Topic: Having a break down freaking out what do I do
merrygirl
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HELP ME. I am hysterical I don't know what to do. My mental state is bad doc not here till tomorrow, contacted LLMD. I am freaking out. Please tell me what to do....I feel so sick and mental. I am not going to kill myself.......just freaking . Sorry I dont know what to do. I am alone with my baby who is asleep.
Melissa
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Hi, Melissa. Take a deep breath and try to relax. Turn on the TV and try to watching something pleasant---certainly not CNN or the news---just to get your mind occupied.
Call someone and talk on the phone if you can.
Or privately email me and tell me what's going on.
Carol
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Melissa, find someone to take baby and take a Xanax. Deep breath.
Luvmycat is right...call someone, email someone. You need to talk this out before you are anymore stressed.
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Melissa, Hi, just read your post. I am so sorry you are going through this right now. I believe we chatted the other night on the chat,I think you were the one who had fireworks going off the same time we did (i think), which was kinda of funny since we are in PA and you are in Mass-Maine?can't remember exactly. I just went through this with my son yesterday, Dustin, who is 11. My older son called me at work and I had to rush home, so I truly know what you are going through. Is there some place you can go visit, like a friends house, or take your baby to a park, just to get out. That is what I did with Dustin, I got him out of the house and tried to focus on something else, we actually went to the Turkey Hill for a slushee and just drove around. Please let un know how you are. If you want to email me directly please, please do so. [email protected] Robin
lymednva
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I would try calling the emergency mental health number on my health insurance card, if it were me. Do you have that type of number?
If you are in a HMO you may need to just call them, but I've done this and it was extremely helpful. I talked to someone who stayed on the line with me until we had a plan worked out. By then I had calmed down.
You may not want to mention Lyme if you make this type of call. No use in getting them confused and off track. You are dealing with real emotional problems right now and it sounds like you need help in getting them addressed.
Let us know what you do and how it turns out.
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Aniek
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If you need to talk to somebody, this is a national crisis hotline. For people who need to talk.
1-800-273-8255
I hope you are feeling better.
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bettyg
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melissa, i'm so sorry to be reading this. everything i was going to suggest, others beat me to it.
yes, you must TALK this out with someone; 2 phone nos. were given to you.
let us know how things go, and others offered their home emails; so you have many avenues available to help you THRU this.
WE ARE ABOUT YOU MELISSA; we're here 22/7...2 hrs. no one here most of time! so if you need to talk later ... come here ok!!
crisis line are PROFESSIONALLY trained folks to help folks deal vs. us; we are NOT trained.
better days will come, but NOT soon enough today for you.
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tdtid
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Melissa,
I too was another one in the chat with you Saturday night and ALSO had the fireworks going off at that time and had no clue why it was happening. Someone said a festival was somewhere, but I knew of none in the New Hampshire area.
In any case, it sounds to me like you are going through a huge anxiety attack. Some lyme and co-infection treatments seem to bring that out in us. I know everyone worries of suicide with this illness, but I know many times I've felt like I was going out of my mind but suicide was the last thing on my mind.
I was only wanting this horrid craziness and pain inside my body to stop. Feel free to drop me a line if you are up to it as well. I have found that the support of another that has felt this same insanity works wonders. Also, are you involved in a support group in your area? I have felt such a relief having people to talk to that REALLY can relate.
Please write here when you can since we all become family here and really worry.
Hugs, Cathy
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Vermont_Lymie
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Melissa, So sorry you are going through this hard time. I hope you got someone to talk to this afternoon, and please let us know how you are doing.
Having lyme is hard and treatment is hard. Your doctor especially has to watch out for combinations of medications since you are taking more than one, like almost all of us here. Perhaps they can make things easier and cut down on some dosages or switch to an easier combination.
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trueblue
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Merry, I just got on the computer now and was reading your other post and went searching for this one.
Please check in and let us know how you are, ok? Sorry, I didn't see it earlier. I hope the day got better. Hang in there kiddo.
Many hugs, trueblue
If you're around let me know and I'll meet you in the chatroom, k?
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bejoy
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Hang in there. You'll get through this!
I've been there too. You might be in a high cortisol state because your adrenals are getting so stressed out from fighting infection, and probably also from sleep deprivation since you have a baby.
When you feel a little better, you might want to look up info on adrenal fatigue. If it sounds like you, there is a list of nutritional supplements you can take to bring your cortisol level down, so you won't feel so freaked out.
