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It's day 2 of levaquin and started 3 gm rocephin yesterday. I've been scared before for feeling like I have no emotion, but now I don't feel like anything. like I have no emotion and not even scared. feel robotical - kept outward personality, but am walking dead. No happy, no sad, no scared, no fear...My doc says she hopes this dose of what she gave me would get me out of this. Like all of you, I had a life - now for me it's the shell of a person that used to be. There was 42 years of a person somewhere before. Intellectually does, follows schedule, offers ideas, does wash, cooks, makes phone calls, tries to help in sons school follow routine ,but no one home attached to it. Shooting pains in hip since levaquin, hand tremor...things I can live with.I'm so the opposite from what I've been and loved for so many years. God, I know you're there...I thought maybe this would have happened to me when my mom who was my best friend passed away 7 years ago, and I thought I'd crack. I thought if I got through that, that was my test. I never imagined your heart and soul being erased could happen. Guess I was wrong.
Cigi
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sounds like you need a dose of antidepressants, ie paxil, zoloft, once the brain chemistry changes nothing will get you back to normal except an antidepressant, sometimes you only need it for a couple of months but they take 2-3 weeks to take effect. very commem symptoms of lyme depression
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lexapro is well known for the side effect of stimulation, so watch how you respond to it and see if it changes sleep patterns
new medications will often make you herx in strange ways , including emotional symptoms
get as much rest as possible dont over do cigi , do you have a creative outlet ,
using our creative mind often helps get us through rough periods perhaps some kind of artistic endeavor would help
this illness has not taken away the person you are. it is a frustrating illness and sometimes we put the person that we are on the back burner because we are so focused on everything that is wrong with us , rather than finding ways that we can soar our self within our physical limitations
3greatkids
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Levaquin is a big time player.
I was on it IV for about a month/and had great results!!!
However,the very first dose did send me into a zombie state.I really could not speak,could not remember names.I was a walking ZOMBIE!!!
One mother,a friend of my sons,called right after I had returned home after having this Levaquin.I was absolutely incoherent.She,knowing I have Lyme was not quite sure about my parental skills and has since departed.Wow,who needs friends like that anyway and to think she lives in tickville.
Anyway,this stuff is a HEAVY hitter,hang on,know you will come out of it.It did clear alot of the FOG for me,it was just very tough getting thru it,but most of this treatment is no joy ride.
Go easy too,move slowly and with sure steps,do not push tendons and joints while on this.
Good luck,it is tough,but I think I really did improve tremendously with the Levaquin.
Hey,your heart and soul has not been erased.I know how you feel and believe me,I had lost all hope when I started this stuff.Your heart and soul will come alive!!!I know it will.
Kick back,be good to yourself,let the med do its thing and you will be shining very soon!!!!In the mean time,rest ,rest ,rest and indulge in simple pleasures,sometimes I think our minds and bodies just need that to heal and to get us thru this LYME.
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Michelle M
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Cigi, some of these meds literally suck the serotonin out of your brain, kind of like zapping all of the joy right out of you, so it's no wonder you feel that way. Just realize that IT'S THE MEDS, it's NOT YOU. The real YOU is still in there and WILL come back! I'm thinking of you and sending good thoughts.
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Thanks for encouragement. At least it's 3:30, the bulk of the day over. Did my 3 gm.rocephin and my oral levaquin. If I can be of any consolation during these times with you, please e-mail me and let me know. I can't offer much in this state,but can try. It's hard to explain mental - everyone of us is in pain in one way. I saw "color" for a few seconds this morning. I used to get excited. Now I'm just accepting everything and that scares me.
God bless and thanks again, Cigi
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Levaquin made me extremely manic, I was bouncing off the walls. I couldn't sleep, I was talking so fast I was stumbling on my words. It was awful. I got off it.
On Bicillin LA I'm alternating between depression, anxiety and rage.
I started 100mg 5htp 3 times a day to increase serotonin. It has really helped.
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Tincup
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cigi..
Your heart and soul are not gone. I have them here with me, for safe keeping.
Your mom and mine are watching them too... so please don't worry.
As soon as you are ready.. they will be returned and you will come back to us.
Take comfort in that please... and know we all love you.. even when your heart and soul are resting.
trueblue
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cigi - how are things? I came over to give you this - ((((HUGS))))cigi
I've been thinking about not feeling anything (a dangerous thing, my thinking at this point, so I'd take this with a grain of salt).
It sounds like shutting down emotionally is a protection so you can get through what you have to right now.
I may be stating the obvious (I'm not the brightest bulb on the whatever the brightest bulb would be on right now) but you're in there and will be out to play and appreciate everything all the more when you're ready.
All the beautiful things will be waiting.
(((more hugs)))
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