Between my son and I, I know exactly what you are talking about.

I can't believe how much this infection gets in there and messes with our heads.

Doctor Jones told me about a boy who raged in his office, throwing things and tearing pictures off the wall, ect, ect..

And without having been told anything about Lyme yet..he said "Mommy, I can't help it, I've got buggs in my brain"!!

So he could sense it.

How long do you have to be off meds? Is there something here on helping the IBS along?

Can you use something herbal or RX to calm you to get you through till you can resume treatment?

Hang in there, Maddogie..at least you were true to your name tonight..GRRRRRRR!!

But my LLD doctor looked at me on Friday and said,
"so how is the emotion" That was the first time he ever mentioned it, and I though surely he must have had hidden cameras in my home last week. I managed a smirk and said, "well okay , except for those sudden outburst of crying jags. They only last maybe fifteen minutes and then quickly disapate, but they take me by surprise.
He thinks it is because this sleep apneas won't let me get to stage four sleep to replenish my serotonin. I agree,and understanding helps a little.

I know this sounds strange, but lately I've had this feeling that the doctors feel if they can shame us into hiding then their problem will be solved. After all, they don't believe in a valid illness, so what is the harm they think? Do they view it as a little "tough love" maybe, that shame, shame on you for needlessly taking up a doctor's valuable time?"
I don't know, maybe it is just me, but it seems my word for the day lately has been shame and I don't know why.

well, maybe I do.......
After my doc appt. in houston, we went to my son and daughter in laws home to rest before traveling back home. I crashed on their sofa and instantly was alseep and yet I could feel three pairs of eyes wathcing me for hours on end, they sitting in their recliners with eyes trained on the sofa where I lay. Finally I just couldn't stand it anymore....I politely said I felt so much better and was ready to head home.
It was just unbearable.
I cannot stand to think that the one people who should be my staunchest supporters are in reality the biggest doubters.
They are lovely, wonderful children. They just don't understand.
And yet, as advocates go, family members would be the biggest asset a lymie would have, because it is "wellness" speaking on behalf of what they do not know, and yet they "know it to be true" by faith.

It just reminds me of the lost understanding, the bridge that remains ajar.
Hope clinging by a thread.

I never never never do this, or anything close to it. It's very upsetting. I'm used to the emotional crying crap, heaven knows, after all these years, but this mepron/zith/bicillin stuff is something totally new. The rage comes out of nowhere and is extreme. How do you apologize for that? "Sorry dear, the lettuce was limp anyway"?

Plus I just don't have the physical markers I used to have. Physically I feel pretty good this week, I'm not aching much, headache is minimal. I thought I was doing OK. Then wham, vegetables flying and me shrieking.

Maddog, I'm so sorry about the job. It's a terrible shock to not be able to work, even when you see it coming. And especially after you've worked through so much already. The barking dogs would have had me out with a howitzer, so don't feel bad.

Larry, about your son and daughter--it's very difficult to let yourself realize that someone you love and who has always been strong is seriously ill. Especially when it doesn't seem like you can do much to help. I'm sure your kids believe in you, but are in resolute denial about how sick you are.

I've done it myself with my folks; they've both aged very suddenly and significantly these past 2 years and I can hardly bear it. This illness does make us feel dreadfully insecure; I think the extra helping of shame comes partly from that.

And hey Mo. Read your babesia post the other day about being pissed pissed pissed. C'est moi!

We should form a band. The Hangdog Mightily Enraged Blues Singers. Dibs on the singing saw....

In one town I lived in, you could report the barking dog and they would fine the person if it continued.

just wondering aloud if any of you have been treated for bartonella.? Once we were for about 4 monthss I noticed a big change in our rage, anger adn emotional upheavals...

just a personal note...

i hope things get better soon...

