can feel better and will fight for that with everything i have. Do i get down absolutly this week has been horrible. Physically and emotionally. Sometimes ya just feel like getting in a car and driving just as far as ya can to where who cares. But i couldnt even do that LOL .
Sometimes you wish you had a bubble around you because people ask about how you feel or what is lyme. You try to tell them and they get this distant boredom look and you wish you had not even said anything. You wonder if they think your wanting sympathy or faking.
It will get better one up side is that these feelings come and go. You will get better!!!! Panic attack i have never been one to have them. But last week i had to drive my hubby to pick up his truck from the auto body place. Going down there he quickly moved toward the dash board and i thought i was gonna have a heart attack. Then i was on a hill with gaurd rail. Suddenly i felt like i would go over the edge. Wasnt i wanted to go over it just a feeling like i would.
Im not wanting to talk to anyone but my husband and sometimes i think he gets board with this mess to. But hes the best.
Feel better and hang in there things will get better.
Posted by Brandimc (Member # 22017) on :
ps. I am on zoloft
thanks O2!
Posted by justchugginalong (Member # 23309) on :
Wow! Your question hits home. I think the same thing on a daily basis. I've cried more in the last four months than I have in twenty years added. I don't understand how this disease can cause soo much sorrow on a daily basis. I've always thought myself to be a strong woman until I got sick, and now I feel depressed, weak, and discusted with myself. I'm forty years old and have been soo sick that I just want my mommy. Just like a little kid that wants Mom when they get hurt. Is it the lyme that causes the sorrow or is it the reality of what we are dealing with? Anyhow, I hope you wake up tomorrow feeling a little bit better.
Posted by JamesNYC (Member # 15793) on :
How long have you been on Zoloft and how many mg?
Posted by Dekrator48 (Member # 18239) on :
My LLMD told me that for him, it was Babesia that caused his extreme anxiety.
With aggressive Babesia treatment it finally resolved.
Posted by JamesNYC (Member # 15793) on :
Babesia caused me deep, despairing depression. But the depression would parallel my physical state. On days when my body felt good: no depression. Days when I was feeling fatigued: bad depression.
It bounced up and down, unlike typical psychological depression.
James
Posted by aklnwlf (Member # 5960) on :
Sending you a hug!!! Posted by kam (Member # 3410) on :
Not able to read all of what others wrote so may be repeating things.
I have tried taking antidepressants several times since coming down sick.
I know they help others but they took the wind out of my sails and the fight.
I finally figured out it was the anti depressant depressing me.
Some caused me to sleep around the clock...others I cried a lot.
Some altered my brain and I started thinking of ways to kill myself.
Like James. Now, my depression is connected to my health...the longer I go without being able to do something the more down I get.
And at times, I do have something that changes in my brain which I need to remind myself to wait this out.
Then when it is gone, I can't even recall what the symptoms were when it was going on.
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