Everything is hitting again as it seems to for us here in Idaho... My AUnt in Oregon, who had a heart attack again a few weeks back,died this afternoon.
Aunty went peacefully, but this is so difficult. We'd like to go to support my cousins and my Dad,but medical issues and finances prevent us.
TxC' hasn't been released to travel more than a few hours [it'd be a two day drive,two long dayS],
And I have this stupid intestinal flu like problem after exposure to a dish detergent that doesn't agree w/ me. Exposure thru the skin has been causing diahrea,cramping and so on...not fun.
It seems like my system has gotten more and more chemical sensitive since the 'statin meds poisoning[back in March]. ANd the grieving isn't helping things I'm sure.
Gotta go for now,but just wanted to check in w/Lyme Family and Friends, I could, TxC' too, really use a hug...gently tho'.
Just the Silverwolfi... it hurts to howl so I'll whimper...
*[ I am comforted to know I will see my Aunt again...she is in the Arms of the Lord, and perhaps visitng even now w/ my Mom...among so many friends and family]*
[ 08-11-2011, 10:29 PM: Message edited by: Silverwolf ]
Posted by DKat (Member # 30941) on :
Oh Silverwolf, I'm so sorry you are going through this on top of everything else.
Gentle hugs coming your way ... and prayers.
Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
I'm so sorry to hear this!! My sincere condolences.
My aunt died a few months ago and I was also unable to attend the funeral. It broke my heart. And like you said, you really want to go to support your cousins.
Was this your mother's sister? That's who I lost too. Makes it feel like you lost your mother all over again.
It does help to think that they are up there in heaven hugging each other!!
I sure hope you two begin to feel better very soon! Posted by daisyrlb (Member # 15686) on :
One thing after another has been going on with you two. I'm so sorry.
I'm especially sorry for your great loss with your Aunt passing on...and also that you two will not be able to attend the funeral and be with family.
Gentle hugs and prayers to you both and to your family.
The Lord has promised to be close to the broken hearted. May you sense Him especially close at this time of sorrow.
Posted by Silverwolf (Member # 9196) on :
<<<<< DKat,Lymetoo, and daisyrlb >>>>>,
Thank you for the kind words of sympathy,the hugs and the prayers!
It was my Dads Sis' who died, but starting in the year 2000 until now Aug. 2011 she is the 16th member of our family to pass away.
And we've had almost as many close friends pass away in the same time frame. Before we get a chance to grieve,put it in perspective as much as one can,
and then rejoice that these loved ones are in no more pain,and always safe and happy, then someone else dies.
Loss of health,for both TxC' and me,loss of jobs, and homes, familydeaths and finances..and the worsening Lyme and Co's has taken it's toll.
Been praying continually and alot... so tired,right now...[still fighting the chemical flu bug who knew a simple detergent could make me so ill].
I don't mean to be a downer...just so weary... TxC' and I need a break, just for a little while... no medical issues, no more bills no more deaths just for a little while...please Lord God.
Jus' Weary Silverwolfi here
[ having computer freeze up issues, someone intentionally messed w/ our computer,and it is getting worse. If we cannot get on for awhile...that is why.]
Posted by payne (Member # 26248) on :
As the winds settled, The cold and darkness left, A calm quietness filled the air, The breath of each in to the night. As, the spirit and soul became one, The moon lifted from the earth, another loss to another found.. The Hand of the Lord in hers... and in the Lord's Hands internal life forever shall be..
An Aunt is a woman that leaves her Love, every where she goes..
on the 13th the full moon will appear I will sit on my fence with pointed ears to hear songs from the night sky Posted by Silverwolf (Member # 9196) on :
<<<<< Payne >>>>>,
Thank You so much for the prayer poem, and that beautiful wolf pic'!!
You are so correct, and Gods Creation, the beauties of the night skies,and the wonderful sunshine can sooth us with the peace of Jesus Christ.
He knows how much we are missing family and friends who've gone on...
Aunt was a precious friend...but she and so many family members and friends are safe healthy and happy now.
I am an Auntie too,and will strive to keep that legacy of love left in the hearts of our neices and nephews... Even thru the tears...this wolfie can Share Jesus love.
Thanks again for the kind words, trying not to be frustrated w/ this poor old computer that has been damaged... [Sometiems it is difficult to wait while the poor 'puter unfreezes itself].
Jus' Silverwolfi reflecting on the Lords love,even in the hardest of times...just as the moon reflects the sun in the dark times!
Posted by Silverwolf (Member # 9196) on :
Jus' Silverwolfi here...