"Do not go where the path may lead; go instead where there is no path and leave a trail." -Ralph Waldo Emerson Posts: 1918 | From Alive and Well! | Registered: Feb 2007
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trueblue
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Melissa, How are you? Drop in and let us know if you're alright, ok?
Concerned about you.
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Has anyone heard from Melissa? I have not been able to find her back here on any of the posts. Very worried about her. Sent her PM and havent heard from her.
trueblue
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Anyone hear anything from Merry?
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tdtid
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Melissa??????? Are you around? Please drop us a line!!!! We care!
Cathy
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merrygirl
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My dear friends.
I ended up getting worse and admitted to the hospital the same day a few hours later. I was literally just discharged an hour ago.
I am not up to typing all of the details just yet since there are so many. Hopefully I can come to chat sat night.
The jist is that I was admitted and put on fluids and Rocephin. I had a million tests and A lumbar puncture.
The doc thought maybe I had a reaction to Doxy and/ or had/ have neuro Lyme. A lot of tests are still pending but most are normal.
I was sent home with a PICC line and Rocephin for 21 days.
My ins will pay for 30 days IV ABX for 4 weeks for Lyme. I still feel bad but a bit better. I think I let my pain get out of control from not taking my pain meds around the clock too.
I am happy my ID doc/ he has benn pretty agressive and I am grateful. I love him. I do have an email into a llmd so we will see.
Thanks so much for your support. I would have not been as knowledgeable and supported and "ready" for this tx without you all and this site. I am sure to have more Q's and crisis. Thank you and godbless. I do not feel too great so I am going to rest, but wanted to drop in and say thanks and give an update.
Any input about the IzV tx appreciated. Hope to be around for sat chat! Your friend, Melissa
trueblue
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Thanks for posting Merry, although, I know you're feeling less merry than you could right now.
It sounds like things were taken seriously and you got the necessary treatment. Phew! I'm sorry this is and has been such a nightmare.
I hope the Rocephin works well for you. I have found it to clear out the brain stuff really well for me and it's a leg up in treatment to my mind.
ok, obviously not a medical anything here...
Rest up and hope to see you tomorrow. Hang in there and thank you for letting us know.
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bettyg
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melissa, welcome back, glad you went to hospital and were admitted needing help.
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Vermont_Lymie
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Hi Melissa,
Good to hear from you, and I am glad to hear that you are on IV Rocephin. That has helped many people, and it is great that you are on it for at least 3 weeks.
Rest for now and take care, perhaps your doctor will extend the 3 weeks too. Many folks have been helped by more than 3 weeks rocephin.
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merrygirl
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Thanks for your kind words every one.
Do you think My doc could get my ins to cover the additional IV treatment if needed? How can he do that? they will pay for 4 weeks at home. I have about 17 doses scheduled at home since I started in the hospital.
I really want to take advantage of this PICC line. Even when treatment is done I am not pulling the line right away just in case..
Do you think I should be on oral abx after the IV treatment?
I do not feel too much better yet. My vision is better and the crazy panic is better. All else is the same. I have a constant bad migraine.
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Aniek
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Merrygirl,
Your doctor should definitely call the insurance company to see what they will pay for.
It's possible they will pay for it if you go into a doctor's office rather than having it at home. Many insurance plans limit home care more than they limit office visits.
You can also call the insurance company to try to find out whether it is a limit on IV abx or a limit on home treatment. If it's a home care limit, there may be a hospital or doctor's office near you that can provide the IV.
If it's not a limit on days of home care, but it is a limit specific to Lyme, then there are usually exceptions for medically necessary treatment. You can talk to your insurance company about the process of how to get extended IV approved.
But you should do it ASAP. If the insurance is through an employer, there is sometimes somebody in human resources who can help with the process.
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lyme in Putnam
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I hate to say I've been where you are now, but all of us on this board at some time or another have felt like that. I remember clearly writing this about 2 years ago on this board. What got me through was people writing their experiences here and God. Family and friends can't understand how you feel and it's the most lonely experiences you can have. With the grace of God, I found a doc who understood and a great psych that with her persistence, made the difference. When you're in a better place mentally, you'll see things in a different way. Do what you have to do now to get yourself through. If you want to pm me, please do. Things seem now at their worst, but after looking back, I didn't think there was another way. You'll be ok, i know you don't feel it now, but this will be a memory (one that you could live without).
Be well and have strength. LIP
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