I was feeling pretty good today...I went out and bought a new phone and was sooo excited with it. I downloaded ring tones and wallpapers and stuff and then it comes to 10pm when I am ready to go to sleep...

and I remember helloooooo moron you have Lyme Nad are on IV treatment and haven't done it today. How can I possibly forget this when I have a freaking PICC in my arm?

My boyfriend has to get up at 5 am or earlier every morning was up till 1am last night cause I was in the ER with chest pains.....

turned out to be nothing....muscoloskeletal pain....discharge papers say Motrin for pain, Rest and follow up with Dr.

Thanks a lot...should've stayed home. I'm so sorry for this. I just feel like I am going crazy. I am in such denial of the fact that I am still sick. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired..........

This is the only thing that gives me hope is to talk to other people with Lyme cause NOONE else understands worth a damn.

They give me sympathy...they look at me like a dying dog. It makes me so mad. But how can I be mad at someone for something they don't understand. Ack.......Feel like my head is going to explode..

Think I'm Herxing real bad...just started Rocephin again on Friday so I don't know....

Thanks for listening to my insanity........

Take Care
Abbie

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You can only see the stars when its the darkest.................

Hang in there. I think you will feel better after this wave and will be riding another wave soon.

Well..

Did you let your boyfriend get some sleep last night.. or were you bothering him AGAIN with those chest pains?

The rules say you can wake him.. or keep him awake.. for IMPORTANT THINGS ONLY!

I thought you would have KNOWN THAT!

Things like...

Needing someone to crush the ice cause you don't like how the cubes rattle when you put them in the glass.

Or..

Asking him to wash your blue jeans after midnight because the other 6 pairs you have might not be the ones you feel like wearing around the house tomorrow.

Or...

Getting him to change the half full roll of paper towels on the holder because the little pink print in the ones there now don't quite match the color on the kitchen walls.

You know... IMPORTANT STUFF!

I mean HEY! What were you thinking?

I am SURE you wouldn't want HIM to wake YOU up if he was having chest pains!!!

I am pretty sure he would prefer to tuff that out ALONE while you rested.

And about forgetting stuff... hmmmmmm....

Shame on you!

I mean GEEZE!

You have teeth.. don't you!

You would NEVER forget to brush and floss after EVERY meal.. would you?

And you would NEVER forget to eat every meal at the proper time of day.. would you?

And you would NEVER EVER forget to take something out of the freezer for supper till the last minute... would you?

Then WHY on earth would you forget to do something you REALLY don't like to do... like the meds... when you are tired and sick and have a hundred other things you need to be doing?

I just don't know...

Sometimes I just don't "get" this Lyme disease.

Cheer up sweetie...

There are better days coming.... for sure.

Did you at least get some good ring tones and wallpapers? (I'm stuck on the Gilligans Island Theme right now for my ring tone.)

Pain that sends you to the ER is never "nothing" . . . no matter what the freakin duck at the ER makes you feel like. And as I stated earlier, you're boyfriend was with you because he loves you. I see you live in NYC . . . he could have just stuck you in a cab! ;-)

I got Bittersweet Symphony as my ring tone and 2 cool wallpapers.....

anyways.....It helped al lot after I finally fell asleep to wake up and read this!

Thanks Tincup....I guess that makes sense....not wanting to do something so I put it off and then forgot it. I do that with the freezer all the time.

I am in a ridiculus amount of pain (noo not chest pain, body pain...no more ER ) but I can deal with it as long as im in a decent frame of mind. Thanks so much for being here and helping me get through this

Take Care
Abbie

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"You can only see the stars when its the darkest."

Have a great day.