We WILL be able to find an LLMD that you can get to -- I'm already formulating some backup plans -- so don't despair.

The dreadful depression and fear you describe is part of the disease -- as well as a perfectly natural reaction to a very difficult situation. It will go away with treatment, and you will get treatment.

I have been fighting this disease for quite some time and it does get so discouraging.

Yesterday was my first day of total disability. My living and medical expenses far exceed my income. I came to the realization that I must trust God to take me through this valley. I have fought hard and I can not do it alone.

I encourage you to seek comfort from God. He has promised to never leave us or forsake us. I will pray that He will touch you in a special way and meet all your needs; mental, physical, and financial. I pray for a LLMD near you that can walk with you down the road to recovery. I pray that someone will help you with your children.

I pray the prayer of Jabez on a daily basis: OH THAT THOU WOULDEST BLESS ME INDEED, AND ENLARGE MY COAST, AND THAT THINE HAND MIGHT BE WITH ME, AND THAT THOU WOULDEST KEEP FROM EVIL, THAT IT MAY NOT GREIVE ME!
I Chronicles 4:10

Here's why.

I live in Washington too. I went through
the Ducks one by one so I would have a doctor close by to do the tests and prescribe what I needed so it was covered by what my out of state LLMD needed to have me do. My LLMD is in NY and saved me by knowing what to do and the Washington doctors were horrible, it was like they didn't care. and I gave them the best education I could. They just are deceived. It is a political problem.....BUT
There are answers and you will find one.
JUST BE PERSISTENT and go where there is the most hope.

I think the Doctor that MINOUCAT has come across may be very helpful for you. A few years ago, there were NO Lyme doctors here.
I knew more than them about the subject, some of them really were sincere and wanted me to tell them how I was getting better. It was enlightening And it was frustrating.

We are all fortunate in some ways though. My LLMD is in New York and he has helped me from there. He saved my life. And still is working with me.
Believe me you just need the right one. It's like the adage "when the right one comes along, you will know it."

I am better, but I did some radical things too like testing for all the layers of the diseases (Babesiosis, Bartonella etc) from a reputable lab...getting treated for them ...getting the proper amount of sleep...getting on the proper amount and type of antibiotics, getting the mercury out and taking products to bring the levels way down.
It is a process and DON'T EVER GIVE UP FIVE MINUTES BEFORE THE MIRACLE.
Alot of us didn't get antibiotics before the 4 weeks. What these doctors are really saying is that they don't have the guts to help you because God forbid they may have to prescribe more than the Board of Medicine may want them to. (It is for this reason, that you need a LLMD)

EMAIL ME TOO, IF YOU'D LIKE...I CAN ALSO GIVE YOU MY PHONE NUMBER.

PAINTEDRABBIT

JOE,
Thanks 4 the encouragement.

MADDOG,
I use to feel better in the morn too until recently. Now i wake feelin the same, barely walkin, thinkin, n breathin. I have to admit im terrified of taking meds that are for animals or from a pharmacy out of US. Im afraid of gettin the wrong thing n haven a bad trip or allergic reaction. Gosh imjust a ball of fear. Pathetic i know. Thanks for Your support.

ONCEBITTEN,
Thanks 4 the info and support.

HAPYCARLESSDAVE,
Thanks n yes ive posted 4 a doc in my state.. still waiting...Ill look into self medicating, but not sure where n how to get reliable n safe meds.Kinda scarey. Again thanks.

JESUSISLORD,
Indeed he is Lord and is the main thing that keeps me hangin on if only by a thread. I have gone up spiritually, but not sure if ill ever get meds to pull up physically. Thank you 4 your prayer, I pray 4 you also n for the others on here also. Godbless.

NANCY,
If i could travel out of state 4 a doc I surely would. Im glad to hear that you n so many here have access to LLMDs. I truely am,though i must admit a bit of envy lol sorry. Thank you for your support.

And if I only could,
I'd make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building.
If I only could, oh...

But alas I can't swap places with you. I can only say I that I have been right there where you are, felt the utter dispair, both real and imagined. All you can do is take one day at a time and KNOW that there is an end even if you can't see it. Trust that you can make it through it, God will see you through it, surrender to trust in Him. It is easy when things are going good but now I KNOW it's SOOOO hard to do. I mean what good is an invisible God when the rent is do??? You will be supprised how in retrospect you will see Him more than you can now in the midst of it all. Remember you have this firm promise, I'll never leave you or forsake you.

So just as you are "BarelyBreathin" the air you can't see BarelyBelivin will do too

So "Be Bold, be strong, for the Lord you God is with you, wheresoever thou goest"

Sent

I too can really relate to everything that you're going through and just wanted to let you know that you couldn't have come to a better group of people for support...

I have little ones at home too and I can't tell you how many times I've wondered how I'm going to make it through the day because I am so exhausted and consumed by this terrible disease. I, like many, don't have a positive test result and the constant fear of death is often overwhelming-to the point where I am struck with these panic attacts. You aren't alone and we're all here to listen and help.

It's terrible that there isn't a single LLMD in your area that can help you-but hopefully you will find a lead in the doctor search.

Feel inside many times like I am on a slow torturing death route.

I worked as long as could to help others at pain clinic. It helped me too. I do my best to laugh & keep others around me doing so when I have others around. I live alone, not sure which is worse. Was sick not knowing what was wrong trying to raise my kids,& dodge a stalking ex on top of it all.

I have made out my grateful list,laugh list, on days I feel down.
This is not just depression, it is wondering how much longer can 1 keep fighting with very small amount of support. No 1 except us who have lived with chronic illness longer than anyone should.
Used to have lots fighting spirit, that is even hard to muster when so ill & weak anymore.

I send you my blessing,support that maybe not tomorrow but there will be better days in our future. It is all we can work towards.

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