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Rob..the answer is a good no on some and yes to the good answers on your questions.
While we all feel bad, taking the final end is not the answer. It will come soon enough naturally. Tomorrow could be better if we think outward, rather than inward.
Inward is a condition we all seem to fall into......we have to look outward, right?
I thought about all of this lyme stuff today, after I saw that I might have been bitten again.
Ok, so what do I do? Panic, cry, scream?
I actually decided that this week, I will attempt to do one thing I used to do and do it again! Even just a walk, either in the sunshine or the rain.
We need to TRY to break out of this life that encapsulates us. We don't get points for giving in. We win by doing something* to show ourselves we are still "me".
I hope this helps. I actually just made plans with my husband to go to the local planetarium this week...I could hope I'm ok enough to do it but what is the alternative? Sit here and worry about my circumstance?
I say no.......I can sit in a theater in the dark and look at the stars and planets.
I'll likely sleep later the next day but I'm good with that. I would have slept late the next day anyway.
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BostonLyme- I loved your poem-thanks, very thought provoking. Interesting. As deep as lyme!
I could also identify with a lot of what you talked about Poorhouse ,too.
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Yes, I do think of suicide on on a daily basis, only reason I don't is bacause it would kill my mother. And a few other family members. And my 3 year old needs me.
If it were just for me, I'd do it, I don't want to be here just to hurt 24/7. I'm tired. I can't even clean up my house. My favorite passtime is quilting, which I have a hard time doing since my fingers are so swollen and hurt like they are on fire.
But I have bought some cheater quilt panels that I don't have to piece, I can just quilt them, so at least I get to play on my sewing machine some, haha!
Guess I'm just having depression promlems but they are here to stay, have been here for soo long. I am already on a ton of depression meds, don't need any more.
Only thing that will fix me is a cure, and I am working on that. Just got a precription for bicillion LA. I have taken my first shot. Wow it is a huge needle! Made my hip sore as heck. I had no trouble giving myself the shot.
I only wish I could find a cheaper source to buy the Bicillin LA. I cost $652.10 at CVS drugstore. My husband picked it up for me.
My husband seemed really mad about the cost of the bicillin. I have no insurance that will pay for it. That makes me feel really guilty about having to take the shots. Stress as always.
Does anyone know of an organization that helps people get medications like bicillin? I won't be able to stay on it but for a few months at this rate.
-------------------- "Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great." -Mark Twain
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