It is completely out of my control.I handle the problems and feel like I cope with things really well.I don't get stressed out about things as much as I used to.I just handle it but the next day my body just shuts down.
It is so weird when you are so out of control.

It is really like a full shock reaction and there is nothing I can do about it.

I am so cranky today as well.I have smacked 2 out of 3 of the kids as I just haven't got the patience when I am like this.

I am trying to do homework with them and they are not paying attention and giggling and looking elsewhere and I just lost it.They don't know what an effort it is for me to do all this extra stuff with them and that makes me angrier.It is so hard for me and they don't give a shi---!

I am going to have a rest now and hopefully shall be better tomorrow.

Call a friend or grandma to come sit with the kids today and you take a day off. I know that when my nieces and nephews are with me for the weekend (I have 12 of he little critters) I am ready for a padded room and a valium drip. I love them to death but definitely need a break sometimes. Getting ice cream with them is sheer torture when I am stressed and they can't decide on a flavor.

So, short of child abuse, I think giving the kiddies to a helpful pal for a day is a good idea. You will rest, miss them and be a much happier person when thay are back in your arms.

Just a suggestion.

Thankfully I now work with wonderful people in a job I love. They could not be more supportive.

Due to Lyme, I have a trigger-happy autonomic nervous system. The autonomic nervous system operates the "fight or flight" mechanisms in the body, so when you are hit with stress, a chain of events inside your body will occur. Increased heart rate, anxiety, high BP, sweating, cold hands, difficulty thinking (thereby "reacting" to things inappropriately), etc.

I had stress reactions like that which wore me out. Until the doc put me on a beta-blocker. A beta-blocker actually blocks these stress impulses from getting so out-of-control. The medication I am taking is called Inderal, a very old, safe, cheap drug.

Consider asking the doc about this.

IMO, Lyme does damage such as this to the autonomic nervous system, causing stress reactions which are abnormal. My cardiologist agrees.

For years I was on high blood pressure meds because every time I walked into a doctor's office I would show high BP readings. I always called it "white coat anxiety".

But I recently went to a Lyme-literate cardiologist, and he thoroughly tested me, and said I do not have true "hypertension", but just a hypersensitive nervous system. My heart looks great, and I have been treated all these years unnecessarily.

Live and learn. Sometimes it is the simple solutions which can make all the difference. Just another way I can "live" with Lyme. My body will stay well if I can keep the stress reactions to a minimum. Stress kills, and can be horrible for this disease.

My muscle testing doctor refers to them as physical, emotional/mental, or spiritual traumas.

Last month on my birthday I had the most wonderful healthy day. It was such a blessful day. I was on top of the world. Several days later, I'm calling my muscle testing doctor crying for help.

He muscle tested me and told me something happened 7 days ago. I told him it was my b-day and what a wonderful day it was. That was what started my decline.

The emotional/mental events of that day effected me. My daughter even commented to me that it had been a long long time since she seen my look and act like my old self.
I was glowing.

Many things trigger us good or bad.

Pam