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When you consider what I used to consider a really great day was when no one called me on the phone, husband was out of town, didn't have to be anywhere, and nobody wanted anything from me. That was bliss!
Now I feel that my life is soooo boring and unproductive, I'm critizing myself for letting it be this way, but I am just too tired to try to make it better. I simply must find a way to get some energy, cause my life just ain't makin' it.
My Mother has Alzheimer's and said all I do is get up and move to the chair. HORRORS, somedays that's all I do.
Think it means I am getting better that I'm no longer happy with being a zombie or am I heading for depression again?
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Keebler
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In my view, depression is the result of systems systems. Please guard your self talk and try to filter out criticism from others that is not based on reality.
Lyme/TBD can be very serious infections and clearly create a situation as you describe, even during treatment. It's just part of the deal.
As you seem to be taking only 2 abx, I'm wondering about your support measures.
Fried adrenals can create depression. I didn't notice any endocrine support in your protocol notes.
Bottom line, yes, sadness, disgust, depression from being a near prisoner but unable to partake is life will bring you down. It would be odd if it did not have that affect.
I suggest talking with your doctor. Is the protocol well-rounded and strong enough?
Have other chronic stealth infections been considered, too?
Ask, considering your case and the treatment, what might be a way to gently increase your endurance.
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Well now that you asked about, I was in a depression treatment study that seemed to help a lot,
but on first visit with LLMD he suggested I go back to 20 mg Lexapro, saying maybe I didn't need to be in a study right now.
This is the often spoke of wonderful Dr in North Texas. Naturally he trumps all others.
It's probably the swith over that is contributing to negative thoughts.
Hope it passes soon!
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bettyg
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janis, sorry to read this, but GLAD to read of your good day with no one wanting anything; no phone calls ... PARADISE!!
it's extremely difficult with a loved one with alzheimer's and going thru all this lyme crap.
my sis-in-law died in 93 at age 40 of early-onset alzheimer's; so i know how bad i was then but didn't know i'd been suffering 23 yrs. with misdiagnosed lyme.
some former secretary friends of mine had a blow up man, and when they were having bad days, stress unbearable, they'd punch this thing around to work off the stress; worked great! just an idea.
sutherngrl
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I think this is a common feeling with us Lymies. I have times when I feel so useless. It feels like I will never feel productive again.
I usually feel this way for a few days, then I just pick myself up and face reality and just "accept" where I am right now in my life. I know this will pass eventually and that helps me to feel better.
Just remember that you will get better and your life will return to you ever so gradually. Don't expect anything to happen over night. That has been my mistake in the past.
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I know I need to try harder to get all the supplements down even when I want to puke.
I know I need to get out of the house. I feel like a shut-in cause I'm stiff and don't want to move, but that is my choice also.
Today I am making chili and taking it to my Mom and Dad.
That is a productive undertaking I can handle.
She has forgotten being married to my Dad for 44 years! At least she still remembers me and my brother and sisters.
Thanks for letting me vent.
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