Man I am sorry too hear about this. Keep in mind it is the lyme and not you. Last thursday I did almost the samething to Nan. We (I) was freakin over 3 dollars and I lost it. I left her at church to find her own way home,(what a jerk)

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Originally posted by MADDOG:
Hi Gang,I just went stark raving crazy.Yelling at the neighbors dog for barking .The dogs keep me up all night at various hours. MADDOG

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I think its your freakin neighbor who's dog is barking is the problem as far as Iam concerned the neighbor should control there animals they are responsible not the dogs.
People need to more considerate and not so self indulgent that they leave there animals run rampant on there neighbors. PS Iam going through the same thing its down right ignorant on there part. Alot of people sorry to say are sadistic sob's.

Taking joy out of other peoples suffering and anybody reading this that dosen't believe it wait and see.

There are alot of good people in the world but I would bet today that the good bad levels are becoming a lot closer together I would say. Its a real shame because God loves us all and dosen't want it that way but free will is free will.

Iam so sorry for your suffering I hope that you can get it worked out try talking to them if that dosent work try the Dog Law Enforcement officer. Sometimes there is also ordinances in boroughs,twps, etc. Good Luck

ps I do love dogs and even cats hahaha

When I was little out neighbor's dog kept barking all night and despite our requests, they didn't do anything. I thought it was totally normal that my Dad stuck a BB gun out the 2nd story window and popped it one. There was one yelp and no more barking. What's interesting is how bad it bothered my Dad and none of the rest of us, hmmmmm . . .

A client of mine had the same ongoing issue with a neighbor who "raged" at her dogs, called animal control and did wild things like accuse the kids/dogs of being in her yard. I told my client that there is no way this woman enjoys being this way about your dogs. I said I suspect she has health problems and the slightest things are very upsetting to her. My client thought about it and said she thought I was right. I KNEW the lady had lyme rage.

It all worked out when the lady was feeling better; she apologized and said she didn't want to loose the friendship.

If a neighbour's dog wakes me up several times a night, I will go and scream at the neighbours and I will not feel that there is anything wrong with ME!

Plenty wrong with letting dogs bark all night, not with your reaction. Please don't blame yourself, maybe try and speak to your neighbours during the day when you're not so angry. Afterall you have an absolute right to sleep at night and if they have dogs it's their responsibility to keep them barking all night long!

Wow, there is so much going on with you...no wonder you are feeling like biting back!!!

The suggestion of calling animal control is certainly a sound one...(ha...that was funny, get it?) I also have had to resort to earplugs when my roosters would crow at 2:30 am each morning! They didn't seem to bother anyone else...just me!

About the IBS...I had a huge issue with the big 'D' for a full year...then tried a stint with Questran, and that worked like a charm.

The working issue is a really hard one. I am so sorry to hear that. Looks as if you need to take a break anyway and re-focus on your health...perhaps this will give you the opportunity to do just that?

If nothing else...I'm glad that you will be on the Lyme Float to protect us all when a rage is needed !!!

My best,
Melanie

You know what, i dont blame you at all!
Barking dogs are really annoying when you are sick, even when you are not sick.
Good for you!
Dont beat yourself up over this, most of us here would have done the same thing!

Hang in there --last nihgt I about threw a fit because the laundry was drying and I could hear a coin inside the dryer, but everytime I went to get it out I could not find it--I finally RIPPED the clothes out of there yelling at the clothes how they were coming out now whether they were dry or not!!! My family thoiught I had lost it and you know what at times I do. Some nioses will make me batty!!

I believe we have all done it once or twice try not to feel so ashamed.

Dog catcher hated dog, too...could NEVER get it when it was out....

So, I told my neighbor...that I was and would they watch the dog's barking?

They didn't...so, every nite the dog barked ...I gave it 15 minutes....and then went over and rang the door bell until it dropped off the charts...they were usually pissed about that...that's when I told them...to see it my way or this would happen every time.

Once...when my neighbore were in their back yard...I sat there and barked...REALLY loud....for a long time...until they were nnoyed...you can also buy tapes that have dogs that bark, too.

But....I always did it with a sense of humor,

and they knew that.

Don't burn bridges.

BUT......you have EVERY right to be mad at them.

Kent