I'm not sure who to ask at this point. I am back on iv treatment for lyme and bart (rocephin, zithro and tindamax). My son is 14 and is responsible thank God 9auto clash because he is all me, poor kid personality wise. I should thank God I have him for being as responsible as he is. I live in depersonalization the past month and a half and with my history, it could go on for months, and I'm taking care of my dad who is 83 and is going through alot of physical stuff now. I have 2 sisters, one that has lyme and can't help herself, and the other is in another state and can't help, and the way she is, don't know how much help I'd get if she was here. I shake when I wake up, shake all day, have ocd, have thoughts sometimes uncontrolled what if's, am on ocd meds, but sometimes the ocd wiht the lyme override the meds. My husband is helpful, but is away this week with his mother having a heart attack. I totally feel disconnected to myself and it would help if the depersonalization left and would let me live my life to do what I have to. I need to delegate, but I don't know how and to who. My dad had prior strokes and just wants and trusts me. I love my husband and my son, and just want my mind back the way I usually am. Stress adds to treatment being set back, but I feel numb. Any suggestions? Thanks for anyone reading this lengthy note, but am at a standstill. Have a llmd psychiatrist, saw her last week and she said the depersonalization as before will go, but its hell to live with till then. I taught myself to function although I feel I am not who I am (sounds scary, but my anxiety meds and ocd meds ease the scariness and sometimes maybe accept this - I don't really have a choice. I have too much to do to feel like this. I'm grateful when I have my life back, but it's the farthest from it. Thanks so much for listening. Wish everyone good health.
Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
Breaking this up so we can read it.....
quote:Originally posted by lyme in Putnam: I'm not sure who to ask at this point. I am back on iv treatment for lyme and bart (rocephin, zithro and tindamax).
My son is 14 and is responsible thank God 9auto clash because he is all me, poor kid personality wise. I should thank God I have him for being as responsible as he is.
I live in depersonalization the past month and a half and with my history, it could go on for months, and I'm taking care of my dad who is 83 and is going through alot of physical stuff now.
I have 2 sisters, one that has lyme and can't help herself, and the other is in another state and can't help, and the way she is, don't know how much help I'd get if she was here.
I shake when I wake up, shake all day, have ocd, have thoughts sometimes uncontrolled what if's, am on ocd meds, but sometimes the ocd wiht the lyme override the meds.
My husband is helpful, but is away this week with his mother having a heart attack. I totally feel disconnected to myself and it would help if the depersonalization left and would let me live my life to do what I have to.
I need to delegate, but I don't know how and to who. My dad had prior strokes and just wants and trusts me.
I love my husband and my son, and just want my mind back the way I usually am. Stress adds to treatment being set back, but I feel numb. Any suggestions?
Thanks for anyone reading this lengthy note, but am at a standstill. Have a llmd psychiatrist, saw her last week and she said the depersonalization as before will go, but its hell to live with till then.
I taught myself to function although I feel I am not who I am (sounds scary, but my anxiety meds and ocd meds ease the scariness and sometimes maybe accept this - I don't really have a choice.
I have too much to do to feel like this. I'm grateful when I have my life back, but it's the farthest from it. Thanks so much for listening. Wish everyone good health.
Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
Whew! That sounds really rough! You are in a very difficult situation caring for your father when you are so ill.
I don't see how you can take the tindamax when you are having such psychological problems. It is very hard to take that stuff even without such problems.
Keep an eye on it and ask your dr to remove the drug if necessary.
Hugs and love....
Posted by Carol in PA (Member # 5338) on :
quote: I shake when I wake up, shake all day, have ocd, have thoughts sometimes uncontrolled what if's, am on ocd meds, but sometimes the ocd with the lyme override the meds.
Are you taking supplemental magnesium? Mag may help the tremors and shakes.
Almonds and almond butter are high in magnesium. Toasted pumpkin seeds (no shells) are high in mag and other minerals you need.