It's like I speak up more now, and people aren't used to it.
All the years I spent in the fog, I was so willing to be led around. Now I am waking up, and it is an adjustment all around.
Am I the only one?
Posted by Wonko (Member # 18318) on :
I can relate. Forget other people, I'm not used to it! It is really shocking to see my personality emerge now that the fog is breaking up.
Posted by mazou (Member # 15319) on :
Totally! I won't put up with any cr*p anymore. I used to be just like "Oh, ok, whatever... "
Posted by BrianF (Member # 24286) on :
I think it's fantastic for the real me to come out of the fog. It doesn't benefit anyone, especially me, to be a meek little soul who never rocks the boat. It is not only OK to be assertive, it our birthright as human beings. It is also OK to blow it sometimes - we're human and we're allowed to make mistakes. I can forgive myself today, which is progress.
Posted by lymie_in_md (Member # 14197) on :
From the grass to becoming the lawn mower. From the nail to the hammer. People do need to adjust to that. At work, I've done a lot of tear downs lately of some really bad ideas I might have tolerated before.
Posted by mazou (Member # 15319) on :
I love it! Thanks for your comments Lymie and Brian. I don't feel all alone in this anymore.
Posted by DaveNJ (Member # 17362) on :
man...never considered that others had changed like i have....i am no nonsense on my good days...i like pointing out everyone's ridiculousness(sp)....i have so much family drama going on and my answer is basically shut up with yourself inflicated BS....last week at work i was also quoted as saying after a rant...and by the way in my world not everyone gets a trophy...don't get me wrong i am stil tolerant but i will mock the crap out of you and your silly problems...
did the sun come up? do you feel good? okay now zip it....most of this of course is said for my entertainment...i hope that doesn't sound too harsh...
Posted by Alana (Member # 14077) on :
"did the sun come up? do you feel good? okay now zip it"
"From the grass to becoming the lawn mower. From the nail to the hammer"
Love those quotes! Too bad most "healthies" just don't get it.
Good for you all that you've become more assertive and stood up for yourselves. Keep doing that!
At this point in my life, I'm in a "zero tolerance zone" meaning I don't take crap from anyone. Been through too much for too long.
Fortunately, I've always had the freedom to speak up and speak out since I was a little girl (circa 1960s). It has been a gift for which I am extremely grateful, and I had no idea just how valuable a gift this was until a few years ago.
My ability to advocate and speak out was not prompted by Lyme Disease, yet the road I've been on has led me to this.
So, for those of you who are finally finding your voices, more power to you. Let your voices be heard!
Good luck to you all, and I hope you soon find a path to recovery.
Posted by Linda09 (Member # 21892) on :
Congratulations to everyone who is making it out of the fog!
I've experienced the same thing. When I get tired, from whatever cause, I get quiet. A lot of the time I was just quiet, faded into the background. Now I'm finding that I am a good leader. I can step in to a situation and take charge and keep calm in a crisis. How many people who knew me before would have guessed that I would be the one to do that?
Linda
Posted by mazou (Member # 15319) on :
Linda. That's awesome. Dave, yes. It's like I have been through and come out the other side. And Alana, I love the zero tolerance zone!
Posted by mazou (Member # 15319) on :
Amanda, I think that's a great side effect from brain fog! Maybe you are feeling more relaxed and willing to talk to people. Whatever works, right?
Posted by Pinelady (Member # 18524) on :
LOL I love it. I can find the words I wish to speak now instead of just saying Oh Well forget it. LOL
I can still watch a game show and repeat 10 times the bonus question to enter contest and can't
remember it by the time I get to puter, without writing it down. It sucks. But making progress is great!
Posted by carly (Member # 14810) on :
Well, my brain fog certainly hasn't lifted, but I know what you mean about speaking your mind.
Now I'm kinda like the elderly, I just say whatever I want.
I'm okay with it. I guess others are too. I don't really take much notice.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not mean to people. It's usually taken as a joke when I say something rude or borderline rude, but I don't hold back anymore.
I don't hold back with the compliments, either.
Posted by METALLlC BLUE (Member # 6628) on :
I would agree. Not only do I speak up, but I'm a lot more optimistic when I feel better. I become a different person. Suddenly the retardation and low IQ spikes as well. I go from 99 IQ to about 125, and that's only when I am 45-50% functional, so I imagine I must be much more capable once I recover. It's like being given a gift. I want my gift!
Unfortunately none of the treatments are working for me and I just slip back into relapse and become a dunce again. I mask it well since I write everything carefully and I think things thru very slowly. Also, if you master one particular thing, even if you're not the smartest cookie, you appear to be since you know it so well!
Sucks.
Posted by LightAtTheEnd (Member # 24065) on :
Well, you do look smart, Blue.
@carly, my grandma was really, really sweet, but also quite outspoken and usually humorous. She did not hesitate in the least to express her honest opinion.
Once she turned 80, she said now she had an excuse for being so outspoken, and she could say whatever she wanted to from then on. (Not that she didn't already, LOL.)
Maybe we should all say, "I have Lyme, so I can say whatever I want."
Though at the moment I'm wary of saying anything, having just been through my third emotional flare in which I alienated people. Quiet is good, too.
I don't have brain fog, for which I'm extremely grateful, but at the moment I alternate personalities every couple of weeks, haha. My loved ones aren't quite sure what to make of it.
Posted by Geneal (Member # 10375) on :
Unfortunately, I've always been outspoken.
However, the inability to find words and sometimes
Even follow the conversation did dampen this part of my personality.
I found though, that by listening and I mean really listening,
That my instincts about people and the feelings I have always had were usually right.
I think that I was able to "tune" in better to myself when I came out of the fog.
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