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Sorry you're having a hard time. I'm feeling much the same lately. It's hard to stay hopeful, and it sucks to have no quality of life to speak of. I feel like a zombie most of the time. Barely alive. I'm tired of living my life this way.
No great advice for you, but I sure can relate. Hang in there and just keep trying your best, one day at a time is all we can do.
Hugs.
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surprise: thank you. Yes, it is absolutely one foot in front of the other. One second at a time because even one day at a time is too much at times.
didogs: thank you so much for the kind words.
skies: I was only looking for support, no advice needed. I do feel like a zombie most of the time. Something's gotta give.
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Very sorry to hear. I know how tough it can be! Keep the faith that one day you will be past all of this!
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{{{{lax mom}}}I am so sorry to read this. Hang in. You offer such great advice and encouragement to others I wish I could solve this for you. But all I can offer is hugs.
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I've been there soooo many times. Totally get it.
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-------------------- -Razzle Lyme IgM IGeneX Pos. 18+++, 23-25+, 30++, 31+, 34++, 39 IND, 83-93 IND; IgG IGeneX Neg. 30+, 39 IND; Mayo/CDC Pos. IgM 23+, 39+; IgG Mayo/CDC Neg. band 41+; Bart. (clinical dx; Fry Labs neg. for all coinfections), sx >30 yrs. Posts: 4166 | From WA | Registered: Feb 2011
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lax mom
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Thanks for the hugs Lymetoo, Kudzu and Razzle!
Boxermom: Thank for the flowers
OptiMisTick: I needed that poem! Thank you. I'm going to print it out and put it on my wall.
I was completely caught off guard with my son's relapse. For some stupid reason, I thought he was healed for good and would never have to deal with Lyme and co. again.
-------------------- The fibromyalgia I've had for 32 years was an undiagnosed Lyme symptom.
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i dont know where i found the strength to raise my kids
somehow a mom finds the strength
i'm sure i'm worse because of how hard the journey has been
but...i'm ok with how i am now. i feel bad about the "young" ppl dealing with this - but i was 33 when i got sick. 2 of my kids were sick with Lyme when very young.
some how we made it thru. things are changing...i dont know the new answers. i just know there is a way to find the strenght. and its worth it.
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It is a long hard road that we understand all too well.
Keeping you in our thoughts and prayers.
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Dekrator: thanks for that link. I listened to it then got lost in youtube.
Finally, I found a song by Kellie Pickler, "I Wonder" about how her mom left her when she was 3. It made me realize that just being here, giving hugs and loving my kids (even though I can't "do" much of anything) still means alot to them.
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So sorry to hear you're feeling this way. I think sometimes (always?) we moms use ourselves up caring for everyone else at our own expense. And before we know it, we're the ones down for the count.
But what else are we supposed to do? As mothers and wives, we never really put ourselves first, do we?
I don't have much advice, other than to let you know that it just means the world to our kids that they know we are there for them and love them more than anything.
We can't always "do" all we think we should be doing, but that's our issue, not theirs. When we can't "do" we have to just "be" and just do our best to show our families love in whatever ways we can.
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Hang in there. I've been having a rough time with my issues lately, too. We'll hang together. Posts: 181 | From Midwest girl gone home | Registered: Oct 2011
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You are so right lax mom.
Your loving and supportive presence is what is important to your kids.
That was sad to watch Kellie sing about how her Mom left her when she was 3.
Continuing to pray for you and your family.
-------------------- The fibromyalgia I've had for 32 years was an undiagnosed Lyme symptom.
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Hi Lax Mom,
I'm feeling that way too!
On good days, I have hope, but when I go back down, I think it will never go away, and I wonder if I have an infection besides lyme and co's that may never be discovered.
But, those are normal thoughts that we all have.
Lax Mom, you are anything but lax. You have given your all to help your husband and children and yourself. So don't be down on yourself.
For encouragement, I'll tell you this story.
I used to hang out on a CFS forum and the founder of that website was totally disabled for 18 years, then he got better and is back working full time.
I don't think he ever really knew why he was sick. He concentrated on boosting and balancing his immune system with herbs, transfer factors specially formulated for different ailments, increasing probiotics, taking pre-emptive rests and gradually increasing exercise - if only 1/2 block each day. (Now he walks two miles per day.) And he started juicing.
But he got well after 18 years.
I remind myself of him and of people here who have gotten well.
Hugs, Lax Mom. (You're a good mom.)
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Dekrator: thanks so much for the prayers!
And thanks for always posting about K-love. There have been many times I have felt down and read one of your posts to someone about K-love. Then listen to their songs and feel renewed hope.
Rivendell: It truly helps to know that I'm not alone. Thank you for your kind words of support on this forum and in PM's.
Wow! The CFS forum founder got well after 18 YEARS???? and he didn't truly know what the problem was? That is amazing!
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Try to hang in there lax mom. I can't even begin to imagine how difficult it must be to have not only yourself dealing with Lyme, but your children and husband as well. I give you so much credit. You will get through this, one day at a time. Posts: 1748 | From United States | Registered: Dec 2011
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So good to hear, lax mom!
Just keep pumping yourself full of inspirational music, books, prayer and anything else that lifts you up!
Your friends will always be here for you.
Big hugs!!!
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Lax Mom, keep on keeping on.
This is some journey.
Have you read "Cure Unknown" by Pamela Weintraub?
She is a science journalist and has written for and been editor of Psychology Today and Discover Magazine.
She and her entire family became sick with Lyme, and she tells her story in this book.
She is very thorough about her story and the research she has done on the trashing of the lyme diagnosis and the trashing of LLMDS.
She is supposed to come out with a revised version soon.
It is a good book to read for validation.
Glad you are feeling better in spirit.
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Ellen, Dekrator and Rivendell:
Rivendell: I read the book about a year ago. I'm one of the Lyme "mutts" like her.
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