Please take the time to say a special prayer for my husband and me. I am having a very difficult time right now. I am experiencing severe depression, maybe from HERX, maybe ABX side effect. This has been ongoing for nearly 3 weeks. I have enen had suicidal thoughts. My husband is exhausted and so am I. I worry that our marriage may not survive this. Depression has always been a problem for me anyway, but much more intense now.
Surely if everyone here prays for me, God will help me.
I am going to bed now, as I am exhausted.
Thank you, Jen
Posted by Snailhead (Member # 18091) on :
Praying for you Sweetie, and your husband. Remember, God sees the end, you don't. Take His hand and hold tight. He will see you through. God bless you.
Posted by Snailhead (Member # 18091) on :
And also seek the medical/mental health care you need. Make sure your drs. know what is going on.
Posted by Dekrator48 (Member # 18239) on :
Jen,
I am also praying for you and your husband.
I agree, please make sure you are getting the psychological counseling/meds that you need to get through the depression.
God will see you through this very hard time.
Big hugs
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Posted by Liz D (Member # 16739) on :
praying for you and your hubby..... and sending hugs too
Posted by Tincup (Member # 5829) on :
Prayers are forth coming.
Talk to your doctor. Treatment shouldn't do this to you. They may be able to help.
Posted by bettyg (Member # 6147) on :
jennie
i'm so sorry you are going thru all of this, but that you are REACHING OUT also.
this is from the ABOVE post on suicide, please look thru there....
Get Help ! If you or someone you know needs emotional help, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline during a crisis.
You can reach the Lifeline by dialing 1-800-273-TALK (8255) .
they are trained professionals; we are not.
as advised above, please talk to your drs. about this.
hugs/kisses for better hours, days, weeks, months, and years ahead getting into remission. Posted by jennie46 (Member # 20953) on :
After help from the medical questions board, I am now positive I am going through my first HERX. I had no idea that could happen after taking only a couple doses of a new med. I thought it was a bad reaction to the med itself. I just don't understand why my LLMD didn't tell me that when I called instead of changing my med. It has now been about 12 days and the HERX symptoms are hanging on. Depression is only part of it. I also have the aching, flu-like feeling, which came a couple days after the depression. I am going to go back on the ABX that started this because I want a HERX (no matter how bad), right?
Thanks, Jen
Posted by madge (Member # 13704) on :
Jen, its been 3 yrs for my hubby...it is hard for for the loved one...but believe me...we care so much and want to do anything we can to help...but we can't..so we try and do what we think might make you comfortable...you will be in my prayers...hang in, its not easy...Madge
Posted by Snailhead (Member # 18091) on :
I'm a big believer in tryng half the prescribed dose. Maybe ask your dr.
Prayers up for you both today.
Posted by PB4 (Member # 20799) on :
I'll be praying for you. God is faithful and I have had many prayers answered since I have been on this journey. PB
Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
Do not overdo!!!! What good is it if you herx so hard you commit suicide?
Please take care of yourself and don't rush this business of getting well!!
I'll continue to pray for you. Yes, God answers prayers and loves you very much!
Posted by Ms Poo (Member # 22863) on :
My precious one Father you see the weariness,
my uneasiness proceeding from continual
waiting and disappointed expectation. It seems
that my patience is exhausted, and I am
discouraged. I am weary of asking and waiting
for healing from Lyme's disease and all that
is connected. My Soul is weary with sorrow;
strengthen me according to Your Word. Lord, I
come to you, and You give me rest. I take your
yoke upon me and learn of You, for You are
gentle and and humble of heart, and I will
find rest for my soul. Your yoke is easy and
your burden is light.
I look to you Lord, and Your strength; I seek
Your face always. Your are my Refuge and
Strength, an ever present help in trouble. You
my God are my Fortress, my loving God. Father
you give strength to the weary and increase the
power of the weak, and as I hope in you my Lord
you will renew my strength. I will soar on wings
like eagles; I will run and not grow weary.I
will walk and not be faint. Father your grace is
sufficient, and I will not grow weary in doing
good, for at the proper time I will reap a
harvest if I do not give up. I am strong in you
Lord, and in Your mighty power. In the name of
Jesus I pray amen.
Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
Great prayer, Ms Poo!
We're going to love having you around here!
Posted by sammy (Member # 13952) on :
Jen,
These are two of my most comforting verses.
"Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
"Do not be afraid, because I have saved you. I have called you by name and you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you. When you cross rivers, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned, nor will the flames hurt you. This is because I, the Lord, am your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior." Isaiah 43:1-3
I'm a very visual person so when I read these verses I can just picture God holding me in his huge hand and walking with me through all life's difficulties. It is very comforting.
Posted by Lymetoo (Member # 743) on :
"Be still and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10
Posted by kellyjk4 (Member # 19731) on :
Jen - please be careful.
Don't push yourself too hard.
Treating lyme dissease is not a sprint - it's a marathon, and you need to keep going and not burn out right at the beginning.
PM me if you ever need to talk. I started treatment in May, so I'm still pretty new to all of this myself.
Posted by txgirl09 (Member # 21612) on :
You are in my prayers as well. I know, it does get overwhelming and depressing. I'm also new, as I just started treatment in Aug, so feel free to pm me as well.
Take care of yourself!
Posted by jennie46 (Member # 20953) on :
Many thanks to all of you. Because of your prayers and kind words, I am feeling much better.
I felt horrible for about 3 weeks, but today has been a really good day.
My pastor is wonderful and asked the church to pray for me today. I know God will bring me out of this one day and hopefully I will be a better person because of it.
Each of you are in my prayers daily, Jen
Posted by bettyg (Member # 6147) on :
jen,
whoopie; finally a GOOD day; it's a start, and glas your minister asked congregation for prayers for you too. Posted by txgirl09 (Member # 21612) on :
Jennie,
That's great! Good for you. Its so nice when you finally have a good day!
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