Did you ever want to start your life over-with little or no memory of what was you before?
Steps to follow: Get a tick bite and not realize what it was Get lyme disease Have fevers and night sweats Become an insomniac Feel very sick and painful Have headaches Have pain in the joints Have electric shocks up and down the spine Go to doctor after doctor to find out what is wrong Have the doctors give you one pill after another Watch your money go down the drain on doctors and pills Have the doctors look at you like you are crazy Have them test and find nothing Get on the anti-depressant roller coaster Have pain everywhere-even in places you forgot existed Wonder why you can't walk without pain Can't function on all the pills, lyme fuzziness, inability to walk Wonder why you can't sleep Forgot that you wanted to sleep Take pills to sleep Lose your job Lost your health Lose your spouse Lose your house Lose your insurance Completely lose who you were Can't believe this has happened Forget you even thought you couldn't believe this has happened Then just sit and wonder what happened, because, You can't remember anything You can't sleep Staying up all night Start to throw away one pill at a time because you can't afford it, Realize that the pills had just been making everything worse Muddle through without pills Looking for other pills that might make it better Looking for spiritual cures Looking for natural cures Live with the pain Live with the emotions that all this has brought Give up Get up and forgot you had given up Go in circles trying to figure out what to do next Sit around and hurt and ponder what this all is about Forget what you were wondering about Take a natural pill that makes you nuts Have your family pity you or ignore you cause you act strange Sit and wonder why no one wants to be around you Sit and wonder again what happened Forget what you were wondering about Take a natural pill that makes you better Get up and start a new life Forget that you started a new life Can't pay for the natural pills that help Live moment by moment Trying to ignore the pain Sit and wonder what happened that made you this way Think you know that answers Forget you know the answers Talk to people on the net about their lyme disease Forget what you were talking about Think you are better Forget that you thought you were better Try to remember things All the past appears as a blur Start a new life....
[ 08-11-2009, 05:33 PM: Message edited by: bigstan ]
Posted by Tincup (Member # 5829) on :
You put so strongly into words what so many of us feel.
You seem to have a talent for it.
Are you a writer Big S..... or just feeling the topic deeply tonight?
Very touching post.
Thanks for sharing it.
And to answer your question... I've been there and many times felt I had no hope and wanted a better place to be, but I've always seen the light.
True, it takes time, but it will come.
Have you had good days intermixed with the bad?
I do hope so.
Posted by terri3boys (Member # 12993) on :
Wow..........beautifully written thoughts that you could have plucked straight from my brain.
Very powerful.
I love how you made sense of what DOESN'T make sense to most of us.
Thank you for posting it. You have a way with words.........keep writing..........it's very therapeutic.
Take care of yourself & remember that every day is a different day. Do the best you can with what you've got.
terri3boys
Posted by MariaA (Member # 9128) on :
i've been thinking about how there should be a site just dedicated to Lyme quotes- since so many of us lose the ability to be articulate and write well and others sometimes put into words the common experience of this hell.
this one is really good.
Posted by TO LIFE (Member # 12371) on :
Dear Stan,
You are very bright and articulate.
Thanks so much for sharing.
Posted by xoxoxox (Member # 18778) on :
Very poetic, bigstan!
Now instead of trying to explain this illness to people I can just hand them your checklist Posted by julielynne4 (Member # 20336) on :
Amazing...I think so many of us think all of these things but seeing it so well-articulated is just pretty intense.
Thanks for that, I sent it on to a few friends who I know will appreciate it. You should publish it. Awesome. Julie
Posted by buckfever (Member # 9876) on :
YES !
Posted by Pinelady (Member # 18524) on :
Good way to put it. Thanks.
Posted by DeafFromLyme (Member # 18795) on :
My thoughts exactly! Thanks Stan!
Posted by LisaS (Member # 10581) on :
Ditto what xoxoxo said!
Posted by dguy (Member # 8979) on :
I have always been here I have always looked out from behind these eyes It feels like more than a lifetime Feels like more than a lifetime Sometimes I get tired of the waiting Sometimes I get tired of being in here Is this the way it has always been? Could it ever have been different?
Do you ever get tired of the waiting? Do you ever get tired of being in there? Don't worry, nobody lives forever, Nobody lives forever
I will always be in here I will always look out from behind these eyes It's only a lifetime It's only a lifetime It's only a lifetime
(Pink Floyd - A New Machine)
Posted by bettyg (Member # 6147) on :
stan, beautiful job hugs/kisses
may i suggest adding to subject line .... my thoughts & feelings? thx for expressing yourself.
Posted by bettyg (Member # 6147) on :
stan, beautiful job hugs/kisses
may i suggest adding to subject line .... my thoughts & feelings? thx for expressing yourself.
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