You're not alone there. I am having a terribly depressing weekend. We had our holiday last weekend, which only included my husband being home for a change. I spend most of my time, just my son and me, and rarely get visitors etc.

Honestly, not often in the mood for visitors cause of how i feel and the questions from others. My friend came over yesterday, and told me I looked like Ihad a pint of blood taken out of me. I was already upset about looking so sick lately and getting no help and that was it, I cried the rest of the night away.

So who would want to come over right?
I hear you. I was in the mall the other day, thinking about how simple life used to be. How we take so much for granted and so many complain when they have good jobs and their health.

Try and cheer up and I will to. At least we are not out camping getting bitten by tics and misqitoes.

I didn't even scream....and my kind, understanding friend just reached over and took the rather large tick off my shin!

Believe it or not, I had even sprayed Off! on my ankles, anticipating the possibility of mosquito bites!

I guess I'm just a tick magnet!
The owner of the house said he hadn't seen any ticks around there in about a year.

Karrie........hope you have a good doc!

I am so sorry for your sadness, i had an emotional crash on thurs. and frid. forced myself to go to church last night i am glad i did i literally cried my heart out to god at the alter and such a peace came over me he is the only one that keeps me going, there is hope a year ago icouldn't speak or walk had alot of cns invovement. much better now however some days i am just tired of everything my husband and son are going to try doing something today, i don't drive cause of the lyme so i really feel trapped at times. my prayers are with you, you can email me if you want to

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I've thought about it a lot since I've been sick. I think people have huge expectations for holidays - lots of activity, family peace, perfection where ever it can be achieved. And when we fall short of those expectations, sadness hits.

Now I love Christmas. It's my only 'official' decorating holiday - you know the whole thing from Thanksgiving to Christmas Eve, trouncing thru the woods to cut the fresh tree...well since I've been sick, I scaled back tremendously. I might only bake one kind of cookie, and if I don't, no biggy. That's why God created bakeries! I keep preparations very simple and in tune with what I feel I can do. When I was feeling particularly poorly, I still went for the Christmas tree, but I waited in the car while my husband and kids wandered the woods, and 'picked' the tree via walkie talkie! That was one of our funniest memories to date!!!!

I'm not a real party animal by nature anyway and am just as content to have my husband and children around and nothing else. If I don't feel like socializing I beg off. If I do, then I keep it simple....

This is what I do, and I'm not saying that it will work for you.....I don't look at holidays as anything special. If I get together with people, fine, if not, it's a bonus day to kick back. There are many other days throughout the year where I feel up to spending time with loved ones. I don't visualize 'perfection'- actually the less perfect, the more I like it (I'm a weird individual). I do what I am physically capable of doing, and that is 'perfection' - heck waking up that day is 'perfection'!

I remember watching this episode of Oprah, where Martha Stewart was on. There were several women in the audience that were going thru really rough times and saw themselves as total failures because they felt they could not live up to all the things Martha could do!!!! I thought, 'wow, what a sad bunch of people.'. But again, it's all about expectations. The woman has a staff of thousands in the background making her cakes, arranging her flowers and sharpening her tools LOL! I've glanced at her magazine and just laughed - it's unrealistic to spend your days making curtains out of dishclothes. Her way of doing things should be a guide, not the gospel....

Just wanted to share that im bumming too.

I was in NY and didnt even have a pretzel or a slice of pizza. I did have one glass of wine but that only started a current yeast problem.

I cried everyday because i was feeling sorry for myself. Im so tired of being sick.

Just want you to know that you are not alone.

Jordan

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Originally posted by jbgoth:
Karrie,

Just wanted to share that im bumming too.

I was in NY and didnt even have a pretzel or a slice of pizza. I did have one glass of wine but that only started a current yeast problem.

I cried everyday because i was feeling sorry for myself. Im so tired of being sick.

Just want you to know that you are not alone.

Jordan

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It seems there is a large handfull of us here
on this day.
Vic has been sleeping for the last 10 hr. good for her she needs it.

So Im here with you guys reading your posts
hoping to find something that make my wife
well again.

We know how you feel we used to do so much
fishing, hiking,riding bikes ect, ect.

Havent even put our boat in the water in two
yrs. Vic cant take the ride if the water gets rough out on the big lake ( huron ) and
its to big for the small lakes. Keep saying we are going to sell it but dont have the heart, to many good times for Vic and I on that boat.

Well anyway you all have the best day you can.

Goodby
Steve

I just wanted to tell you that you can write me ANYTIME you want. I hope your feeling a little better. Sometimes its so hard.

Lymelighter:

The hot dog was not a problem since im a vegetarian. But the PIZZA. Now that was a problem. Gotta love lyme!!!!!

She died by the time she was my age of a long struggle with cancer so I'm not complaining too much. HA!

It looks like it is time for a virtual Memorial Day Weekend.