I have been out of it for about nine days now. I am in pain and not doing too much. Yesterday, I needed a chance to regroup and think so I went for a drive, and then a walk in the woods.
I had a dear friend who I thought gave up on me, and I was saddened and depressed because I loved this person and thought they loved me also.
As I was walking I stopped at a favorite tree and there was a gift for me. This is a secret spot no one really knows about and to find this gift for me was amazing.
It was a beachy item wall hanging from a Carribean Island or Florida. This brought sunlight into my heart and made me feel warm all over.
My angel is still looking out for me and actually wanted to know where I was?
Anyway, going for a drive after an awful nine days turned out to be the best decision I've made in awhile.
I know who my angel is but I didn't think they cared anymore.....I have a renewed faith in myself and others.
I just thought I'd share this because it was a wonderful ocurrence for me after suffering a hard time.
May g-d bless everyone of you with magical moments of love. Posted by Andie333 (Member # 7370) on :
UR,
I have to tell you how much I loved hearing about your drive and your treasure. The truth is, it sounds like you actually found two treasures -- the physical gift, and the intangible renewal of your friendship.
Having Lyme, I've noticed, tends to bring out the best and the worst in me and in the other people in my life.
On the one hand, some of the people I thought I could count on have simply not been there at all. It was as if they took one look at the situation and walked the other way -- usually without explanation.
But others have stepped up -- sometimes in really dramatic ways and other times in ways that were much more subtle but no less powerful.
One morning, I awakened and found a teeny tiny milk glass vase filled with wildflowers at the back door. As with you, it happened on a day when I was feeling pretty bereft and abandoned.
And that one act of anonymous generosity changed my whole day.
Thank you again for sharing your day and for reminding me of similar things in my own Lyme life.
Andie
Posted by URsodeer2me (Member # 2258) on :
Andie you are welcome, and it was a treat sharing this with you all. You know how wonderful the feeling is by having shared your story.
I needed that yesterday.....I really did.
Posted by hopeful123 (Member # 3244) on :
wow, that's so moving andee and ur!!
last night after my llmd apt. i decided to force myself to go to my course in miracles mtg. i hardly ever make anymore because i am too tired.
course in miracles has been a life changing practice and the group is pretty indispensable to my spirituality and my life.
when i say force, i had to talk myself through every step of the way, not taking the easy way of turning back home and safe, boring tv and comfy bed.
the reward of traveling an hour each way on top of a two hour meeting was to see that everyone was as happy to sse me as i, them. the leader said, you have to come back next week, 'cause we need to hear your point of view.
wow. i even could take that in a bit.
of course today i am totally wiped out, got to work late w/ no make-up on, dirty hair - 'cause i didn't have time or energy to shower. not at all productive today, but content in my heart.
Posted by bettyg (Member # 6147) on :
UR and Andie, Both of your stories just made me shiver, and I felt everything you were saying in my heart. It was such a "feel good" reading.
Glad you got your upper when you needed it UR.
UR, my hubby really loved your signature line; sometimes you are the bug; other days you are the windshield! He couldn't stop laughing so YOU made his day.
My best to all of you for rediscovering these magical moments when you least expect it.
Yesterday, with 2 birthday cards I received a thank you from the family of 1 of the 99 yr. old ladies I see every Friday afternoon. I've been bringing my home-grown flowers for years and making her a vase full, etc.
Tuesday was her 99th birthday, so I took some of my carnation/mum BD bouquet I treated myself to earlier, and made up 3 bud vases of flowers for 3 ladies I see. The daughter wrote me a nice thank you for caring for her Mom with kindness.
She has macular degeneration and can barely see, but we play dominos every Friday....bless her heart. When my alzheimer's friend & I start arguing, she'l say to the 2 of us, "NOW CHILDREN"... what a sweetheart!
My other, dear 99-yr. old friend is now in her dying process. We had so much fun, and so "creative" with her domino playing.
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Posted by MizMo (Member # 8389) on :
It's marvelous to have that reaffirmation of friendship. The ones who stick with us are so few and far between!
~Miz Mo
Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
That's so cool!! What a nice thread! Posted by Aligondo Bruce (Member # 6219) on :
I often wish that I had a secret angel.
ideally, she'd be about 5'4", brown hair, blue eyes, smooth tan skin, pretty smile.
Posted by cbb (Member # 788) on :
Thanks for sharing your stories! They remind us that a kind deed, no matter how small, can have a tremendous effect on someone else.
Mother Teresa said: "We can do no great things: only small things with great love."
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