I was feeling so much better for awhile. I returned to work and was starting to enjoy life again. Now every day I am feeling worse. Last night one of my husband's co-workers wife committed suicide. Do you know what my first thought was? I wish it was me. I feel like I am never going to get better and never enjoy life again. I have so much pain in both of my jaws. It causes me to have severe headaches. Please help me.
Posted by marblenose (Member # 6477) on :
IBelieve, I am so sorry for the loss of your friend. I am so sorry for the loss of our "old" life. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I have felt that way many times. Ther is no magic wand or "perfect' words I can write to comfort you. Just know you are not alone in this and people in the world care about you sight unseen! I send you light and the healing of your choice. Blessings, Marblenose
Posted by lymemomtooo (Member # 5396) on :
IB, to be honest, I have felt a little this way and I do not think I have lyme disease but do worry about some symptoms that are consistent with lyme disease.
I dispair over the disease because my daughter is so very ill and has tried this route so many times..I currently see little hope for her recovery and the pain and heartache is more than anyone can bear.Much of her hate and psychiatric problems are dumped on me in one way or other.
But then I wake out of it and realize how utterly stupid it would be to do something so assanine.(?sp). I will continue to put one foot in front of the other and try to muddle thru..Somehow we will win out over this Hell. And all will be stronger for it.An occasional success story or major improvement story helps to keep me going.
Hang in there and understand that many can share your pain and anguish but we will survive..lymemomtooo
Posted by treepatrol (Member # 4117) on :
HOLD ON HANG IN THERE Have faith I know its really hard. Dont think like that co'worker did it may be over here but its not over in the next place. Love Tree
Posted by Oz (Member # 2905) on :
When I was at my worst, I found myself wishing a Mack truck would veer into my lane. I don't think these are uncommon thoughts in the grip of pain and suffering. It took me about 2 years to have more good days than bad. I thought they would never come but they did. I'm glad that truck didn't didn't cross the line. If a wimp like me found the strength to deal with it am betting you will too!
Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
Been there. This is a terrible disease, but you CAN win! Make it your life's mission [literally] to get yourself well.
I'm very sorry your friend took her life. Don't be the next one, please! You CAN do this! We'll be here to support you!
HUGS FOR YOU!
------------------ oops! Lymetutu
Posted by IBelieve (Member # 6834) on :
Thank you so much for your replies. You don't know how much it helps, but then again, you probably do as most of you have been where I am now before. The pain is what makes it so discouraging. I can deal with a low energy level, but constant pain truly sucks the life out of you. Thanks Again
Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
quote:Originally posted by IBelieve: I can deal with a low energy level, but constant pain truly sucks the life out of you.
Absolutely!
Posted by JillF (Member # 5553) on :
Emergency numbers to remember:
When in sorrow, call John 14 When you have sinned, call Psalm 51 When God seems far away, call Psalm 139 When your faith needs stirring, call Hebrews 11 When you are lonely and fearful, call Psalm 23 When you grow bitter and critical, call 1 Cor. 13 For Paul's secret to happiness, call Col. 3:12-17 When you feel down and out, call Romans 8:31-39 When you want peace and rest, call Matt. 11:25-30 When the world seems bigger than God, call Psalm 90 When your prayers grow narrow or selfish, call Psalm 67 If you are depressed, call Psalm 27 If your loosing confidence in people, call 1 Cor. 13
Posted by robi (Member # 5547) on :
Yes, IB it is the pain that really made me think life was no longer worth living........
I have been in treatment 11 months now......the pain is considerably less. I found myself singing in the car the other day ( the windows were up and I was alone).....I am begining to have times of happiness. I thought allof this was gone forever.
It is not gone..........you have to hold on..........you will be happy again.
I was infected for only 5 months befor treatment and it has taken 11 months to see some relief...........if your infection ws stronger your ride may be longer.
I am not where I wanna be yet...but I will get there.
Hope this helps,
robi
Posted by achey (Member # 6284) on :
IB so sorry abt the pain and shock that comes from someone else's suicide. Glad it's not you!
I wish I had some wonderful words for you abt when your pain will subside... I don't.
I know pain can move and change and subside and return. And sometimes disappear completely.
I wish you surrounded with love and healing and peace. I pray your pain melts away and is substituted with joy!
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