When I went to see her on monday she said the results were that my white blood cells were off the charts.(something like that)

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?......I have no idea, and she told me but my memory and my consentration is not well right now due to the treatment

My llmd's goal was to have me on 200mg of doxy twice a day for 3 months. Since I had upped the dose myself the weekend before I saw her,

I was a MESS when she saw me!!!! Not good at all. I slept the whole day today. I did manage to do my treatment this morning.

She said I was very sick and that I not only am fighting Lyme but mycoplasma too.( which I new that I just forgot )

Plus encepholopathy too...Can someone try to explain what the cell count means to me, and how should they be normally...

All that good stuff.... Thank you, Jamie

I'm just real confused right now and scared.

After reading my last response to you.. you may not want to hear what I have to say!

hehehe

Ok.. question...

Did she say "off the charts" in a HIGH tone of voice... like way high off the charts?

Or in a low tone of voice... like they were very low.

Let me know.

Also in the same sentence she said I was very, very sick. Exact words.... she said that she was very concerned about me!

Please..... what's happening to me? or am I just being a drama queen?

Over all the visit was not good. I guess I can't blame her!!!! She just said I have alot going on, with the Lyme and the mycoplasma and the encepholopathy.

She said that was probably real bad right now because of the slurring of my speach and all.

Hey, maybe I'll call you tom?/?? What do you think about that? Has your number changed?

Tincup I've called you before crying and in concern of what was happening to me, I'm in that same place again!!!

She did however up my dose of anti depressant. She said that would help me with my emotions and the pain. Never knew that could help with pain.

Anyway I trust her... I'm trusting her with my life ... right?

little"g"

What strain of myco do you have?

1. You might feel like it.. but you aren't going to die. Not this week anyhow.

Maybe in 80 years from now I will review my answer and change it.. but for now.. you will be ok.

I know this... so don't doubt it.

2. For years... I have heard folks here say...

"Is this a herx... or am I gonna die?"

I don't mean to laugh.. but it is EXACTLY what I feel and what I am thinking when this happens to me.

It sounds like you are herxing. I call it the "emotional herx". NOT FUN!!!

I know I am herxing because I get so whimpy whiny that I can't stand to be around my own self when I herx!

I get that "limp lettuce" kind of feeling... like it is an effort to even breathe.

I get scared that I am always going to feel this horrible and never pull out of it.

I think no one else has ever felt this bad and lived.

I think that life ain't worth it if I am going to feel THIS bad.

I cry just because I am alive... and for no good reason.

I hate myself and think everybody hates me.

And I basically worry myself to death.. with what little energy I have.

I also notice EVERY little speech blunder I make.. which upsets me for doing it.. and it makes me MORE nervous and stressed when I notice it.. and I get more worse.

Yes.. MORE worse. I think that is a word??

My thinking is your white count is high. I have had that happen.. as have others here. It ain't the best possible situation.... BUT..

It does mean you are fighting an infection... so that part is good.

Your white count can go up and down quickly. It may already be down by now. I have had mine be sky high.. and then by the next morning.. go back to near normal.

Sooooooo... do what she says.. and nothing more.

I want you to do two things...

1. Drink as much water as you possibly can. Keep drinking it. Tie a cup to your wrist to remind you if you have to... but don't stop drinking water.. or lemon aide.. or herb tea (green tea is good- decaf).. or something.

2. Sleep... or lay around on the sofa and let your body use the energy it has to heal.

3. OK.. I lied.. there were three things.

Take showers often. I know you stink.

Get cleaned up and pretty.. and keep getting that sweat off of you.

The speech slurring often comes when the bacteria are dying off.. and the toxins are high. I sound a bit like Elmer Fudd at times myself...

And you want to talk to me on the phone when you are like that? Ms. Marble Mouth?

I don't THINK so!

HA!

Actually I have 2 doctors appointments tomorrow (and I have to leave real early).. but when I get back.. if you email me your number.. I will call. OK?

Oh.. the encepholopathy (sp?) is not an additional disease. It is a symptom. Like sweating, fevers, chills, etc.

It means there is inflammation in the brain area.

NOT TO WORRY!!!!!

It has always been there since you've been sick! Nothing is different now.. it just has a "name"... and it sounds scary.

The meds will help with this.. but it will take some time.

And again.. she wanted you to act right.. and she was upset cause you did what you did... and she was in no mood to be anything but stern in pointing out what you MUST do.. and she wants you to LISTEN to her.

She was making a point. I would have wanted to scare the pants off you so you would listen from now on.. and perhaps she had that in her mind too?

I think you got the point!

Soooooo.. understand where SHE was coming from... and know that as long as you listen to her.. you should be getting better soon.

You may feel like pond scum.. but soon you will have a good day.

Hang in there.

We have been through MUCH worse than this.. and we made it.

You are going to be ok.

And I don't lie... I tell it like it is. You KNOW that.

Now...

DRINK, SHOWER, and SLEEP.

GO GO GO!!!

And know in your heart you are being thought of kindly. Sweet dreams.