I'm sorry to be complaining/venting yet again... but i feel like my heart and my head is broken...nasty headache and a heartache too...
On a different board, nothing to do w/ anyone here,people I tho't I could trust,have degraded and denegrated me and my husband.
I don't feel I can ever post anything on their 'prayer board',or really anywhere else there... ever again.
Beyond saying a quiet goodbye to the few folk who have supported us w/love and caring.
Evidently the death,sadness,and illness in our family is too much...and we have asked people to be too caring...
No one told us this,till *TxC' made a 'Hot topics' type statement that some took exception to...
*We don't speak for each other*...nor are we each others puppets. I didn't know how much two- faced-ness there was and how some folk really felt about me...
A lot has happened in our lives recently, say the last 36 months...I try not to let things bother me...but I am stunned...
Again it is nothing to do w/ LymeNet or this Lyme family...
I just feel so disheartened... and glad that y'all are here...
Please,if I am truly to negative here...someone tell me...politely...I feel like I got slugged in the stomach and then kicked in the kidneys...
Stunned Silverwolfi
Posted by randibear (Member # 11290) on :
silvier wolfie, honey, contact me privately. sorry but i've been gone since last week.
i truly hope everything is ok.
i've had a few issues here recently too but it wasn't about me but others, so i know how you must feel.
please write me.
Posted by Silverwolf (Member # 9196) on :
<<<<< RAndibear Sister >>>>>,
Just Pmed you...
***Again it isn't you or any of our LymeNet folk...***
It was a different board,entirely,and after 8 years there to find out there is so huge a trust issue...just broke my heart...
I am far from perfect...but I tried to be an honest and caring friend...and some folk...well I don't know how to describe it further...
Please everyone...understand...it was not LymeNet... [I found LymeNet because of someone there,at the board that just degraded us so horridly].
TxC,is known to occasionally say something that might upset the applecart... on the other board...he doesn't mean to come across as ornery..just stating his opinion.
But he states an opinion...and suddenly I am lower than cattle dung on that other board of 8 years of my life...I'm just stunned.
Silverwolfi...emotional and sad
Trying to get well...I just didn't need this...
Posted by Silverwolf (Member # 9196) on :
Hey y'all,it is just me again...
I am wondering if, depression and negative tho'ts and angry attitudes can spread across the Net???
It seems to be happening on many boards lately???
it makes me sad...because I want to be an encourager...and it is hard to encourage others when in the mullygrub swamps...
Silverwolfi..trying to get it together
Posted by joalo (Member # 12752) on :
Silverwolf- I'm so sorry they treated you that way. You can come here and vent anytime.
We will listen and support you. Let it all out so you can move on and heal.
Posted by randibear (Member # 11290) on :
as we say in texas "ya'll must feel lower than a snake's butt in a wagonwheel rut."
now didn't that make you feel better???
Posted by O2Btickfree2 (Member # 9742) on :
Bless your heart i had to get off face book cause it kept me upset. Im back on but only with those who arnt making me feel worse.
I dont know what happened but people can be crewl on the net. When they have no connection emotionally to you as a person. Then there are those who just run on these boards to just cause trouble to get a reaction from people.
I dont know if you knew these people who hurt you but you need to protect yourself from things that is going to make you feel worse.
I know we are more emotional so things that usually wouldnt bother us do.
Hang in there sounds like your a compassionate person.
Vent it does help. Glad for this board for that reason.
Posted by sammy (Member # 13952) on :
Silverwolf, i'm sorry to hear that others have treated you so badly. Try not to take it to heart.
I care about you and I know that many others here think the same.
So i'm sending you a hug, make that a couple hugs just because Posted by sammy (Member # 13952) on :
and randibear, that snake's butt saying is hilarious! Do people really say that?
Posted by bettyg (Member # 6147) on :
bonny
you are in my thoughts and prayers for this recent incident; DON'T go back there; just leave their nastiness and come here.
we accept you as is; just like the rest of us.
the last 3 years you've had has been hell and in today's world, would be a soap opera, but yours is 100% true what has happened to you both.
we all need to vent but WITHOUT ATTACKING OTHERS which this board has been doing terribly this past month and years before we came.
feelling your hurt, anger, pain, and being attacked by a "so-called fair weather friend" ... yes, i know that one too recently!
betty
Posted by lymemomtooo (Member # 5396) on :
Wolf, it can happen anywhere. I have been attacked by people on here..Had my guts ripped out by one actually that I thought was a friend. But I think it is all due to Tick Borne crap. It makes people paranoid, angry and vindictive. They do not know how to trust or befriend and many don't have good judgment.
I have spent a great deal of time thinking about this. If my own daughter is suicidal, homicidal and hates her parents one minute and later doesn't believe she could have done such things, why wouldn't others go off half nuts.(excuse the choice of words)
They may be jealous of others, or tired of others' trials and tribulations, or just having an angry episode with the disease or meds.
Later, they may not realize they were such horrible people or still be sick and think it was justified. It is also easier to say crap on an email or board than ever say such trash to someone's face.
Know that everywhere there are friendly people and sick people. It is hard to excape this fact.
Hang in there. lmt
Posted by MADDOG (Member # 18) on :
Hi Silverwolf We used to have a terrible person that came on here just to make trouble.