TxC' spoke w/ my Dad, they got to Oregon safely, Cousins are working on the plans and all for the funeral...we don't really have any details at this time.
Dad seemed to be okay[It was his sis'], he was sad that we cannot be there.
Just checking in... computer is slow...but still working in between short freeze ups.
Silverwolfi
Posted by momindeep (Member # 7618) on :
So very sorry for all your troubles and loss of your aunt.
Nothing I can say to make it better...will be thinking on you two and praying for a break for you and Txc.
Posted by Silverwolf (Member # 9196) on :
<<<<< momindeep >>>>>,
Thank You for the kind words and prayer...we do need a break,badly !!!
Sometimes we really don't like to check mail,answer the phone etc., but perhaps the next call or letter will be something nice?!
Jus' Silverwolfi-the weary
Posted by sammy (Member # 13952) on :
Awe Silverwolf, so sorry for your loss.
Sending some hugs and prayers your way
Posted by Silverwolf (Member # 9196) on :
Hi <<<<< Sammy >>>>>,
Thanks so much...we need those hugs and prayers right now! I will miss Aunty.
I am still fighting the chemical flu, guess I'll be getting dish-washing gloves next payday.
I never tho't about a supposedly mild dish detergent causing problems thru the skin.
Fighting to get some energy back and to be able to eat a bit w/o pain and cramping etc.
I am hopeful that my cousins,and my dad too, will be able to understand us not coming to funeral.
Medical and financial issues prevent it... TxC hasn't been released by his drs. yet to drive more than a few hours.
And I gotta get the 'IBS-ahrea' under control somehow from this chemical sensitivity [sorry if its TMI].
Probably repeating myself...Iv'e heard of babbling brooks... but babbling Wolfies?
Well I'll check in probly tomorrow,if computer allows.
Jus' Silverwolfi
Posted by aklnwlf (Member # 5960) on :
You and yours are in my thoughts and prayers Wolfie.
Posted by Tracy9 (Member # 7521) on :
Silverwolf, I'm so sorry. Grief is so hard to endure. It's a heartbreak. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
Hang in there, you two. Prayers are still with you.
Posted by kellyjk4 (Member # 19731) on :
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. You both are in my thoughts.
Posted by map1131 (Member # 2022) on :
Oh Silver, you carrying such a load. I wish you some good stuff soon. Take care of you and yours.
Pam
Posted by lpkayak (Member # 5230) on :
sorry for what you are going thru-will pm you
Posted by Silverwolf (Member # 9196) on :
<<<<< aklnwlf,Tracy9,Lymetoo,kellyjk4,map1131, and lpkayak >>>>>,
Thanks so much for the kind words,hugs and prayers!
I think all of us,are going/go thru' grieving in some way...and I hope each of your loads are lightening now.
For me an TxC' it just has kept on happening, before we could get over one loss another is happening.
When it is a death, I try to think of the good things, the folk no longer in pain, and so on.
Just w/ TxC' ill and all too,it is hard. He tries to cheer me up... but I know he is in pain like I am.
I just keep giving it all to God, and trying to look for the beauty around me... don't know how else to handle it all.
Love from Silverwolfi
Posted by randibear (Member # 11290) on :
i am so very sorry. i knew she was sick from talking to you.
wish there was some way to comfort all those who have had losses this year.
Posted by Silverwolf (Member # 9196) on :
<<<<< randibear >>>>>,
Thanks, the funeral is tomorrow, between health and finance issues we wont be going.
It would be a two day drive, and we just cannot do it. TxC' has another appt. at the VA hospital in Salt Lake Friday... it'll be a very long day.
No Critter Sitter for the dogs, as we haven't heard from our young friend since Tuesday,
she had to have surgery on her face and nose after a softball accident. [nose and face bones broken in -7- places].
So we will leave about 4:00 a.m on Friday,and then TxC' will undergo his painful EMG.Will make for a long long day.
I am concerned for my youngest cousin,who took care of Aunt these last several years ,she is taking the death very hard.
Well I'll try to check back in, later.
Jus' the Silverwolfi
Posted by Silverwolf (Member # 9196) on :
See update on Our Critter Sitter on the Christian prayer line here on General Support.
She is finally feeling human again after an accident and surgery!
Jus' Silverwolfi
Posted by Silverwolf (Member # 9196) on :
Update:
Dad didn't mention really about the funeral,but they got thru it yesterday,and Dad, my brother and a niece went to explore in South Eastern Oregon.
They are letting the beauty of Gods creation soothe the sorrows and grief. It is sad,and yet,Aunt will never face pain and weariness again!!!
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