Is this normal when you get off the meds?

Has all the work that was done by the previous meds i was taking, all for naught?

I am back into feeling bad on all accounts of this disease, the spiritual, emotional, and physical aspects.

I raged a couple of days ago with my husband, and almost again this morning but called my friend, who is a minister, and went to see him. I am a little better, but need a bit more TLC, so am going for a stress therapy massage, in an hour.

I am sure that if i hadnt gone to the minister, i would probably be in my vehicle, going no place except north, and where 4 tanks of gas would get me.

I just as soon be a hermit, and not deal with anyone right now, except for the massage therapist.

The electrical shock waves i get in my head are getting more intense, and i am now starting to hear the electrical shock waves.

I am hurting more now than i think when i first began taking abx.

And i tell you, my emotional health is bad and off the charts. The spiritual is not kicking in either.

my husband is away with work, and i dont have anywhere else to turn to, as my family does not think this disease should affect my psychiatric health and they just wave it away, Out of site, out of mine. So of course i cannot call them, and i also would blow up on them.

So, what do you think. is it because i am of the meds and stress is a bit problematic.
Please email if yo wish, i would love to hear from you. Or post on the forum.

I need to know that i am not just nuts, and its the bacteria that is doing it.

and i need some support.

thanks folks, lemonhead

When hubby gets home, please gather the strength to explain to him how you feel and that you need his support. I would also consider apologizing for whatever you raged at him about.

Hope the massage helps!!

When is your appointment with the LLMD?? Got a GP who might bail you out until then??

Come here as often as you need us....even if it's every hour! We care and we want to help you get through this nightmare.

Trout

Gotta Run

Have you had any cephalosporins in your abx treatments?? These should help...also I have used lexapro to aid in the PTSD manic/depression that comes along with this disease....lately I have come down from 30mgs to ten and I have been experiencing the electrical surges you are feeling so I may ramp up again to twenty....

It could also be that I have'nt been on a abx for three months or so....am waiting for this judgement after I ramp back up to twenty mgs lexapro...

It's really tough and you want to run away I know...but as Harry Chapin sang..."You can travel on ten thousand miles, and still stay where you are"......

Hang in there lady...get that llmd to get you something or hold out...maybe a therapist with a license can scribe you some kind of ssri...I know not everyone likes them here...and I had bad times with a few myself...but this one lexapro seems to agree with me and my symptoms...

email me anytime you feel bad....zman

drink lots of water with lemon to flush out the loose toxins...k

THIS TOO SHALL PASS. I have repeated those words to myself at least a million times. Then all of a sudden one day seems a little better, then another, and another.

Even tho I deal with this Lyme every day of my life and never know what effect it will be next, I remember those days that IT DID PASS and how much I enjoyed them.

This is like a cycle with me and probably everyone that has Lyme. It has no rhythm or rhyme and no pattern to fix it. It's a constant changing effect to our bodies and our minds.

I hope this will encourage you to keep going. I find the best thing to do sometimes is just what you did. VENT AND TELL PEOPLE HOW YOU ARE FEELING. For a long time I was embarrassed and wouldn't talk to my family or anybody about Lyme.

When I found this web site it was a life saver. Here you can find people that have actually been thru the dark hole and know what you are feeling. So please don't ever feel you are alone when you come here.

My thoughts and prayers are with you. Please never give up and never give in.

One thing that worked for me was the Bach flower essence Rescue Remedy. I always keep a bottle in my purse. Also works for any kind of trauma.

I also looked and there is an essence just for unexplained rage. I think it is called cherry plum, also by Bach.

not a good place and time to be alone. Glad you came here. This was my sanctuary and I expect that IF i do have chronic lyme it will remain that way.

My husband didn't understand anything about the disease, but I printed up documentation and prepared a letter insisting that my daughter be sprayed with deet to the school, Board of Ed, Board of H, and school nurses. He started to take an interest then.

He would look at me all the time last year and say "what are you thinking". I can't forget this. It felt like my brain did a 180-degree and the sick, in pain, frustrated person came out. I would literally feel the sensation behind my forehead!

You are not alone kid. I don't know about after abx treatment, but my friend gave me massage therapy ( i didn't know what was going on and was desperate to relieve the pain) prior to abx and WOW, there wasn't a place on me that didn't hurt. NOTHING.

Take it slow, rest in between.

You could be herxing and de-toxing from all of the abx polymers a.k.a. PLASTIC

Keep us updated.

Can you handle a nice, warm bath. I find that soothing somethimes.

Take really good care of yourself. Think of one little thing you can do to make yourself feel a little better. I just hung a picture I've been meaning to for two months. Helped a little.

I sure do thank you for all your warm posts on my topic.

Went to church today and prayed hard that i get back some type of self.

I actually handed my husband copies of the first few posts that you all had posted so he woudl understand why i did what i did.

Now, him coming home drunk didnt help a bit, but at least he knows why that person he has been living with for all these years went bonkers last week.

Thank you all, loretta

Maybe there are mental health professionals in your city that might have some experience in dealing with chronic illness cases.

I get pretty low too, but have not consulted any psychs or other therapists. Just cut off contact with friends, family because I am too despondent and it has gone on for way too long. Not seeing any light at the end of the tunnel. One of these days I have got to face up to not ever being well again. Treatment has made me walking wounded rather than disabled, but I was so hoping that perservance would get me to remission. Guess it is more like the situation a diabetic faces, control rather than cure. At least in my case. Not judging your situation or anyone elses.