There are actually people out there who go online to harass people ,they are called trolls. They get banned from this board by the admin..
So dont let any troll get you down.
I actually used to enjoy trapping our troll and putting him down.
MADDOG
Posted by randibear (Member # 11290) on :
sammy, i wasn't pulling your leg or going around the barn.
yep, we say things like that here.
we have our "own" language....it's great...
Posted by Silverwolf (Member # 9196) on :
Clarification [just in case anyone is having serious brain-fog like I am right now] ...
The verbal attack on TxC and myself, came from a -Private message-board-,which is an offshoot of a Board started to spotlight a particular authors works.
The particular *author has Lyme disease,and because they shared w/us...I found my DX of Lyme disease.
The publishers [who owned the *board] rather suddenly shut down this board. The private board where we were attacked was started from the board that was shut down.
A core group on the private board, became angered w/ the Author ,ill w/Lyme, who "...should have done more to stop the Publishers from shutting down the board,...kept better contact..." etc... ad-nauseum!
Some of us tried to be a voice of reason...I guess it isn't possible on that board any longer.
It seems a little ogress [ogres and ogresses are ensconced longer than trolls] has the ear of the admin' and Moderators on teh Private board...
Perhaps she has been gunning for us ?,since the Author sent me a public encouragement before the publishing company shut down the board...almost two years ago???
There were a couple of catty remarks from Ogress and her cronies... I felt safe w/ the many friends and aquaintances I had made over the years.
Sadly,I cannot post anything there w/ any form of trust now...TxC is taking care of the meanspirited verbal attack from the ogress,and her cronies...
I will say my goodbyes there after almost 8 years of building relationships...cannot deal w/ the toxic vitriol being spewed any more. True friends from the Private board know how to find us!!!
Thanks so much for y'alls support here :
<<<<< Randibear, Joalo, O2B',Sammy, Betty', lymemomtoo, Maddog,and any one else if I missed your name too>>>>,
Thank You for the kindness,and understanding,and for the humor and love you have shown us!!!
LOL 'Lower than a snakes butt in a wagonwheel rut...' gotta love it!!!
Maddog, I love your attitude !!! Thanks for making me laugh!!!
Each replier, thanks for letting me vent this out!!!
TxC' and I have seen things erupt on teh few boards we frequent before,...oddly several unrelated boards can have it happening at the same time.
While I realize that prolly not everything is lyme related...I wonder sometimes what is really in the air, water, and food we all breath,eat and drink!!!
Once when the 'authors board'[I mention above] was still up, and we were on a 'christian line,, another friend was moderating a board to do w/ hair health...all non-related.
In the same week...w/ a fullmoon [hmm] all three boards erupted in to fights and arguments... that left hurt feelings for several months...
Okay, Jus' Silverwolfi from the swamp and desert trying to get my footing... -I appreciate Y'all very much-!!!
[PS me-thinks I might be a conspiracy theorist Wolfi... OWoooowoooOOO... now where is that pretty full moon...]
Posted by Pinelady (Member # 18524) on :
Aw Silverwolf, I don't think you are that bad apple
that needs plucked out of that cart. I would go
back and keep that coat shining, hold your head up
and kick some butt. Wolves don't hunt alone, they
hunt in packs. And I bet your pack is better.
Posted by Silverwolf (Member # 9196) on :
<<<<< Pinelady >>>>>,
Thanks for the kind encouragement... this little Wolfi,decided the apples in that 'other cart' were being injected w/ poisonous toxins...and that isn't anyway to get well!!!
It was sad for me...but who needs more toxins in their life??? And the pack I run w/ from that cart/board knows how to find me!!!
I appreciate your support and that of all who reply!!! Going thru that feeling like someone else has passed away from my family. but I'm sure it will get better as time passes...
Thanks again so much!!!
Love from Silverwolfi
Posted by Starfall1969 (Member # 17353) on :
"Some of us tried to be a voice of reason...I guess it isn't possible on that board any longer."
Yeah, well another saying I heard, I think it was on the Dukes of Hazzard, was "You can't talk horse sense to a jackass," and it certainly seems that that's what's going on with that other board.
I'm so sorry to hear of your trials, Wolfi. It's just not right when people treat others like crap.
It's always painful to cut ties when you've spent so much time building what you thought were good relationships, but sometimes we need to do the painful thing so that we can move on and get better.
I do hope that you'll be able to forgive them--I've heard it said that forgiveness isn't for the other person, it's for you. Because when someone hurts you, they just go on with their lives and don't even know that you're hurting.
So I hope that for YOU, you can come to forgive them.
And as for the sayings, I came up with one of my own after a breakup in college--"I feel so low that I'd have to look up to see an amoeba."
*hugs to you*
Posted by Silverwolf (Member # 9196) on :
<<<<< Starfall' >>>>>,
It is tough right now for me, because there are some wonderful folks that hang out on the board that I've left...
And it isn't them,that were such low gossiping backstabbing types...but I feel that staying there would just open me up to more vitriol and poison...I don't need the extra toxins in my life.
I'm glad that I never met the little Judasina type that caused me problems there... I'd be surprised if their membership really grows much more ...
It is sad for me, but I need to move past it and work on getting well, and that includes forgiveness!!! So I'll do my grieving,and move on as best as I'm able!!
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